I am a pretty shy guy as far as getting on cam. But I know that some models prefer cam to cam for private shows, and I can see why; it's awkward to be putting on a show for some user name existing only as text on a screen, especially if you are being asked to cum. Reciprocity, makes things more natural. My question is, do you ever cum in private shows without watching the members cam? If so, is it awkward? What are you thinking about during this time to arouse yourself? A partner/husband? Celebrity? Sorry if this is a dumb question!