I had an awful night yesterday.
A member who was a whale a long time ago , entered my room yesterday. He wrote me a pm, telling me that I’ve „changed“ (he was gone for over a year) i asked him what exactly he means , and i hope he meant it in a positive way. He didn’t give me an answer for that , tipped for toy control but it didn’t work for him and i was sending him link after link trying to make it work for him(it was definitely a bug on his side, everything worked fine for me and my knight who tested it) so his last words where “Yeah, whatever, have fun” and he was gone. That really hurt because he was one of my biggest tippers and usually very nice to me. Why is it too much to at least wish me a good night?
Another member wrote me an austrian word in chat, which i had to google to find out what it means. It was an insult and means “stupid, naive, simpleminded little girl”. I’ve went into a rant, telling him that I’m almost 30 years old and not stupid because i have blonde hair , look younger and do camming. But i guess some people like to judge books by their covers.
Hour after hour went by , nobody was taking or tipping. Really nobody. Not even greys. Didn’t matter what i was doing.
Then this:
*Member with 1200 tokens on his account*
Member: Can you block me?
Me: No why? I only block people if they give me a reason.
Member: For 5 tokens?
Me: Me and my time are definitely worth more than 5 tokens, sorry.
Member: Ok than this way: Your absolutely disgusting.
My knight then blocked him , but I felt used by this member and that he got his satisfaction, insulted me in open chat and i got nothing. I get that some people are having weird preferences, but for 5 tokens you get a “hi” from me. Not more.
Then i got a pm from a member, who was telling me that many models are online and i need to go live when there are less models, because “then the members have less choices and will go into my room” So you try to tell me that I’m not good enough? Yeah thanks for your “helpful advice”.
Another member , who tipped me a total of 500 tokens months ago , asked if I’m going live earlier because he goes to work early in the morning. He usually complains that he has no money to spend and always talks about winning the 50 tokens on Stripchat, so he doesn’t plan to tip me anything. But he’s so entitled, that he thinks that i have to go online when he wants. So i replied: “Sorry but you don’t see very much for free” His response: “ Oh that’s okay, i like talking to you and when i see a little bit of nude skin here and there, I’m happy”. I didn’t respond anymore, but i was tempted to ask him, why he thinks he’s entitled to get his entertainment for free? Just because i don’t show you my tits , doesn’t mean you are entitled to get my attention for free AND expect me to be online when it’s comfortable for you. The audacity.
The cherry on the top was a member who was in my Fanclub when i started camming and tipped me a lot. Didn’t saw him for a long time.He wrote me a pm:
“Hi Carmen, i just wanted to tell you that I’m really sorry that you don’t earn any money and nobody’s talking to you. I think you need to do more shows outdoor, with a partner or bigger toys. Other models who i support do the same and are making very good money and have already more fans than you. Kiss”
I don’t need to mention that i didn’t respond to his bullshit , but really ? Not every model has the opportunities to do partner / outdoor shows or likes to use extremely big toys. So much bullshit.
But i felt how my eyes started to fill up with tears , so i pulled the plug on my laptop and cried my eyes out. It was just too much to handle, although i do this for almost 3 years. Today when i woke up i just wanted to hide and be alone.
Sorry for the rant, but i just needed to get this out , because I feel really shitty today and here are so many nice people .
masculine jaw. mmm great
Coming from a clown who looks like this..... 
it’s good to hear that I’m not the only one who feels like this sometimes.
my cock is 25 cm it’s bigger than your face
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