Ok so I was talking to a cam model on HDcams aka jerkmate same site anyways. I went into a rabbit hole to hell when I dropped in a room where this supposedly new girl 24 yrs old was working. I was expecting to be kicked as I usually am for creepiness I had said to block me she insisted we just talk a bit lol I warned her I'm just browsing it's a waste. She insisted she likes talking and had a good feeling about it. I know and knew for the moment at least she was full of it but she was so charming yet careful and subtle. I said subtle for a reason. Yes I'm a idiot.!!! That's out the way she started the conversation and held it up till I started digging it and talked back. She got nicer and sweeter over 4 days I didn't pay yet but the long game was in both minds I know it
. She started teaching me like one language then another three hours later. She spoke well and just talked about literally everything with me. She never asked about me buying a show or anything but then I just started tipping after a while as of course I should and long story short I did and sometimes didn't for 3 days apart. She started using the L word because I was always round about romantic chatting so I guess good strategy for her. Sometimes she ignored others and thats where it got weird. See she was doing lessons lol, and telling stories and just chatting me up. But I was broke by this time always more than usual. Sometimes she sent for me in the box to ask where I was and why I wasn't there but only a day was between the last visit. She knew and we discussed I'm not ok "mentally" and she started to say that I don't need to give gold unless I want something special. I tipped anyway when I had but then. Lol I stopped for a bit again and we talked better she told more personal stuff not that I believe she told me real stuff I'm dumb but hey now
I wrote her poetry she said the L word again for the 2nd time. She was always super interested in me. I was broke on most days and she talked for two weeks. Then on my birthday she brought a lot of stuff and decorated her room for me, she had told me to come on that day I said I won't have anything even then and she said it was fine she had a surprise. Lol so finally after I got my bread flow she didn't want my gold by then and I started wanting some porn lol "give me a show you show others let me pay for that" she replied we aren't that way I like you and we talk and hang out don't ruin it. I lost my damn mind because there was no limit to me being there. Her own words come all the time I love you and I like you to be here with me. Then the flood came lol look she always had a full house but damn now everyone was in there talking wild to her and my dumb ass felt some way so instead of attacking them I wanted a show. She did say once if you wanted a show you should have talked like that but you came in different. So things changed she changed I changed too and members were doing stuff we didn't do and she wouldn't let me pay for with gold I was actually spending sometimes but she told me not to tip too crazy so I said fuck it and stopped and had gold on account that's when suspicion rose in me. She said I wasn't like them they are work blah blah. Well long story short it got ugly and she wanted to hear nothing of a show and I got my show but she got dark after that because she said I did something on private to humiliate her instead of exclusive. After that there was a rage in her inbox from me and yes it's dumb. Then I was very vulgar at one point before that in a argument in a message. She said it was over something I didn't understand and she shouldn't need to explain. She said we are different. I bugged out more. Lol but she didn't block. She said I was ruining everything and she didn't know what happened to me. I don't know bs about having emotions? Any who we ended up being evil after a while and I told her as I did many times before just block if you don't want my pay. I know I could just leave but I was hooked or in dumb love. Just block I am going to eventually come here and she said she wanted me to come but I ruined a friend ship. She said in truth she didn't like the idea of a show because she considered maybe knowing me and she thought of me as a friend outside of the work but it's different. Trust me I didn't believe it. I did know that I fell in love tho. I asked if I could fix it and she said yes with time though. I tried fixing it as she said I could but she said no gold no gold talk no bad subject just talk like we did before story laughing joking. She said it was too rash to block me if it could hurt later but she absolutely stopped expanding on what she said ever. As if she learned. Well I rushed it in two days as I'm very odd and dumb in this regard. But no takers from either me or her because it just got so bad and ended nasty. I finally seen her other side and in fairness she had seen mine because I recall some wickedness on my end and she accidentally or on purpose cried. However days later when she asked how I wanted to be treated and then turned Ice cold I was shattered like glass, she learned to ignore and sometimes laugh at me and the turn was permanent and she ended it with a smile. The inbox was a verbal bloodbath after. So was she just inexperienced and overdoing it with a GFE and I bugged out or did I ruin something? Cause I don't think she gave two shakes of a rats (can I curse here) from the jump or in between but just didn't know her game yet and practice turned malicious. I don't know?
. She started teaching me like one language then another three hours later. She spoke well and just talked about literally everything with me. She never asked about me buying a show or anything but then I just started tipping after a while as of course I should and long story short I did and sometimes didn't for 3 days apart. She started using the L word because I was always round about romantic chatting so I guess good strategy for her. Sometimes she ignored others and thats where it got weird. See she was doing lessons lol, and telling stories and just chatting me up. But I was broke by this time always more than usual. Sometimes she sent for me in the box to ask where I was and why I wasn't there but only a day was between the last visit. She knew and we discussed I'm not ok "mentally" and she started to say that I don't need to give gold unless I want something special. I tipped anyway when I had but then. Lol I stopped for a bit again and we talked better she told more personal stuff not that I believe she told me real stuff I'm dumb but hey now I wrote her poetry she said the L word again for the 2nd time. She was always super interested in me. I was broke on most days and she talked for two weeks. Then on my birthday she brought a lot of stuff and decorated her room for me, she had told me to come on that day I said I won't have anything even then and she said it was fine she had a surprise. Lol so finally after I got my bread flow she didn't want my gold by then and I started wanting some porn lol "give me a show you show others let me pay for that" she replied we aren't that way I like you and we talk and hang out don't ruin it. I lost my damn mind because there was no limit to me being there. Her own words come all the time I love you and I like you to be here with me. Then the flood came lol look she always had a full house but damn now everyone was in there talking wild to her and my dumb ass felt some way so instead of attacking them I wanted a show. She did say once if you wanted a show you should have talked like that but you came in different. So things changed she changed I changed too and members were doing stuff we didn't do and she wouldn't let me pay for with gold I was actually spending sometimes but she told me not to tip too crazy so I said fuck it and stopped and had gold on account that's when suspicion rose in me. She said I wasn't like them they are work blah blah. Well long story short it got ugly and she wanted to hear nothing of a show and I got my show but she got dark after that because she said I did something on private to humiliate her instead of exclusive. After that there was a rage in her inbox from me and yes it's dumb. Then I was very vulgar at one point before that in a argument in a message. She said it was over something I didn't understand and she shouldn't need to explain. She said we are different. I bugged out more. Lol but she didn't block. She said I was ruining everything and she didn't know what happened to me. I don't know bs about having emotions? Any who we ended up being evil after a while and I told her as I did many times before just block if you don't want my pay. I know I could just leave but I was hooked or in dumb love. Just block I am going to eventually come here and she said she wanted me to come but I ruined a friend ship. She said in truth she didn't like the idea of a show because she considered maybe knowing me and she thought of me as a friend outside of the work but it's different. Trust me I didn't believe it. I did know that I fell in love tho. I asked if I could fix it and she said yes with time though. I tried fixing it as she said I could but she said no gold no gold talk no bad subject just talk like we did before story laughing joking. She said it was too rash to block me if it could hurt later but she absolutely stopped expanding on what she said ever. As if she learned. Well I rushed it in two days as I'm very odd and dumb in this regard. But no takers from either me or her because it just got so bad and ended nasty. I finally seen her other side and in fairness she had seen mine because I recall some wickedness on my end and she accidentally or on purpose cried. However days later when she asked how I wanted to be treated and then turned Ice cold I was shattered like glass, she learned to ignore and sometimes laugh at me and the turn was permanent and she ended it with a smile. The inbox was a verbal bloodbath after. So was she just inexperienced and overdoing it with a GFE and I bugged out or did I ruin something? Cause I don't think she gave two shakes of a rats (can I curse here) from the jump or in between but just didn't know her game yet and practice turned malicious. I don't know?
Maybe I'll read this while I'm on the bus...or sitting inside of Dunkin' for a bit. Lol.
