Hi, I don't really know if it is appropriate to write this topic, but I just feel helpless. I've been a camgirl for over 1 year now and was pretty happy with it until a while ago, but lately it just makes me sad and I feel like an „outsider“ in this world.
I'll just start by writing everything off my mind. It actually started with the fact that all of my regular customers suddenly stayed away and I only have greys in my room who insult and abuse me. Then when some guys with tokens write me, it's messages like this:
„Hello, your pussy looks like it belongs to a child or a little girl“
„wow you are really fat“
„Hi what drugs do you use?“
„Fake bitch“
„piss off“
these are just a few examples. I noticed that people make nasty remarks about me in other rooms and that they would then call me “the teacher” because I wear glasses. So they write in other chatrooms „oh „the teacher“ is so fake I'd rather stay here at least you don't pretend“.
I've just been fucking hurt lately that some people think they have to bully me. I've always been nice to everyone (maybe too nice) and I'm the last one to fake anything. I think there are former moderators that I have removed from my room, who try to badmouth me everywhere. I also don't know what to do anymore, not only that I don't earn anything and that nobody is in my room chatting with me, I also have to feel bad that I am who I am.
I feel like at school again, where I was bullied and nobody wanted to have anything to do with me.
I've been having nightmares again lately and somehow not having as much appetite, I'm irritable and I hardly dare to step in front of the cam. I don't know if I should give up and get unemployed again. I don't even know what to do or why everyone thinks I'm fakei just need help.
I'll just start by writing everything off my mind. It actually started with the fact that all of my regular customers suddenly stayed away and I only have greys in my room who insult and abuse me. Then when some guys with tokens write me, it's messages like this:
„Hello, your pussy looks like it belongs to a child or a little girl“
„wow you are really fat“
„Hi what drugs do you use?“
„Fake bitch“
„piss off“
these are just a few examples. I noticed that people make nasty remarks about me in other rooms and that they would then call me “the teacher” because I wear glasses. So they write in other chatrooms „oh „the teacher“ is so fake I'd rather stay here at least you don't pretend“.
I've just been fucking hurt lately that some people think they have to bully me. I've always been nice to everyone (maybe too nice) and I'm the last one to fake anything. I think there are former moderators that I have removed from my room, who try to badmouth me everywhere. I also don't know what to do anymore, not only that I don't earn anything and that nobody is in my room chatting with me, I also have to feel bad that I am who I am.
I feel like at school again, where I was bullied and nobody wanted to have anything to do with me.
I've been having nightmares again lately and somehow not having as much appetite, I'm irritable and I hardly dare to step in front of the cam. I don't know if I should give up and get unemployed again. I don't even know what to do or why everyone thinks I'm fakei just need help.