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Just hours after posting my last post to PB's thread about the cop killing, I was pulled over for driving a car with no front plate and cuffed, taken into custody for a three year old warrant. Riding into the detention facility I thought not to make mention of it because it would only serve to give a snicker to those who would think it was karma for me posting as I had. When we reached the jail I thought if there is any fate in the universe it was to give me a fresh story of abuse at the hands of law enforcement.

Here's how it went down. After the arresting officer had pulled his unit into the sallyport, and the doors were closed he opened the door on the opposite of the unit I was put in and asked me to back out. I said yes sir, ( my mother who was a county employee and a probation officer of 32 years, had when I was very young told me, it does not matter wether you are right, they have the power), and why I always say yes sir, no sir. As I tried to push myself out backwards I could not get traction with my left leg, and my right which is amputated below the knee would not reach the floor. I suggested if they relesed the hand cuffs I could grab the door frame and pull myself out. Instead the three cops there decided to have two reach in and grab me underthe arm pits and drag me from the back seat. In the process my left foot with a size 13 New saddle became caught under the back of the front seat. I tried to tell them this as they continued to pull harder. I strained to pull my foot free, and screamed in pain from the cuffs cutting into my hands. Finally the cop who was holding the wheel chair came around the other side and unwedgeg my foot.

I had shit myself, and was not allowed to even get access to a no open to sight toilet for 5 hours to bird bath clean myself.

One might say this was all my fault for not taking care of my business three years ago, but I don't think that excuses abuse...

Finally when I did get a deputy to let me into a bathroom to clean myself up, he did so by making all the females in the ladies bullpen come out and put them in a small holding cell for ten minutes. Their bullpen had a privacy screen and I could clean up with out being exposed to everyone. I thanked him sincerely for being a real person. I do not dislike all cops, just most.
 
No one likes cops man, sometimes because they suck and the rest of the time because they're being cops.

And btw I'm sorry you went through that. It sounds like they were complete assholes.
 
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I don't mind cops. I don't like assholes, though.

Hope you're all taken care of, Cam; and your wrists are feeling better. It's going to be a bitch typing all those novel-posts you're so famous for around here, I'd imagine. Seriously, sorry you had to deal with that.
 
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wtf? i mean really' wt mother fucking f? that sir is a civil rights lawsuit waiting to happen. it wasnt even me that went through it and i want to kick someone's ass. kudos to you for keeping cool and calm about it.

i have heard some messed up stuff in my near 40 years, but that comes dang close to the worst bro. there is a clearly defined and stated process for dealing with us folk that have a physical difficulty when being processed. it varies from area to are in the details, but i cant help but think they ignored the frak out of it.
 
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I have met very few cops that I can say where decent human beings. But I have met a few! And I have no doubt that most people who go into the academy, start off with good intentions as well. But when you get into a position with that much power, it's only human nature to have it go to your head. Power corrupts, and absolute power corrupts absolutely. Cops surround themselves with other cops to socialize with. And when you are submerged into this environment, you're going to start behaving like your peers more and more also. That too is just human nature (let us not forget the Standford experiment).
I wish that more cops would stop, and just evaluate the world around them some day (hell I wish all people would do this, not just cops). I wish for all law enforcement, military, etc... to remember the oath they took when they where first sworn into their job... to "support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic."
 
Poker_Babe said:
I have met very few cops that I can say where decent human beings. But I have met a few! And I have no doubt that most people who go into the academy, start off with good intentions as well. But when you get into a position with that much power, it's only human nature to have it go to your head. Power corrupts, and absolute power corrupts absolutely. Cops surround themselves with other cops to socialize with. And when you are submerged into this environment, you're going to start behaving like your peers more and more also. That too is just human nature (let us not forget the Standford experiment).
I wish that more cops would stop, and just evaluate the world around them some day (hell I wish all people would do this, not just cops). I wish for all law enforcement, military, etc... to remember the oath they took when they where first sworn into their job... to "support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic."
You are indeed a smart woman PB, this is absolutely why so many cops are so inhumane IMO.
 
Hold on a second.
I think we're forgetting one big thing when it comes to cops. Yea, power corrupts. That's obvious and it's easy to just say that and let it be and use that to cast a wide net of blame. But you also have to remember what they do and who they deal with. Yes, they swear an oath to serve and protect and yes, they should be held to a higher standard and held accountable for their actions. But think of what they deal with on a daily basis: liars, criminals, the idea that the next window they approach could have the barrel of a gun aimed at them, the stress of standing at the side of a busy highway with all manner of careless drivers passing by, etc, etc.
I'm not saying there are no bad cops and no cops are assholes. I'm not saying it's right that people get shit on by authority on occasion, or that there's an excuse for it. But there is a reason, I think. As much as you may distrust "Mr. Big man with a badge" think of much he mistrusts "Mr. lawbreaker who may decide this cop's life isn't worth shit."
I think it's easy for them to forget every person is a human when they have to think of every person as a possible threat.
 
lordmagellan said:
Hold on a second.
I think we're forgetting one big thing when it comes to cops. Yea, power corrupts. That's obvious and it's easy to just say that and let it be and use that to cast a wide net of blame. But you also have to remember what they do and who they deal with. Yes, they swear an oath to serve and protect and yes, they should be held to a higher standard and held accountable for their actions. But think of what they deal with on a daily basis: liars, criminals, the idea that the next window they approach could have the barrel of a gun aimed at them, the stress of standing at the side of a busy highway with all manner of careless drivers passing by, etc, etc.
I'm not saying there are no bad cops and no cops are assholes. I'm not saying it's right that people get shit on by authority on occasion, or that there's an excuse for it. But there is a reason, I think. As much as you may distrust "Mr. Big man with a badge" think of much he mistrusts "Mr. lawbreaker who may decide this cop's life isn't worth shit."
I think it's easy for them to forget every person is a human when they have to think of every person as a possible threat.
Can I agree, but add some thoughts?

I think all these things, the corruption of power, the fact that it is very likely to push one to a "our team, their team" mentality when dealing with scum bags daily, and the constant threat to your life contribute to the lack of most cops treating non cops humanly.

I think for all those reasons the inadequate screening processes, and lack of sufficient over sight are to a great deal to blame. I don't think cops are inherently bad ppl, but I do feel, for whatever reasons, they mostly and rapidly become ppl who act badly. That power alone is the cause, I agree it is not. That the problem would be made better if we as a society addressed the range of causes that foster the bad attitude of police in general, I think is an absolute.
 
camstory said:
Just hours after posting my last post to PB's thread about the cop killing, I was pulled over for driving a car with no front plate and cuffed, taken into custody for a three year old warrant. Riding into the detention facility I thought not to make mention of it because it would only serve to give a snicker to those who would think it was karma for me posting as I had. When we reached the jail I thought if there is any fate in the universe it was to give me a fresh story of abuse at the hands of law enforcement.

Here's how it went down. After the arresting officer had pulled his unit into the sallyport, and the doors were closed he opened the door on the opposite of the unit I was put in and asked me to back out. I said yes sir, ( my mother who was a county employee and a probation officer of 32 years, had when I was very young told me, it does not matter wether you are right, they have the power), and why I always say yes sir, no sir. As I tried to push myself out backwards I could not get traction with my left leg, and my right which is amputated below the knee would not reach the floor. I suggested if they relesed the hand cuffs I could grab the door frame and pull myself out. Instead the three cops there decided to have two reach in and grab me underthe arm pits and drag me from the back seat. In the process my left foot with a size 13 New saddle became caught under the back of the front seat. I tried to tell them this as they continued to pull harder. I strained to pull my foot free, and screamed in pain from the cuffs cutting into my hands. Finally the cop who was holding the wheel chair came around the other side and unwedgeg my foot.

I had shit myself, and was not allowed to even get access to a no open to sight toilet for 5 hours to bird bath clean myself.

One might say this was all my fault for not taking care of my business three years ago, but I don't think that excuses abuse...

Finally when I did get a deputy to let me into a bathroom to clean myself up, he did so by making all the females in the ladies bullpen come out and put them in a small holding cell for ten minutes. Their bullpen had a privacy screen and I could clean up with out being exposed to everyone. I thanked him sincerely for being a real person. I do not dislike all cops, just most.

This is exactly why stereotyping and racism will never go away. You have taken a personal incident and painted all cops with the same brush. It is a strong part of the human psyche that makes us place more stock in negative associations over positive. It has helped us survive. I just think it does a disservice to everyone, whether it is about race, ethnicity, religion, sex or what line of work you are in, to take one incident ,even more than on incident in many cases, and then say you dislike most of them.

I do not condone what they did to you. There was no reason for it even in light of past transgressions. I just do not think all cops are bad, certainly not most. :twocents-02cents:
 
First, I'd like to say that I'm sorry that happened to you, camstory, as it sounds awful.

However, it's my opinion that not all (or even most) cops are bad and corrupt with power. These are just guys that are doing their jobs. You said it yourself, if you'd taken care of your stuff 3 years ago, none of this ever would have happened.

I've definitely dealt with a couple jerks in the past, but I have to take into account that they were also dealing with me. I was young, stupid, drunk and laughing so hard about everything that I have no doubt it took all their willpower not to just pick me up and toss me in the backseat of the cruiser.
 
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Why I don't like people who judge an entire profession because of a few minorities/situations they themselves have been in.

I am sorry you had a bad experience, but I personally don't enjoy being judged by that one camgirl who scams, has sex with members, steals money, lies, bitches etc etc.
I wouldn't like being called a racist because there are a few other people of my race who are.
I would not like to be called a whore because a few other women with breasts my size are.
I don't want to answer for the crimes of another person, just because I live in the same town.

Some police are corrupt/go into the police force for the wrong reasons. We hear about this stuff all the time. People are so focussed on the bad that they forget the good.

One of my gay friends was attacked in London for being a homosexual yesterday, he wrote a facebook post on how amazing the police were and how well they treated him.
My experiences with the police personally have all been good, where they've been wonderfully helpful/kind, even when I've been in the wrong. Many police officers start doing the job because they genuinely want to help people. A few just want power, and some because they like the idea of the job and have the opportunity to do it.

It upsets me that you're judging a whole profession where the majority dedicate their lives to help people, because there are some who use their power for bad reasons instead of good.
 
okay. i gotta hit the whole stereotyping cops bit.

point a: cops are not a group based on involuntary characteristics, e.g. an ethnicity, disabled persons, a gender etc. it is a group based on a voluntary choice, so im not certain that stereotyping is unfair in this specific instance. when an officer takes the job be it on a local or federal level they also take on a set of responsibilities, oaths and a societal position, and in this single instance of abuse of power and abuse of a citizens civil rights they may all be judged by the actions of their compatriots within that instance.

point b: no, not all officers of the law are bad people, nor are all of them corrupt or power drunk. i personally know and admire several local LEOs. i also personally knew and despised several bad ones.
in cam's description of events, i assume two things. one is that he told the truth. i assume this because of the nature and content of his story, as well as the details which are consistent with actual procedure as i have been told it by officers. the second assumption is that he told it fairly completely.
if both of those assumptions remain true, then one thing was lacking in the actions of the officers (other than common sense, decency, and adherence to their own rules). that being that nowhere in his narrative did any other officer step in to either protect him from possible injury, or assist the officers in coming up with a logical and intelligent plan for what was occuring.
it is my belief (and that of american law, though with much narrower definitions) that if a person ignores a crime being committed then they are guilty themselves. the higher standard to which police are held includes that premise. if one officer sees another committing an illegal or unethical act they are supposed to intervene or report. neither occurred. even the correct actions of the police in general at his locale occurred after he was already subjected to the unethical actions.

point c: we as a society give up our rights in many ways and hand them to our government, with the assumption that they will enforce those rights for us. when, as is to be expected, fallible human beings fail in their job to do so then it taints the establishment. is it a matter of needing better screening and supervision? i dont know. is it a matter of needing better education by the general populace about police procedure and law? maybe, but certainly not the end answer.
what i do know is that as long as immoral, illegal or unethical acts go unchallenged and without consequences all officers WILL be judged by the worst of their ranks. that is not fair to the dedicated, honest, honorable persons who protect and serve. it is however justified when we on the outside can not know which one is which until we suffer at their hands.

point d:all humans are flawed. if the flaws of the individual cause harm to others, we can judge them only as individuals when individual behavior is in question. if those flaws are exhibited in a group setting then we can judge them as a group. there is a certain mental makeup that is required to last long as an officer. a certain amount of aggression is part of what is needed. unfortunately the job also draws people who have not the right make up of traits, but also those who wish to have power over others and an excuse to abuse it. it is inherent to the job. knowing this and being able to determine who is who among the applicants is not easy. the power hungry persons are also the kind that will lie and hide their baser nature easily, slipping by most testing. with this as a truism (albeit a shaky one) then i must assume that there is a significant percentage chance that any officer i encounter has the bad traits instead of the good ones. this is not a matter of prejudice. this is a matter of safety. cam was smart. he kept his mouth shut as much as he could and went with the abuse. had he not? how bad could it have gotten? they had already ignored his requests and suggestions to make it easier on them to get him out of the vehicle. there were at least two officers present. one can assume there were at least one or two more nearby. had he shouted, raised objection to his treatment,; is it more likely that he would have gotten assistance, or that he would have ended up with tazers on him? guess where my bet is.

lastly, so that no one gets the wrong idea here. i am not saying that the police in general are useless and dangerous. we as a society need something like them when a population group is over that of a very small village. i am saying that they are human beings. i am also saying that human beings are dangerous and untrustworthy as a group. as individuals, persons can be wonderful. in a group we are panicky, mob minded animals. and because of the nature and dangers of being a police officer, they can, will and do stick together as their own group against anyone who seems to be a threat to their own, regardless of the situation.

think about it for a moment before you deny what i say. look back over modern history to times when police have been caught doing illegal or otherwise bad things. if you were to map it out by numbers ( which is difficult to do) it seems that the majority of cases of beatings, criminal activity, and abuse of authority that more than one officer was involved. does a single officer occasionally act wrongly? sure, of course. but how much harm can a single officer do without the assistance of others? a bribe taken to ignore a ticket or a single instance of lawbreaking maybe. small things on the scale im talking about.
for even a single officer to get away with those small things it requires the inattention of their fellows. the tendency to look away and assume that the single action taken is an aberration or justified in that instance. THAT is why it is acceptable to color all police with the same brush.

the mentality of the "blue brotherhood" protects officers from being harmed by outsiders, and is a wonderful thing sometimes. but it leads to a circle of officers with batons beating a man half to death on the ground. yeah, rodney king had broken the law. then they took him down. once he was down they subdued him. how many blows did it take to be certain that he was no longer dangerous? two? three? maybe four? last time i saw the video of the event i lost count at 20. if that was a one time, isolated event i'd shrug my shoulders and let it go. it happens too damn often in my book

ill step off the soapbox now :)
 
I'm really sorry you had to go through this Eric. I don't think anyone should be ever put into a situation like this.

About cops:

I have no idea how cops are across the pond, but as I am quite interested in politics and generally how things go around the world, I've came across a lot of videos on youtube showing police brutality.

I was quite honestly appalled: from peaceful protesters or by-standers at G20 being attacked and brutally beaten by police, to kids being tased in their head to the point they are left out blind or whatnot, to border police abusing and intimidating people for simply asking a polite question.

I'm not saying all protect & serve employees are bad, but given the nature of their jobs they easily can spill out their frustration on someone (guilty or not) just because they can. They have been empowered by the State to do so. Some take it too far...they might've just had a bad day themselves, but they take it on the wrong person, and here comes the abuse.

As any other low-paid job state employees, from police workforce to you everyday bureaucrat, or teacher...these are stressful jobs, dealing & socializing everyday with a lot of people. Sometimes I wonder if they would get more benefits, pensions, counseling and even more classes on how to deal exactly with balancing their life with high-pressure job, what would happen?
 
The purpose of government (law enforcement is part of the government) is to protect your rights. To secure these rights governments are instituted among men.
For instance, if we are invaded by another country, we have the military to protect our country's right to sovereignty. If I have been charged with a crime, I have the judicial branch to protect my right to due process. And if some psycho wants to do bodily harm or possibly kill me, we have the police to protect our right to life and liberty as well.
The nation's forefathers' intended role of government wasn't to set up a police state (I mean, that's the whole reason why we were so mad at King George in the first place).
That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, --That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it,
 
Took a short break from study to post this. I have not read the recent post here and as far as I know the validity of my story and the convenient timing has not been called into question. Not really why I'm posting this anyway, as it does nothing to prove my story but only my incarceration. (the text under notes was obviously added by me as a little funny, if it is too small to see, that's OK as it is just a little funny)


Mostly I am posting so everyone can see my approaching birth date, and figure out what sort of wonderful thing you'll think to surprise me with. :lol:

I also felt I had to picture my inmate ID wrist band, as these are very rare outside. They are not meant to leave the facility and not having one on your wrist or being able to produce one upon release is grounds to hold you another 24-72 hours. A bit of a childish and jackass stunt to smuggle mine out, but sometimes it's the little games you play that keep things amusing when the alternative might be angry. As to how I got it out, I'll leave you with this...
 

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okay. i gotta hit the whole stereotyping cops bit.

point a: cops are not a group based on involuntary characteristics, e.g. an ethnicity, disabled persons, a gender etc. it is a group based on a voluntary choice, so im not certain that stereotyping is unfair in this specific instance. when an officer takes the job be it on a local or federal level they also take on a set of responsibilities, oaths and a societal position, and in this single instance of abuse of power and abuse of a citizens civil rights they may all be judged by the actions of their compatriots within that instance.

Stereotyping is not based on involuntary characteristics. Stereotyping is not always bad, though most times it is brought up it does have negative connotations.
Definition of stereotype
noun
1a widely held but fixed and oversimplified image or idea of a particular type of person or thing:
the stereotype of the woman as the carer
sexual and racial stereotypes
Do you think cam models are not stereotyped based on their choice to be a cam model? I could state that 4 cam models have screwed me over, taken tokens for nothing in return. Would it be fair to say all cam models are scammers?

So, yes I do think it is unfair to say watch out, look at these incidences of cops doing things they shouldn't be doing and then saying most cops are that way.
 
southsamurai said:
okay. i gotta hit the whole stereotyping cops bit.

point a: cops are not a group based on involuntary characteristics, e.g. an ethnicity, disabled persons, a gender etc. it is a group based on a voluntary choice, so im not certain that stereotyping is unfair in this specific instance. when an officer takes the job be it on a local or federal level they also take on a set of responsibilities, oaths and a societal position, and in this single instance of abuse of power and abuse of a citizens civil rights they may all be judged by the actions of their compatriots within that instance.

point b: no, not all officers of the law are bad people, nor are all of them corrupt or power drunk. i personally know and admire several local LEOs. i also personally knew and despised several bad ones.
in cam's description of events, i assume two things. one is that he told the truth. i assume this because of the nature and content of his story, as well as the details which are consistent with actual procedure as i have been told it by officers. the second assumption is that he told it fairly completely.
if both of those assumptions remain true, then one thing was lacking in the actions of the officers (other than common sense, decency, and adherence to their own rules). that being that nowhere in his narrative did any other officer step in to either protect him from possible injury, or assist the officers in coming up with a logical and intelligent plan for what was occuring.
it is my belief (and that of american law, though with much narrower definitions) that if a person ignores a crime being committed then they are guilty themselves. the higher standard to which police are held includes that premise. if one officer sees another committing an illegal or unethical act they are supposed to intervene or report. neither occurred. even the correct actions of the police in general at his locale occurred after he was already subjected to the unethical actions.

point c: we as a society give up our rights in many ways and hand them to our government, with the assumption that they will enforce those rights for us. when, as is to be expected, fallible human beings fail in their job to do so then it taints the establishment. is it a matter of needing better screening and supervision? i dont know. is it a matter of needing better education by the general populace about police procedure and law? maybe, but certainly not the end answer.
what i do know is that as long as immoral, illegal or unethical acts go unchallenged and without consequences all officers WILL be judged by the worst of their ranks. that is not fair to the dedicated, honest, honorable persons who protect and serve. it is however justified when we on the outside can not know which one is which until we suffer at their hands.

point d:all humans are flawed. if the flaws of the individual cause harm to others, we can judge them only as individuals when individual behavior is in question. if those flaws are exhibited in a group setting then we can judge them as a group. there is a certain mental makeup that is required to last long as an officer. a certain amount of aggression is part of what is needed. unfortunately the job also draws people who have not the right make up of traits, but also those who wish to have power over others and an excuse to abuse it. it is inherent to the job. knowing this and being able to determine who is who among the applicants is not easy. the power hungry persons are also the kind that will lie and hide their baser nature easily, slipping by most testing. with this as a truism (albeit a shaky one) then i must assume that there is a significant percentage chance that any officer i encounter has the bad traits instead of the good ones. this is not a matter of prejudice. this is a matter of safety. cam was smart. he kept his mouth shut as much as he could and went with the abuse. had he not? how bad could it have gotten? they had already ignored his requests and suggestions to make it easier on them to get him out of the vehicle. there were at least two officers present. one can assume there were at least one or two more nearby. had he shouted, raised objection to his treatment,; is it more likely that he would have gotten assistance, or that he would have ended up with tazers on him? guess where my bet is.

lastly, so that no one gets the wrong idea here. i am not saying that the police in general are useless and dangerous. we as a society need something like them when a population group is over that of a very small village. i am saying that they are human beings. i am also saying that human beings are dangerous and untrustworthy as a group. as individuals, persons can be wonderful. in a group we are panicky, mob minded animals. and because of the nature and dangers of being a police officer, they can, will and do stick together as their own group against anyone who seems to be a threat to their own, regardless of the situation.

think about it for a moment before you deny what i say. look back over modern history to times when police have been caught doing illegal or otherwise bad things. if you were to map it out by numbers ( which is difficult to do) it seems that the majority of cases of beatings, criminal activity, and abuse of authority that more than one officer was involved. does a single officer occasionally act wrongly? sure, of course. but how much harm can a single officer do without the assistance of others? a bribe taken to ignore a ticket or a single instance of lawbreaking maybe. small things on the scale im talking about.
for even a single officer to get away with those small things it requires the inattention of their fellows. the tendency to look away and assume that the single action taken is an aberration or justified in that instance. THAT is why it is acceptable to color all police with the same brush.

the mentality of the "blue brotherhood" protects officers from being harmed by outsiders, and is a wonderful thing sometimes. but it leads to a circle of officers with batons beating a man half to death on the ground. yeah, rodney king had broken the law. then they took him down. once he was down they subdued him. how many blows did it take to be certain that he was no longer dangerous? two? three? maybe four? last time i saw the video of the event i lost count at 20. if that was a one time, isolated event i'd shrug my shoulders and let it go. it happens too damn often in my book

ill step off the soapbox now :)
My dear SouthSam, I must apologize to you, and everyone to some extent, for leaving this thread unattended. I frankly had regretted ever OPing it. Not because I had any doubt in my belief, or any misgivings of anything I had said. But because, of the realization I had, that even this very liberal community did not have the experience to believe what I have learned from experience, and that convincing them of any different would only serve to make me look like a hate monger, bent on bad mouthing all of law enforcement.

To understand what I have learned about the vast majority of street cops in the U.S. one has to have been in their midst in secluded non public, or impoverished public places. Behind the scenes, and in places where transgressions can be gotten away with, because those who are being transgressed against have not the means, nor the creditability to stand against it.

There are several things I hope to address with this post, though I am not real sure now to string them together, and I do not want the truth of what I wish to say to become blurred behind a wall of muddled words. So it may not be very eloquent, but I will do my best to make it concise.

There were two things that I said in the OP that I will get out of the way straight off. One, that the incident that occurred on 2/14 was one that gave me 'a fresh story of abuse'. That there have been others, is a fact. That there have been two others, that rival this most recent, is a fact. And that there have been countless others of lesser magnitude is fact.

The second thing I said in the OP that I wish to address, is that I do not dislike all cops. This too is a fact, and I have had some good experiences with cops, and even one or two wonderful experiences. One of which I will get back to.

Why have I had all these experiences with police? Because from the time I was 16 until I was well into my thirty's, I was, off and on a criminal. (for the sake of the esteem in which I hold this community and that in which it holds me, I wish to say, that I was never an angry or vicious person. I was a rebellious, spoiled, irresponsible, man child, who thought insurance companies were in place to cover the losses of the commercial enterprises from which I stole. It is all irrelevant, but as a friend said to me not long ago, we all, to some extent, give a shit what others think of us.)

So why have I had more abusive experiences in my dealings with police, than good ones? (the majority of my experiences have been as most of yours have probably been, nether good nor bad, and as so far as they were not bad, I always felt lucky.) Well, during the time I surrounded myself with the criminal element, and was in fact part of that criminal element, the argument could very easily be made that, I deserved no better, so lets put that too aside until later.

Why was I abused 5 days ago? Because it was determined that I had nether the means, nor the creditability to do anything about it! I was pulled over in a car that was 22 years old, faded red paint, with a primered front quarter. I'm currently sporting a out of control goatee and stash that would make Manson envious, and my cheeks and jowls are about two weeks unshaven. I was dressed well enough, but in general had the appearance of someone who didn't have a dime to his name. before he ever returned from his cruiser, he had been dispatched with the information that I was a felon, and that I have a health and safety, (drug) conviction. It does not mater that the felony conviction was 18 years ago, and the possession longer ago than that.

Had I, had no warrant, the abuse might not have been as great, but I can pretty much guarantee the only thing that would have saved me from 30-45 minutes of unwarranted harassment, to include search of the car interior, trunk, and my person, (if I would have submitted to it?), would have been a dispatch of some urgency nearby. And had I not submitted to a search of my person, and I probably would not have, (at some point you get fed up with being intimidated into sacrificing your rights, and dignity), the delay longer and the verbal abuse greater.

cam was smart. he kept his mouth shut as much as he could and went with the abuse. had he not? how bad could it have gotten? they had already ignored his requests and suggestions to make it easier on them to get him out of the vehicle. there were at least two officers present. one can assume there were at least one or two more nearby. had he shouted, raised objection to his treatment,; is it more likely that he would have gotten assistance, or that he would have ended up with tazers on him? guess where my bet is.
I truly thank those who felt I had applied some sort of restraint during this shit, but the kudos are unwarranted. To behave in any other way than I did would have been bath salt fucking crazy, unless of course pain and humiliation are the aim. I was not smart, just experienced. Had I started to scream and yell, anything other than "owe my wrist", had I kept my volume down, and in perfect legal terms articulated that my civil rights were being violated and that it should stop, or that I would sue if it didn't, anything other than what I did, would have been met with the same response. I would have been hoisted by my cuffed wrist far above my head and wrenched into one of the two rubber cells, at which point I would have been slammed to the deck. (as I remember it, a knee would have come down squarely across my ear forcing the side of my head into the mat, and out of the corner of my eye I can see the cop with his knee in my ear turn to look back at his partner and say, "you're doing the paper on this one") Then your feet would be shackled together and so tightly cuffed to the floor that your toes point out to the left and the right and it is impossible to do anything other than lay face down to a rubber floor that wreaks of many layers of stale urine, in fact has a layer yellow and cracked like built up wax. And all that - something you got to man up and deal with, but the part that was the worst, the part that was really hard, was after about an hour and a half a shrink comes in and for 15 minutes I try to convince him that I never tried to harm myself. But that is not what he was told and he keeps insisting the lump on one side of my head, and red abrasion on the other are from me beating my head against the cell wall. The more I try to explain the more he seems set to break me so I give in. Then spend the next 30 minutes doing my best to convince this guy that I no longer want to hurt myself. Why? Because that is what he had been told was the reason for me being in the rubber room, - that I had tried to hurt myself. What had actually happened was that I was cut off mid sentences when a deputy decided he no longer wanted to deal with me, by slamming the cell door in my face. In my frustration I made the mistake of slamming my fist into the top of the door twice above my head in an overhanded stabbing fashion not punching it.(bang,, bang/god,, dammit) When the cell door flew open 30 seconds later and three deputies rushed in to keep me from hurting myself, I was seated on the bench at the far side of the cell, bent over, my face in my hands, depressed, and motionless. (perhaps they thought I was trying to cry myself to death) These things happen all the time, but if you have any sense they only happen to you once. Don't give me any points for my restraint, lest you score me for not being a fool.

On this I want to say one more thing, and then on to the story of one of the most wonderful experiences I ever had with another random human, who happened to be a police officer. I do, want to get to that, as it is a very fond memory, and will take me away from the ugliness and the darkness of the path I have been traveling.

I don't think most will like this, and I don't think most will believe it, - this, that I'm about to say. I wont even pretend to know it with any sort of certainty. It is nothing I can prove or even offer any tangible proof for. But it is my belief that there are 2or3, 3or4 in that 12 man shift, that not only subject those who seem helpless to do anything against it, to abuse at their whim, but at some level, perhaps subconsciously, abuse in the hope that the abused will react thus stepping it up a notch.

The others who to differing degrees might be a little uncomfortable with the clearly abusive actions of their brothers in blue will talk amongst themselves, sometimes even sharing with a ex criminal this discomfort. Talking has a way of comforting a pained conscious, and levity as a closer, always seems to be the order of things. Though the jokes these discomforts are sent away with are always something a kin to, "Yea, but just think of how many Jews the natzis could have incinerated if their rail-yards weren't being bombed to shit" Or closer yet, "yea but they are only Jews after all." Because bottom line the absolution that washes away the sins or throws a cloak over them, is, "Yea, but they are only criminals after all"

I can not, or will not argue with those who say to me, you fucked up, and these are the prices you pay. I will not even argue with those who say, a person who has put themselves in a place where they have to be taken into jail, even if it was for a misdemeanor traffic FTA warrant has fucked up and it caught up to them, so the abuse they suffered could have been avoided. ( I think it is misguided, but I will not argue.)

But if we allow our protectors, to apply a little heavy handedness to keep order because after all they are dealing with some of the most rotten, nasty, viscous, pieces of shit pumping air, (and that too is fact), than how do we sort em out? which criminals are worthy of having their civil and human rights violated? Surly not all, - the prostitute who gets arrested on a Saturday and is mad and sad because she is going to be in jail on Sunday and she will miss her babies third birthday. Are her rights worthy of abuse when she perceives, right or wrong that a cop has tried to feel her up, and starts screaming and yelling that all cops are fuckin pigs and cocksuckers? Or the mentally ill who we have in great numbers criminalized rather than institutionalize in mental hospitals where there is some chance they might get some better. Are these people acceptable to abuse?

Where does it stop? And why is it that almost non of the 99% of affluent middle America wants to consider the possibility that there is something terribly wrong, or even something a little wrong, with law enforcement in America? Even my mostly liberal, opened minded, free thinker friends here. Well, I think there are a whole bunch of reasons. I think non greater than you, they, middle American, having not been exposed to it except rarely. It is well hidden and its victims have no creditable voice, because we judge certain elements of our society as being discreditable. With some reason those we call criminals, but also, greatly, any who have ever fit that jacket. And increasingly the poor. The worst abuses I have seen were not inside jails, but in urban hoods and slums where ppl often feel as much fear of the popo as they do the criminals living in their midst.

And finally imagine the hopelessness, and mostly the anger you might feel to be told by a police officer, that, “It doesn't matter what you tell anyone or say, not one of you, not all three of you, no one is going to believe you over me!” And know he is wright....
 
I could not mix in the wonderful experience with that,^^^^^^^^^^ but I did not forget, and will post of it as soon as I am able.
 
not cool at all ):
 
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Thinking of how I wanted to word this post, I caught myself 2 or 3 times pinching my lips tightly closed and suppressing a tearful moan that made my chest heave like a child's who's been crying, and gulps at the air. I realized that this post juxtaposed to the others I have made here, are a very good example of how different the same things seem to different people depending on their perspective.

This story of this wonderful human, may not seem so wonderful to others, (though I think it will), but maybe not to the extent it does me. Alternatively I feel that most are way more appalled about my other post, than I ever was. I guess those things seem pretty appalling if you have never even been cuffed, (by the police). I am very happy that of these different incidents, that the one that still has the power to move me to near tears, is the positive. (Be appalled that these other things happen too often, but feeling badly for me personally is not necessary, - I am well over the most recent, much less those that happened years ago.)

It was fall, late September, October – the bright light of the clear sky had just dropped away behind the hills. Hungry, I wheelied my chair out of the library, the last to be let out. I would quick hit Safeway right around the coroner and grab something from the deli warmer box, before heading back to the bus stop right in front of the library.

I woke to the sound of a horn, a little chilly, disoriented, and with a bag of potato wedges in my lap. I had dozed off at the bus stop, and now was staring a Walnut Creek PD cruiser broadside. “Are you all right” Yea I'm fine, I said, just dozed off. He was pulling away, good,,, He was just pulling to the curb, fuck. That was the last negative thought I had that night.

This man got out smiling, and with a chuckle, told me I was going to be waiting on the bus for quite a while. It was Saturday, and the last bus had run a couple of hours before. He asked me where I was headed, and I told him. He could get me as far as the Bart station, about two miles from where I needed to be, but about three miles closer than I was. What's your name, he asked? I told him my first and last name, and reaching down to unzip my fanny pack, (pulled around in front of me), I said, I have my ID right here. That's not necessary he said.

Wait a minute, WTF, was I still asleep and dreaming this?
I wish I could take you all the way, but the Bart station is our boundary, and my counter parts in Pleasant Hill tend to be a bunch of pricks. (even though this took place near 10, or maybe 9 years ago, and I am paraphrasing the dialogue, he may have said jerks, rather than pricks, these events are still very sharp in my mind. Here was a man dressed like a cop, driving a cop's car, but he seemed to have no understanding of that.) I think I said, yep, or yes they are, to the pricks comment, and then I must have gotten a look in my eyes that said, “Oh shit you can't say that” or maybe I even said, or so I've heard. I do clearly remember what he did and said. He let out a pretty good haha at my, Oh shit, reflex, and said, “don't worry about it, it's no secret.”

He wheeled me up to the back passenger door of the car, started to open the door while saying can you get in alright? No problem, I had already pop up on my good foot, and stood waiting for him to open the door the rest of the way. He looked at me and told me, if I didn't mind being patted down he would put me up front. Again, not a problem. I don't even think he really frisked me very well? I just remember this surreal feeling as he let me in, waited for me to pull my limbs in and then closed the door. He put my chair in the trunk and then got in. I had to say something kind, besides, thank you, thank you, thank you, for the ride, which I had already been saying. Of all the cops, W.C. PD I think are the best. ( this was true, it was what I thought.) I said, I have only once had a bad experience with W.C.PD. I told him that 3 years before I had been pulled over by an officer, Ho,,, O he corrected. I said, no his name was 'H''O' Yes but it is pronounced O he said. I went on to tell him that after being pulled over for no other reason than it was 1AM that I could tell, my car, or actually my father's car was searched. I told him that there was a piece of drug paraphernalia found under the passenger seat and I was told I was under arrest. I told him that after hearing O ask for a tow truck, I asked him why. I had just turned the corner when he lite me up, - he pointed to a sign about 20 feet in front of my dad's car, that said, “no parking here to corner”. I told O it was my dad's car and couldn't he or one of the other two officers now on scene put it in neutral and just push it forward. I then told this man who looked like a cop that was driving me as close to home as he could, and who had been quietly nodding in the understanding of what a piece of work officer O was, and had not flinched a tiny bit when I mentioned the drug paraphernalia, that officer O had then said to me, “if you can take me to where you buy drugs, I'll have your dad's car waiting outside for you when you are released” He looked away from the road and over at me for a second, and said, “What did you tell him?” I said told O that I never went to buy it, I just pitched in and others went, so I didn't know. (these words so clear, and I still remember the tone and all) He said, in a powerful, near angry voice, “You Should Have Told Him To Stick It Up His Ass!” And I should have.

After we got to the Bart station we continued to talk for 15-20 minutes. I don't remember much in detail. But he explained that there were guys like O who should not be cops. He told me how much he had loved his job when he started it almost 18 years before. How he really felt a bond with the community he served, How he really liked the idea that he was watching over and keeping ppl safe, how he had for some years thought he would put in 30 years.

Then he told me he could take early retirement at 18 years, that he was less than 6 months for that, and that he wished it was less. He told me that in just a few years the management of police from the top down everywhere had adopted a “take Back The Streets” or maybe it was “tough on crime” but what it meant was that police where now being instructed, trained, and regulated in ways that left no room for any bond with the community.

He then got out and took my chair from the trunk, and when he opened my door, I saw a dark blue coat draped over the back of the chair. I told him that that was not mine. He told me yes it was and I should put it on. (it was maybe 40°, not that cold) I protested, I would be in motion and would be fine. He reckoned as I would, but I'd be doing him a favor, getting it out of his trunk.

I thanked him again, hoping that maybe some of the deep thanks I felt might come through in my words. I told him that it seemed a shame that in less than 6 months there would be one less good cop on duty.

(this is the part I can never recall with out some heavy sense of emotion.)
He said he was not happy about it himself. Then he said, “there is just no joy left in this job for me, with very few exceptions, Eric” he extended his hand, and I shook it.

For me that is one of the most beautiful memories in life. It means so much more than all the abuses put together.
 
Next time u get pissed because of something cops do, just remember this picture and think happy thoughts.

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Nordling said:
:lol: I remember when the pepper spray images became an internet meme. lol
LOL I love it.
 
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I appreciate your story and your limited point of view. My thoughts here are not to belittle your experiences or to belabor my point. What you have experienced is terrible and an indictment on the individual cops that abused their power and any who stood idly by and let it happen.

If you had left it at a personal experience I would not have felt compelled to reply, except to sympathize with you. Yet, you condemned an entire group of people based on a few bad experiences and not on the positive ones. I found that mind set and thought process interesting and it struck me that this is exactly why there is racism, sexism and any other ism you can name. Imagine for a moment someone had posted your exact words here but replace cops with women, men, african-americans, asians, cam models, social workers etc. Would that justify their not liking most of that group of people?
 
Just Me said:
I appreciate your story and your limited point of view. My thoughts here are not to belittle your experiences or to belabor my point. What you have experienced is terrible and an indictment on the individual cops that abused their power and any who stood idly by and let it happen.

If you had left it at a personal experience I would not have felt compelled to reply, except to sympathize with you. Yet, you condemned an entire group of people based on a few bad experiences and not on the positive ones. I found that mind set and thought process interesting and it struck me that this is exactly why there is racism, sexism and any other ism you can name. Imagine for a moment someone had posted your exact words here but replace cops with women, men, african-americans, asians, cam models, social workers etc. Would that justify their not liking most of that group of people?
I agree with your concept with a couple notes. One, cops are not something people are from birth...like being Swedish, e.g. Two, being a cop means you're in a job that has enormous stress and power...and while "power corrupts" may be a cliché, there is logic behind it. Cops, more than most occupations are more likely to not only contain corrupt individuals but individuals who are in a position to abuse their power. Certainly not all cops are bad, corrupt or anything else...but I suspect a common mistrust of them is because of a stronger likelihood of those elements. Yeah, it sucks when someone sees a uniform and makes a snap judgement, but if someone has been abused by people with that uniform, I can at least partly understand the attitude.
 
Just Me said:
I appreciate your story and your limited point of view. My thoughts here are not to belittle your experiences or to belabor my point. What you have experienced is terrible and an indictment on the individual cops that abused their power and any who stood idly by and let it happen.

If you had left it at a personal experience I would not have felt compelled to reply, except to sympathize with you. Yet, you condemned an entire group of people based on a few bad experiences and not on the positive ones. I found that mind set and thought process interesting and it struck me that this is exactly why there is racism, sexism and any other ism you can name. Imagine for a moment someone had posted your exact words here but replace cops with women, men, african-americans, asians, cam models, social workers etc. Would that justify their not liking most of that group of people?
Well, in Cam's defense, the only thing that hints at any dislike of 'all' cops is the thread title. The last words of the original post read, "I do not dislike all cops, just most."
 
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