Well, everything about this is new to me, weird and have me like a dog trying to bite his tail, chasing something that is there but can't quite get it and I find myself running in circles. Its not a situation that you can speak about without looking insane so here I am, looking for any advice I can get, help or people just telling me I am in fact an idiot or crazy. Here is the story.
There are a million banners around the internet with cam sites so moved by curiosity ended up in registering in one trying to see what all the fuzz is about. Hardly did I know the "mess" I was going to get myself into. I didn't get caught up much about the cams thing but I starting speaking with a girl quite often. I must say that I like her a lot, at least as much as you can like someone who you don't actually have met in person. It is obviously not love but I never thought I could like someone I met this way that much and well she liked me too. I must clarify that she for sure wasn't/isn't playing me for money because other than a present for her birthday there has been none involved.
The time we've "known" each other is almost all the time she has been working as camgirl. After like two months we spoke about meeting and both felt pretty excited about it. When the date was closing in and everything started to feel real, she freaked out and told me we should wait to meet. Certainly it is something a bit crazy to meet someone you just know through the internet and she felt weird meeting someone she met at a camsite even though I'm just a normal guy.
Now almost a month later of the date in what we were going to met everything is starting to feel different. I notice her more distant instead of more close. It could also be all in my head ( :lol: ) and she could just be more busy or have stuff I don't know about going on. The thing is that honestly I feel frustrated. In a normal situation I would have asked her out and either she tells me to fuck off or yes. After that well, we either don't see each other again/become friends/something else happens and end of the story. Simple and no headaches. I know that if we just had met irl, she would go out with me (I just asked and she told me :mrgreen: ) but right now it sucks.
Am I being stupidor am I just acting like an impatient kid that wants things now and shoult be more patient? I just feel like a fool for "chasing" a girl through the internet like 4-5 months but obviously don't want to just give up and don't ever know what could have been and live with a million "what ifs".
SOS
There are a million banners around the internet with cam sites so moved by curiosity ended up in registering in one trying to see what all the fuzz is about. Hardly did I know the "mess" I was going to get myself into. I didn't get caught up much about the cams thing but I starting speaking with a girl quite often. I must say that I like her a lot, at least as much as you can like someone who you don't actually have met in person. It is obviously not love but I never thought I could like someone I met this way that much and well she liked me too. I must clarify that she for sure wasn't/isn't playing me for money because other than a present for her birthday there has been none involved.
The time we've "known" each other is almost all the time she has been working as camgirl. After like two months we spoke about meeting and both felt pretty excited about it. When the date was closing in and everything started to feel real, she freaked out and told me we should wait to meet. Certainly it is something a bit crazy to meet someone you just know through the internet and she felt weird meeting someone she met at a camsite even though I'm just a normal guy.
Now almost a month later of the date in what we were going to met everything is starting to feel different. I notice her more distant instead of more close. It could also be all in my head ( :lol: ) and she could just be more busy or have stuff I don't know about going on. The thing is that honestly I feel frustrated. In a normal situation I would have asked her out and either she tells me to fuck off or yes. After that well, we either don't see each other again/become friends/something else happens and end of the story. Simple and no headaches. I know that if we just had met irl, she would go out with me (I just asked and she told me :mrgreen: ) but right now it sucks.
Am I being stupidor am I just acting like an impatient kid that wants things now and shoult be more patient? I just feel like a fool for "chasing" a girl through the internet like 4-5 months but obviously don't want to just give up and don't ever know what could have been and live with a million "what ifs".
SOS