That was a wild ride reading all of that right after waking up.
Anyway, in case OP is still coming back to read the comments here, go get therapy. Love scams are fucked up and any time using dating apps/sites to promote cam rooms has been brought up on the forum everyone here agrees it’s a terrible idea. However, your behavior is absolutely unhinged.
Yeah, she probably lied to you and more than likely she is not in love with you. That sucks to hear, I get it, but look at your own behavior. Just in this thread you’ve admitted to stalking her by literally taking lord knows how much time to find what apartment complex she lives in by comparing the flooring in a picture she sent you and making multiple cam accounts to see what she does on cam when you’re not around. There’s no telling what else you’ve done that you haven’t admitted to here. Her lying to you doesn’t excuse your own creepy behavior. If a man I was genuinely interested in did some shit like that I would NEVER speak to him again and would feel legitimately unsafe.
Not to mention the way you’ve spoken about her. You’ve called her *checks notes* a “lying, conniving, deceiving, money-hungry and otherwise greedy attention whore cam bitch”. You’ve said that you would want her thrown in jail for the rest of her life. Which, hate to break it to you, hurting someone’s feefees (you yourself admit to rarely sending her money) is not illegal. But anyway, someone who truly loves someone else doesn’t think this way about them. They don’t go to forums and call them nasty names. I honestly wish she could read the shit you’ve written here so she would know to ban you from every single possible avenue of communication.
It honestly seems that your lack of romantic experience (from your own admission) has really skewed your perception. In your current state, I’d say any romantic relationship you get into is doomed to fail, because the moment you think she is lying you’re willing to completely invade her privacy and eventually go absolutely nuclear with “bringing down god’s wrath” or whatever. I fear for the safety of anyone you end up with. Get a therapist, talk these things out and maybe you can get a real, loving relationship one day.
And remember, OP, always ask yourself before going nuclear:
What Would Jesus Do?