I'm glad I'm not alone with all the replies about insecurity!
I am young, only 21, with a great ass, butt, hips, waist, thighs...but I have had 3 pregnancies, only 1 made it to term and I have only living child. I gained over 60lbs with my son before he was born via c-section. Now my super hot, flat, toned belly has turned into this saggy mess of skin that's stretched to tell that just hangs there. It's nasty. My boobs went south as well, covered in stretch marks and nipple damage from breastfeeding. No more perky b-cups. I feel like I have a granny torso. There's a box in my head that includes the boobs to the v where I aged like 40 years in a year.
I've used every stupid oil or miracle cream you can think of. I've done push ups and crunches until my body wouldn't push any more. I have taken so many supplements in the last 3 years trying so fucking hard to get my perfect 18 year old body back and it's not happening at all. I took some photos last night that I felt super sexy posing in until I looked back and saw how old my torso looks from certain angles...
But I have a solution and, no, it isn't plastic surgery!! I have several pairs of high waisted panties that are lacy and sexy and make my booty like top notch. I bought some body suits that give a flattering illusion of sexy mystery hiding beneath it. I wear cute bras or nipple pasties and the guys never comment on my saggy skin. My dudes are so fucking sweet! I realized that they see the best parts of my body and pay to do so because they love it just the way it is. I may not make $10k/month like the babyless top models on my site do, but I am only just starting out. The only rude comments I get on my appearance are for my pink hair xD I never thought of that as something to be ashamed of lol. I laugh that shit off because I love my hair! I feel my best and true self with short pixie haircuts dyed random colors.
I've learned just recently that what I see as a nasty flaw in the mirror or in a candid photo is NOT what my members see at all. They see a sexy, gorgeous, cute, gorgeous and sweet, friendly, charismatic, interesting, funny model. That's what I am in other people's eyes. My eyes are not to be trusted! My brain wants me to fail! I HAVE to listen and believe (even if it's half-assed sometimes) that I am just as gorgeous - as Mila Kunis is in my eyes - in the eyes of my members.
Keeping that mentality of a bad self-image and negative self-help is not going to help me succeed in any part of life...
But remembering that is hard at times
I'm working on it. I will get better.
I will succeed.
I just have to keep going forward and learning.