Reading this thread is gonna give me nightmares, man. Tonight was my 5th night and I was dreading getting on cam because I finally got rid of the new model tag and knew traffic would be low (or lower than usual)... but I sucked it up and went on (more nervous than I had been previously) for the first hour or so, only a few of my "regulars" showed up and it was mostly just chatter and I thought, "well, alright, I guess it's not working out so I'll log off when the hour is up... for now I'll just act pleasant, no big deal" but then it picked up pace (thank god.) Unfortunately now I'm gonna be dreading every single time I get on cam. However, my advice is to just suck it up and act like you're enjoying yourself - because from a member's perspective I've always skipped over the models that looked visibly upset. (Which I know can be hard/emotionally-draining to contain.)
I'd like to say that my tags are the reason why people come into my room but I find that most of my tags are very fetish oriented and I basically had to explain to most of the people in my room what the deal was tonight. I wish I knew what it was that got people coming in because honestly I wasn't doing much half of the time, just moving around a lot and talking. I'm praying Friday will be okay because I have waxplay planned which is really, really special because I've only done it once before, and I don't want to go through all that trouble for nothing.
But yeah, horror inducing stuff. I've started treating this as more of an experiment i.e. "how long can I keep this up before I'm on page 4 with a camscore of 110 and quit" more than anything else.