- Jul 12, 2011
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It's horrible being not popular...
I guess in America I was always near the top 20 and I didn't really think about it. Now, in the middle of the American night time I'm not so popular and I cry because there are some girls with MASSIVE cam scores. I can't help assuming that because they're higher rated than me, they're better/more interesting/funnier/prettier people with better bodies, lives and I shouldn't even bother competing because I'll never be as important and liked as them.
I've never sounded more like a 14 year old emo.
Okay, that's my bit. Just wanted to share.
I know I'm insecure and lots of models might not necessarily be the most popular but they enjoy it and are happy... but I find it hard to be happy when it's all ONE BIG GODDAMN COMPETITION AND I'M LOSING! >.<
I can't help my feelings!
I guess in America I was always near the top 20 and I didn't really think about it. Now, in the middle of the American night time I'm not so popular and I cry because there are some girls with MASSIVE cam scores. I can't help assuming that because they're higher rated than me, they're better/more interesting/funnier/prettier people with better bodies, lives and I shouldn't even bother competing because I'll never be as important and liked as them.
I've never sounded more like a 14 year old emo.
Okay, that's my bit. Just wanted to share.
I know I'm insecure and lots of models might not necessarily be the most popular but they enjoy it and are happy... but I find it hard to be happy when it's all ONE BIG GODDAMN COMPETITION AND I'M LOSING! >.<
I can't help my feelings!