Trixxi_Love
Cam Model
- Mar 10, 2021
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- Twitter Username
- @Trixxilove
- Streamate Username
- TrixxiLove69
- Chaturbate Username
- Trixxilove
Reminds me of when I was a stripper in a dive club. It’s all fantasy for both parties and I myself had to learn the hard way. A man came in to my club and treated me well, tipped generously, acted gentlemanly (comparatively) and we shared mutual interests. I had a fantasy he would “rescue” me from my bad relationship.yeah lol didn't know so many greek letters have meaning.
anyway to the OP.
Honestly, it seems to me that you actually like this shit deep down. Not kink shaming, you do you bro. But there's cold hard facts right there staring you in the face (hell she practically shoved them down your throat), and the fact that you're still persistent tells me that you like being in this situation.
buuuuut on the off chance that you are genuinely heartbroken (but still persistent). My advice is to just stop. Nothing good will come out of this, this is just you being caught up in the moment, and it's not your fault, sometimes things happen and catch you when you're vulnerable. Catching feelings from PMs or privates is normal, but you need to learn to check that shit and be able to filter what's real or what's part of what you paid for.
Can a sex worker fall in love with a member? yeah sure it can happen, it happens waaaaaaaay less than you think but it does happen, they're just people too. Unfortunately this isn't one of those times.
Well this is how the fantasy played into reality. One day after a shift he took me to dinner. We got so incredibly drunk that he drove me to his home which I had never been to. In my mind all I knew was he had a home in the country and he knew how to build homes.
This place was several acres of abandoned vehicles with weeds growing over them. The “home” was a double wide engulfed in Blackberry vines that he used a machete to cut just to enter the dwelling.
There was a pile of dishes taller than me with all types of species of insects and maggots etc. Blackberries grew in through the windows. He was a hoarder. The bathroom had a pile of cigarette butts the size of a large jackrabbit. The tub was completely black except for a space where two footprints were. The beer bottles everywhere was akin to a wild college party. The piles of trash I had to move to just find a place to sit. I could go on and on and on.
So I had a thick fantasy that this man could “rescue me” and because he painted the picture to me that he was going to build me a beautiful home in the country one day. So I took pictures of his dwelling and every time I thought of him or I wanted to be with him I would look at them. This brought me back to reality.
Maybe you need something to help you remember reality. You said you are learning a new language? That’s great. I also love learning languages. Maybe you can try to find a language learning study group in your area to meet a real female who is genuinely single and you can befriend in your own authentic way.
The truth about us cam models and strippers is though we may like our customers, befriend our customers, or even fantasize about our customers, at the end of the day you are still customers. You are choosing to tip us and we are a luxury item for you to enjoy.
Do we live in an unfair world where some people get to have more luxury items than others? We sure fucking do. Do we live in a world where luxury items have different prices? Sure we do.
I think if you enjoy cam models and cannot afford a particular one, one alternative idea is to search for one you can afford? We are at an era where there are many more ladies camming and more cam sites available so the price range can be quite competitive.
I have personally had customers like you in my life and I do enjoy your generosity and connection but at the end of the day I enjoy most is being able to receive earnings from the website and walk away from the cam world at my leisure.
Try to think of cam models akin to accessible celebrities. If you learned a language that a celebrity spoke would that gain you entry into her private life? No, but you may get a few conversations.
Since money is your issue I highly reccomend strategizing how you spend your pleasure time online. Consider alternative sites, and also reach into your community for a potential real single female who could be there for you.
Lastly, it took me falling for a hoarder to realize this: We don’t need saving! When a man wants to save me I know immediately he knows nothing about me or my authenticity. Being an independent cam model is liberating and I highly doubt any of us would give up our freedom for a romantic partner without some good amount of forethought.
Sorry if any of my statements came off harshly as I only want to remind you of some things you can do in reality to remember what is real and what is fantasy.