Hello everyone
First of all, I appreciate you taking the time to read this.
The first part is so cliché, it's the rest of the story I wonder might be actually something real or not.
To give some context about me, I am a 28 years old man with autistic spectrum disorder Asperger and I don't see the world as most people, to just give the points that are related to the subject I am :
Hypersensitive, very naive, a dreamer and don't know what normal social interactions are, I had/ have to study, work on it to understand some human behaviors, including studying non-verbal communications and I'm extremely self-conscious about my own behaviors and mental state.
I joined LJ june of this year, I guess I was feeling lonely and needed human interaction, that was not the place to go to nor I should have subjected myself to go there, but I did joined LJ.
I had a private with one girl that was there for a long time, but I didn't like the money-sexual experience -at-all (we now talk casually through soundcloud tho lol ) and then "met" this *new* girl. (Alisson)
We "connected" over our dogs and talked then I had a sexual private with her too where I was very generous, which is when she probably chose to target me. As I was not comfortable with paying for sex at all I stopped.
She had just adopted a dog which was sick (I know from 3rd party that was actually true) and was feeling very sad about it + not much sleep, so I was spending hours in private so she could rest or we would just talk to get her mind off things.
After that she started faking medical issues, so I would go to private with her and she would be able to be under blanket etc
When we were not in private, I was hanging with her in her free chat at her request, since I am "stuck" at home taking care of my old dog, I had nothing better to do anyway. So we talked hundreds of hours, and I got infatuated with her, but she was reciprocating the feelings, in a weird way.
When it was not sickness, she was being mad out of nowhere to me, and with the strict rules (and some of them she was adding because I didn't know anything about LJ) I had to start hours long privates so I could reassure her on my feelings for her (jesus I feel so dumb writing this)
Then, around September she started being late at her studio, or not coming, faking medical issues to them too, afraid of losing her, because she was telling me she couldn't work there anymore with her lateness and sickness, I attempted the sharing of my private information through a youtube comment on a song we both liked.
She faked the studio catching us and made it look like she was temporarily banned. -> She was just in vacation with her husband
I felt of course very bad about this, as if I ruined her life, so I was sending money to her still even though we were talking only every 2 to 7 days depending, by private messages.
At this point I knew something was up for a few weeks but I made such a big conscious leap of faith to engage in that "relationship" that I couldn't stop, but it was tearing me apart.
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OK if you have been patient until now, I think this part is less cliché in its approach because I haven't found anything close to that on internet.
Until one day.. I received the weirdest message... from another cam girl.. but through Alisson's account.
It was another girl from the studio (Lory), but also one that monitor other girls (because she helps a lot at her studio) that was contacting me because she felt compelled to tell me the truth about Alisson.
She was asking me to come to her page so I could see and we could talk, which I did. We went to private so she could explain to me how "Alisson" was married, was making a fool out of me, medical issues were fake, the second dog she had was not her dog but the studio's dog and she showed me through internal messages Instagram captures of her with her husband.
She wanted to be sure I was believing her so wanted to show me a video for the whole truth but couldn't because at that specific point, I couldn't put anymore money into LJ anymore and there was a credit lock on videos.
So she shared me her number (inside a picture) so we could talk on whatsapp and send me the videos.
I was actually extremely relieved and moved on quite quickly the worst was not knowing, and especially thinking I had ruin her life and career.
Since then, I have been talking to this "Lory" for 2 months on whatsapp only, as I will never ever go back to LJ or any other cam website, it's just not-me.
So I read if you are asking yourself "am I getting scammed " (again), you probably are.
For now we are just being real sweet to each others and sharing details of our lives through pics and talking from awakening to sleeping.
But for now she never asked for anything, nor I gave anything (I intend to send her some belgian chocolate tho ), she did give me her address for that purpose.
She never asked for anything or made allusion of her needing help about her situation.
I'm not sure I have another question other than "have you heard of something similar to that second part ?" or if I just needed to share it and talk with people that are in this business.
I'm sorry for the long post and if it was not appropriate to post in the first place. If you have questions, I'll be watching this thread carefully, thank you !
First of all, I appreciate you taking the time to read this.
The first part is so cliché, it's the rest of the story I wonder might be actually something real or not.
To give some context about me, I am a 28 years old man with autistic spectrum disorder Asperger and I don't see the world as most people, to just give the points that are related to the subject I am :
Hypersensitive, very naive, a dreamer and don't know what normal social interactions are, I had/ have to study, work on it to understand some human behaviors, including studying non-verbal communications and I'm extremely self-conscious about my own behaviors and mental state.
I joined LJ june of this year, I guess I was feeling lonely and needed human interaction, that was not the place to go to nor I should have subjected myself to go there, but I did joined LJ.
I had a private with one girl that was there for a long time, but I didn't like the money-sexual experience -at-all (we now talk casually through soundcloud tho lol ) and then "met" this *new* girl. (Alisson)
We "connected" over our dogs and talked then I had a sexual private with her too where I was very generous, which is when she probably chose to target me. As I was not comfortable with paying for sex at all I stopped.
She had just adopted a dog which was sick (I know from 3rd party that was actually true) and was feeling very sad about it + not much sleep, so I was spending hours in private so she could rest or we would just talk to get her mind off things.
After that she started faking medical issues, so I would go to private with her and she would be able to be under blanket etc
When we were not in private, I was hanging with her in her free chat at her request, since I am "stuck" at home taking care of my old dog, I had nothing better to do anyway. So we talked hundreds of hours, and I got infatuated with her, but she was reciprocating the feelings, in a weird way.
When it was not sickness, she was being mad out of nowhere to me, and with the strict rules (and some of them she was adding because I didn't know anything about LJ) I had to start hours long privates so I could reassure her on my feelings for her (jesus I feel so dumb writing this)
Then, around September she started being late at her studio, or not coming, faking medical issues to them too, afraid of losing her, because she was telling me she couldn't work there anymore with her lateness and sickness, I attempted the sharing of my private information through a youtube comment on a song we both liked.
She faked the studio catching us and made it look like she was temporarily banned. -> She was just in vacation with her husband
I felt of course very bad about this, as if I ruined her life, so I was sending money to her still even though we were talking only every 2 to 7 days depending, by private messages.
At this point I knew something was up for a few weeks but I made such a big conscious leap of faith to engage in that "relationship" that I couldn't stop, but it was tearing me apart.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------
OK if you have been patient until now, I think this part is less cliché in its approach because I haven't found anything close to that on internet.
Until one day.. I received the weirdest message... from another cam girl.. but through Alisson's account.
It was another girl from the studio (Lory), but also one that monitor other girls (because she helps a lot at her studio) that was contacting me because she felt compelled to tell me the truth about Alisson.
She was asking me to come to her page so I could see and we could talk, which I did. We went to private so she could explain to me how "Alisson" was married, was making a fool out of me, medical issues were fake, the second dog she had was not her dog but the studio's dog and she showed me through internal messages Instagram captures of her with her husband.
She wanted to be sure I was believing her so wanted to show me a video for the whole truth but couldn't because at that specific point, I couldn't put anymore money into LJ anymore and there was a credit lock on videos.
So she shared me her number (inside a picture) so we could talk on whatsapp and send me the videos.
I was actually extremely relieved and moved on quite quickly the worst was not knowing, and especially thinking I had ruin her life and career.
Since then, I have been talking to this "Lory" for 2 months on whatsapp only, as I will never ever go back to LJ or any other cam website, it's just not-me.
So I read if you are asking yourself "am I getting scammed " (again), you probably are.
For now we are just being real sweet to each others and sharing details of our lives through pics and talking from awakening to sleeping.
But for now she never asked for anything, nor I gave anything (I intend to send her some belgian chocolate tho ), she did give me her address for that purpose.
She never asked for anything or made allusion of her needing help about her situation.
I'm not sure I have another question other than "have you heard of something similar to that second part ?" or if I just needed to share it and talk with people that are in this business.
I'm sorry for the long post and if it was not appropriate to post in the first place. If you have questions, I'll be watching this thread carefully, thank you !