Well hello there!
I am new to this kind of modelling stuff. When I was at my twenties I modelled for couple of photographers (also nude, but nothing pornographic really). Back then I got really interested about selling pornographic / fetish -videos and / or photos of myself. But didn't really did anything about it. Though my interests for this business didn't disappeare anywhere.
Then, on this autumn a friend of mine told me about C4S and that she had been making videos for 10 years. So I got very excited and interested right away, started making videos and signed up to C4S. It has been really fun! And I like it there, that I can make weird fetish videos. It is also good for my self-esteem to notice that some (perverts
) are willing to buy my clips.
After giving a birth to my child 5 years old I haven't felt myself attractive really. My body isn't how it used to be. But oh well, no one stays young for ever and this is just one thing I have to except. but yeah, I really do enjoy making those videos. It is such a fun!
Of course I'm a bit worried about several things; what if my gif:s or videos end up to all over the internet? What if some day they end up to my child's or his friends face? I do only things I feel comfortable about, but the world is full of people who disapprove these kind of things. Though in the end what the heck I do care about other people's opinions. I really am trying to not, but if some of my actions cause that my son will be bullied in the future, THAT is a big deal.
Something else about me. Besides I'm a mother and make these clips I am also a freelancer on a creative industry. I like to encourage other people (and myself) to love themselves as they are, not to be so damn hard on themselves. I think there is beauty in everyone of us and I don't really underwrite the dominant standard of beauty. (And oh yes, I'm quite a hippie..)
My head is full of questions and I believe I'll find the answers over time.
Thank you for this wonderful forum!
Aeronwyn