You know Joe, this is the fourth time this has happened, and it has left me wondering each time. I have always called you on it b/c for close to 3 years now I felt we had something more than a simple familiarity of place; first here, and then at twitter, where, with the exception of the three previous personal attacks, our relationship was what I would have called a friendship. The first time I called you on your assault, I asked, if you were mad at me. You replied, that if you were mad at me, I would know it, and you didn't mean anything by the tweet in question. Another time you said you were joking, and I should have known that by the “
” which you had always thought indicated a joke. Even so, I could see no humour in it.
Each time has been separated by roughly 4 or 5 months of fun & witty banter/sparing where most often the round did not clearly go to one or the other, and when it clearly did, I happily tipped my hat to you, and felt you did the same to me. Your vocabulary and creativity with language are formidable to say the least. When I have bettered you, it has mostly been when you left your guard down and I caught you with a homeboy hook that you didn't see coming. But all, with noted exception, has been friendly and fun IMO.
It's this feeling of friendship that has set me to reply to this most recent attack, and has as before, left me very perplexed? With no obvious precursor I am left to guess what triggers it – one conclusion that has jumped out at me, is that these are the angry vents of a deeply bitter man who has drank one too many. But I do not even know if you drink b/c through all the tweets, post, DMs, & PM, I have never heard you make any personal reference to drinking. That has lead me to believe you don't drink, though I guess it could also indicate denial of a problem with drinking. Really the trigger is not so important, but is puzzling to me, and as far as I know might be as puzzling to you?
What ever it is, I am sure it is not this thread, or my post in general. Just recently one of your post eluded to Camstory's long winded Blah,Blah,Blah post that made some very good points. (Any one familiar with my posting style knows I tend to be long on garnish getting to the course.) You know, or I think you do, that I am sincere about what I post, and believe what I post to be the truth as best I know. The idea that I make up, or lie about shit I only give mention of that its absences might be interpreted as having been over looked for some reason other than the correct interpretation - that it is so ridiculous it warrants no mention. The racist slur you quoted me on, I think in context is pretty clearly an obvious joke. You know I am as close as humanly possible free of bigoted attitudes, and do not particularly dislike Filipinos.
On the Koch brothers & Koch Industries I have spent many hours in the last month reading. I have also watched two full length docs, and many clips of the Koch's themselves, their opponents, and their supporters. (All of which I understand may be biased one direction or the other, and I have tried to only post statements that seemed to be of a consistent nature throughout.) Often in those readings, and some in the videos, references were sited, but one does not stop at every reference point to verify content validity. As, I have promised I will retrieve what references I need to, to support my beliefs. If you have any particular statements that you feel I have not answered to after that, I will address them.
But again, I do not think this about the Koch's, or your anger that I have slandered them without justification. You yourself have said you do not support much of what they do.
I do not know from where your anger comes, or what triggers it. I am sorry it has come to this, I really did enjoy the friendship, and also some sound guidance a time or two.
I also must say one final thing. And I will not use the bullshit excuse that I am saying it for your own good. Though I do believe it is an obvious fact, it is also admittedly my selfish hurt ego prompting me to retaliate – sad but true.
If there is some bitterness in you that you control no better in the RW, it might be something you should work on, b/c IMhO if you don't, you are destine to die a bitter lonely man.
Sorry Joe, it may be a combination of me being too sensitive, and you being too cutting, yet meaning no real harm, but being called a liar, a racist, and someone who has no conviction or sense of what he is talking about, all seem to be personal attacks on who I am, and not about what I believe. The latter, for me, a reasonable expectation, and fundamental to a vigorous debate. The former just feels like a cheap shot, aimed to injure, and in no way constructive.