My original "Got banned" thread Link here
TLDR for people who don't want to read all of that
Met a model on CB, vibed really well together, took privates 3 days in a row, and then got banned on the third day. She said I was "dangerous". Unbanned about a day later.
The update:
So that particular model in my original thread unbanned me and DM'd me asking if I wanted to talk about what happened. I said sure, because I wanted to get clarity on what happened, and if I did something wrong that upset her. Well to my surprise, she apologized, saying what she did wasn't right and she shouldn't have done it. She blamed it on her hormones, saying she was overly emotional because of it, but she was fine now and she realized her mistake and wanted to continue being friends with me. I said cool as long as she doesn't ban me again.
So it's water under the bridge, and I hang out in her room, and we'd continue having the flirty, sexy, sometimes serious conversations. And it was fun and I soon found myself hanging out in her room more often, until it became a daily thing for us. At first I was wary that it was gonna be a love scam of some sort because of the way we started, but I soon started letting my guard down.
Before long I start to feel that I'm slightly starting to catch feelings for this girl, maybe it's the long talks I'm not sure, and I think she was too. She would DM me if I wasn't there or if I was "late" for her slot. She would panic if I was silent for a while (because sometimes I'm working and can't pay full attention so I just leave the site on in another tab while I got some work done), and would ask if I was still there.
We also talk outside of the site on her socials mostly. Not as long as when she was online, but it was the same sexy flirty stuff.
And then I said it, "I love you", I don't know why and I deleted it right away hoping she didn't see. But she saw, and asked me if I was being serious, because this was scaring her. I said "yeah". And she said it back.
After a while she started treating me differently in the room. She would do things for me, that I never saw her do for anyone else, not on CB nor on the other site she was on. She's non-nude, so all the room gets is a tease or a quick nip flash at best. She would give me things like lovense control, which a) nobody tips for and b) I never saw it controlled by anyone else (the room gives notifications when it's being controlled) and so far it only happens when she gives it to me, I don't think she even gives it during her privates with other members, because the room gets notified of that too (at least when we're in private and she gives me control).
I appreciate the gesture immensely, because it's the first time I've experienced that with a model. Usually it's pay before you play which is the norm. I still tip because I do take up most of her time, and it makes me feel like a thief if I don't tip.
So anyway I think she's being genuine with what she says she feels for me (I'm not 100% of course but it feels like that), and that's scary to me. I like her a lot too, but we both know and accept that this thing has a very slim chance of being something more than what's happening now. We even both said that we'll try to keep it going for as long as we can, we're having fun and that's all that matters.
And before anyone asks, I don't think it's a love scam. She hasn't told me a sob story about a grandma, or someone in the hospital or is ill with whatever disease. We haven't talked about money or the lack of it, in fact she refuses my money sometimes. Sometimes I'd invite her for a private and she'd say no it's getting too expensive for you, we'll have more time, and that was weirdly sweet. We haven't talked about how I'd rescue her from cam model hell, and she has made no indication of ever wanting to run away with me or someone else. She does say that it would be awesome if we were to meet IRL, but she's accepted that it might not happen because we're too far apart.
And now every time we spend time together I catch more and more feelings, it's driving me nuts, because I already know this won't go anywhere and I let myself slide in deeper.
Anyway so that's that. I don't even know why I wrote this here, because I know when I click "Post Thread" then the next 10 - 15 replies would be people calling me an idiot for getting into this situation. I'm not even asking for advice, because I already what advice that would be.
I know exactly what I have to do, I just haven't done it.
I guess I'm just putting it out there, because I don't really have anyone to share this with, and I wanted it out there to clear some headspace and maybe hoping for an opinion or a similar experience that isn't "member is an idiot that thinks with his dick"
Anyway thanks ACF for giving me a space to rant like this.
TLDR for people who don't want to read all of that
Met a model on CB, vibed really well together, took privates 3 days in a row, and then got banned on the third day. She said I was "dangerous". Unbanned about a day later.
The update:
So that particular model in my original thread unbanned me and DM'd me asking if I wanted to talk about what happened. I said sure, because I wanted to get clarity on what happened, and if I did something wrong that upset her. Well to my surprise, she apologized, saying what she did wasn't right and she shouldn't have done it. She blamed it on her hormones, saying she was overly emotional because of it, but she was fine now and she realized her mistake and wanted to continue being friends with me. I said cool as long as she doesn't ban me again.
So it's water under the bridge, and I hang out in her room, and we'd continue having the flirty, sexy, sometimes serious conversations. And it was fun and I soon found myself hanging out in her room more often, until it became a daily thing for us. At first I was wary that it was gonna be a love scam of some sort because of the way we started, but I soon started letting my guard down.
Before long I start to feel that I'm slightly starting to catch feelings for this girl, maybe it's the long talks I'm not sure, and I think she was too. She would DM me if I wasn't there or if I was "late" for her slot. She would panic if I was silent for a while (because sometimes I'm working and can't pay full attention so I just leave the site on in another tab while I got some work done), and would ask if I was still there.
We also talk outside of the site on her socials mostly. Not as long as when she was online, but it was the same sexy flirty stuff.
And then I said it, "I love you", I don't know why and I deleted it right away hoping she didn't see. But she saw, and asked me if I was being serious, because this was scaring her. I said "yeah". And she said it back.
After a while she started treating me differently in the room. She would do things for me, that I never saw her do for anyone else, not on CB nor on the other site she was on. She's non-nude, so all the room gets is a tease or a quick nip flash at best. She would give me things like lovense control, which a) nobody tips for and b) I never saw it controlled by anyone else (the room gives notifications when it's being controlled) and so far it only happens when she gives it to me, I don't think she even gives it during her privates with other members, because the room gets notified of that too (at least when we're in private and she gives me control).
I appreciate the gesture immensely, because it's the first time I've experienced that with a model. Usually it's pay before you play which is the norm. I still tip because I do take up most of her time, and it makes me feel like a thief if I don't tip.
So anyway I think she's being genuine with what she says she feels for me (I'm not 100% of course but it feels like that), and that's scary to me. I like her a lot too, but we both know and accept that this thing has a very slim chance of being something more than what's happening now. We even both said that we'll try to keep it going for as long as we can, we're having fun and that's all that matters.
And before anyone asks, I don't think it's a love scam. She hasn't told me a sob story about a grandma, or someone in the hospital or is ill with whatever disease. We haven't talked about money or the lack of it, in fact she refuses my money sometimes. Sometimes I'd invite her for a private and she'd say no it's getting too expensive for you, we'll have more time, and that was weirdly sweet. We haven't talked about how I'd rescue her from cam model hell, and she has made no indication of ever wanting to run away with me or someone else. She does say that it would be awesome if we were to meet IRL, but she's accepted that it might not happen because we're too far apart.
And now every time we spend time together I catch more and more feelings, it's driving me nuts, because I already know this won't go anywhere and I let myself slide in deeper.
Anyway so that's that. I don't even know why I wrote this here, because I know when I click "Post Thread" then the next 10 - 15 replies would be people calling me an idiot for getting into this situation. I'm not even asking for advice, because I already what advice that would be.
I know exactly what I have to do, I just haven't done it.
I guess I'm just putting it out there, because I don't really have anyone to share this with, and I wanted it out there to clear some headspace and maybe hoping for an opinion or a similar experience that isn't "member is an idiot that thinks with his dick"
Anyway thanks ACF for giving me a space to rant like this.
