It affected me to the point that I didn't even want to log in.
Took a step back over the last couple of days. I can really relate to this.
Seems like I have passed through a lot of rooms lately where the model was having a bad night. The sourness has just built up.
Even in rooms where things are going ok, it just seems so...idk, shallow? I saw a room I had so much fun in a while back, haven't been in there in a long time; went in for a few minutes, there was much less chat, and what there was just seemed tedious. Another model I really enjoyed who quit messaged me the other day, said she was coming back. Don't even have any desire to go. None.
I sat down yesterday and asked myself, when was the last time I actually enjoyed webcams? I remembered; had to go back and look it up in tip history. It was one of the smallest little people I have ever seen (looks like she's been gone for a while now); Sweet_lil_Mia.
I chit-chatted a little, found out she was camming to try and take a vacation to Australia. When I started tipping Lil Mia's face lit up, she started squealing, bouncing up and down on the bed, clapping her little hands...it was such an outpouring of genuine delight, it made me feel kind of happy for a day or so afterwards. Idk...
I'm not sure if it is just me or what. Based on the advice VeraPrice gave, I decided to make a list of everything that was bothering me. I wrote "Grey Mare" at the top to signify all the little tidbits of bad news associated with the Birthday Girl; then I forced myself to write down anything negative that I could think of that
wasn't related to her situation. Appears I have been pushing a number unpleasant realities aside. Some can be improved; some are just going to require acceptance.