i dont care about the age gap but your behavior is something i'd expect from 19 year olds. not a 34 year old man. it's time to grow up.
dude all of this is immature and quite frankly, exhausting. are you exhausted? because i sure am. you are trying so hard to paint her in a bad light. i'm not going to say anything negative about her, because she ain't here to defend or share her perspective. but you are trying to cast blame on her. it's easier to do that than take accountability.
the fact that you haven't tipped her in 6 months is insulting and tells me you only care about yourself. it was never about making her feel good. camming is a job for cammodels. it's fine if you couldn't afford it, but you had zero business being on a camsite if you couldn't afford it. you are what we in the business call an emotional wanker. emotional wankers just want attention, good or bad.