I've chosen the undecided option. I've been at this point for a couple years now. I've tried to make up my mind one way or the other but recently have come to the decision that it's not really important enough to me to seek out a definitive answer. I'm afraid it will take something rather profound to make up my mind completely due to how I got to where I am.
I grew up Lutheran (ELCA, not Missouri Senate) and was perfectly happy with it. I even went to a Lutheran summer camp for 6 summers. My mother was not happy with the Lutheran church and started trying other denominations. None of them were appealing to her so she stopped looking. Not long after, she met a woman who introduced her to the Baha'i Faith and she eventually joined. I followed along because while it seemed a bit odd to me, I also appreciated a few of their beliefs over those I'd grown up with especially when it comes to science. I've become more disillusioned by organized religion including the Baha'i Faith which is why I rarely claim it despite it being the closest thing to a religion I could support. That is the crux of the problem. I've had atheists try to convince me one way or another but my background as a Baha'i means I'm impervious to many of their science based arguments. Baha'is do not feel that science and religion are contradictions. They simply believe that science discovers the hows of God's creation. This makes it tough for me to say without hesitation that "I don't believe" and yet I feel repulsed by most religions. For me, most religious people are the biggest turn off for their religions.
As for the people, I've grown up in South Carolina. The population across the state seems overwhelmingly Southern Baptist. When I listen to them talk, I start to feel like the angry atheist people have spoken about despite being closer to being agnostic or even a disenfranchised theist. It was also those who have felt the need to tell me I was wrong once they found out I was no longer a Christian. I've mentioned how the evangelistic aspects of most Christian denominations is such a turn off to me who, when I believed fully, preferred a personal relationship with God rather than pushing my beliefs on others. I received a response basically saying any true Christian would actively spread their beliefs out of love. I, on the other hand, feel any true Christian will be such a fine example of goodness that they will attract people to seek them out rather than having to proselytize.
I also had an atheist (formerly a member of this forum) try to push me over the edge to atheism. I had more respect for his arguments but he was just as bad as the religious folks I've run into at not taking a hint. (AKA shut up and move along.)
I guess overall I am not completely sure what the point is of religion. If there is a God or gods, why do they need to be worshiped? And yet at the same time, there very well could be some deity and so to say straight up that I do not believe when its all said and done doesn't work for me either. It's all quite confusing for me.
Now... if some of you are itching to argue any points from this post, please restrain yourselves. I haven't been in the mood to take arguments from either side of my undecided state as anything but an annoyance for the last few months. I've resigned myself to my current position with no desire to change it until several things I personally think are more important get settled in my life.
I grew up Lutheran (ELCA, not Missouri Senate) and was perfectly happy with it. I even went to a Lutheran summer camp for 6 summers. My mother was not happy with the Lutheran church and started trying other denominations. None of them were appealing to her so she stopped looking. Not long after, she met a woman who introduced her to the Baha'i Faith and she eventually joined. I followed along because while it seemed a bit odd to me, I also appreciated a few of their beliefs over those I'd grown up with especially when it comes to science. I've become more disillusioned by organized religion including the Baha'i Faith which is why I rarely claim it despite it being the closest thing to a religion I could support. That is the crux of the problem. I've had atheists try to convince me one way or another but my background as a Baha'i means I'm impervious to many of their science based arguments. Baha'is do not feel that science and religion are contradictions. They simply believe that science discovers the hows of God's creation. This makes it tough for me to say without hesitation that "I don't believe" and yet I feel repulsed by most religions. For me, most religious people are the biggest turn off for their religions.
As for the people, I've grown up in South Carolina. The population across the state seems overwhelmingly Southern Baptist. When I listen to them talk, I start to feel like the angry atheist people have spoken about despite being closer to being agnostic or even a disenfranchised theist. It was also those who have felt the need to tell me I was wrong once they found out I was no longer a Christian. I've mentioned how the evangelistic aspects of most Christian denominations is such a turn off to me who, when I believed fully, preferred a personal relationship with God rather than pushing my beliefs on others. I received a response basically saying any true Christian would actively spread their beliefs out of love. I, on the other hand, feel any true Christian will be such a fine example of goodness that they will attract people to seek them out rather than having to proselytize.
I also had an atheist (formerly a member of this forum) try to push me over the edge to atheism. I had more respect for his arguments but he was just as bad as the religious folks I've run into at not taking a hint. (AKA shut up and move along.)
I guess overall I am not completely sure what the point is of religion. If there is a God or gods, why do they need to be worshiped? And yet at the same time, there very well could be some deity and so to say straight up that I do not believe when its all said and done doesn't work for me either. It's all quite confusing for me.
Now... if some of you are itching to argue any points from this post, please restrain yourselves. I haven't been in the mood to take arguments from either side of my undecided state as anything but an annoyance for the last few months. I've resigned myself to my current position with no desire to change it until several things I personally think are more important get settled in my life.