Isabella_deL said:
For starts I never said in any part of my post that you were evil or you should rot in hell. In fact I said you weren't evil, so please don't twist my words around. Fact is however nice you are about it, you do have a hobby that could potentially ruin lives, taking things against someones will and sharing it around to all. That's hardly an "oh my god! burn in hell!" comment. It's not even my opinion, it's a fact. You are skirting around it focusing on the good sides. My post was not to get at you, it was just pointing out that however much you justify and focus on the few girls you've helped, what you're doing is still a bad thing. I was kind of hoping that you'd admit to it, but instead you just decided to twist my words and blow them off with a "burn in hell" statement. I am funnily enough not at your door with torches and pitchforks, no I am not religious not that I think religion remotely comes into it.
You're kind of like a thief who goes in, steals the tv and computer, but makes sure everything else stays in order and leaves a box of cookies. Nice thought, makes you better than most thieves, but you're still a thief. I am sorry that I'm not sugarcoating this and making you feel good about your hobby because you do a few nice things and unlike most cappers I've talked to seem to actually be able to string a sentence together.
This is just my opinion but personally I almost forgive the cappers who seem so bloody stupid that the cleverest thing they've ever done is learn how to record camgirls. You seem like an intelligent enough guy, and you're clearly aware of everything you do and the consequences. I don't think that makes you better than them though. It just means you could probably be worth more than them.
You've said it's partly for the social side, I said this before but why do you want to socialise with a bunch of cappers over making friends with and getting close to some of the amazing girls on mfc? You have shed a relatively bad light on your fellow cappers and several of the things you've said have been along the lines of you being so much better than all the others. If you feel this way about them, then why on earth do you care so much about feeding them with free porn?!
And if you read what I said I did not state you called me any of those things. What I did was state what I assumed you wanted me to say. Major difference.
How am I taking something against their will? Around 99% of what I post is public shows done on MFC that at any given time a few thousand people could tune in and watch. I realize some models are more popular than others so the number of viewers at the peak of a show could be 3-5k for one model and only 3-500 for another. Regardless nothing has been taken against the will of the model.
Did I also say that what I did was a good thing? I don't seem to recall saying that in here. I did not say one way or the other. My contrition on the subject has never been brought up, but then again it has also been made quite clear from the opinions of many in this thread that contrition is something I lack, along with empathy, morals, etc. For the record I am not saying
you said any of that.
I have never claimed to be better than any other cappers, nor have I vilified them. Sorry dear, but that is your opinion of anything I have said. I have respect for most original cappers. And I have made some quality friends who were not posters, but rather downloaders. I'll reserve some more light on this matter for a response to something Trav said in a few posts after you.
As for making friends with camgirls, I'd like to say I have. However this has been off of MFC. I have spent enough time watching various models and many have admitted to acting different while on cam then off cam. It is an act or illusion. I am not saying this is how all models function, but a great many do as if you are sweet and develop these "friendships" it usually results in more income. It is a business after all. I'm sure this will be shot down as being a bullshit observation I have made, but I digress.
Isabella_deL said:
So you made a fast judgement about me assuming that I'll make a fast judgement about you? And therefore anything I say you'll throw off imagining that I'm always going to hate you? Unless of course I start praising your work.
I don't speak for the other girls here, but I'm pretty sure a fair few are just humouring you because they would like to know your reasons behind this. I would also like to know your reasons behind it, I'd just rather have all the details. Whatever you say you are sugarcoating your responses and making capping seem a bit rainbows and lollypops. What I'm saying is it may not be the fiery pits in hell, but it's not what you're painting it to be. I don't believe you're being dishonest either, I just think you are only saying certain parts of it and relatively vague responses on your reasons for it. I understand why you wouldn't want to explain the full details of what goes on, maybe you don't even think about it, but if you're going to be here and your information is actually going to be useful to us, then we need to know from your side the negative parts of capping. Otherwise we can only fill in the dots and make up assumptions. I don't want to hear some crap about you deserving to burn in hell. I want to hear the truth of the negatives, what makes you feel guilt in capping, how often you feel guilty, whether you ever want to stop because of guilt feelings. Whether you ever feel shame for it.
I do not doubt that some models/members here are just being polite or changing their tone to, as you put it, "humour" me so that I will spill the proverbial beans. I am fine with that.
But you see if I say I feel contrition or empathy then most will either claim I'm bullshitting as I don't have those emotions, or then you'll see me as a person and thus won't be able to hate me. Let me ask you this, would you think differently and feel differently towards me if you sincerely thought I truly felt guilty towards the models I post? My assumption would be no, but again that is just my assumption.
I will not deny that at times I do feel guilty, but an easy way to balance it or take the edge off is knowing that the in order to do whatever sexual act(s) were captured in the recording the model had to meet a goal she set out. The most guilt is probably felt for the models who struggle more and don't have goals for 6-10k tokens to get naked and do a show. So I have less guilt for posting say AspenRae, Jalyn, NikiSkyler or GinnyPotter as they seem to flaunt their success. Models like MissViagra420 or SexySandra I have more empathetic feelings towards for example due to their smaller following and thus more meager income.
Isabella_deL said:
One thing I would also like to know, and don't take this the wrong way, it's not because of anything you've told me, or the way you've spoken, but more because of the hobby itself. Do you have any form of autism? Maybe aspergers or something similar. I have a few friends who have it and I could see them maybe doing something similar to this. I can understand if you wouldn't want to say. But well, it'd explain a fair amount on the compulsion/slightly obsessive side of the hoarding. One of my best friends is aspergers and although he's a lovely person and I think he's great, I also don't think he feels guilt and remorse in the same ways as most people do, it's less of an automatic thing. Whether or not it's something Dwight personally has, I wouldn't be surprised if other cappers have it. Or maybe I just cannot come to terms with why a seemingly bright guy not only has possibly the saddest hobby I have ever heard of (except maybe train spotting...), but a hobby that also upsets and endangers women without him either simply being a bit of an arse or having a condition.
No, I am not autistic. I do not suffer from any form of ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder).
Isabella_deL said:
I thought I'd also let you know my government is not your government as in England prostitution is legal. So yes the government would continue letting camgirls work. I also really don't think the government would see camming as close to prostitution. Porn would be down first if that were the case. The assumption I made about how people would pay for porn if you couldn't get it for free may be an assumption, but I have asked many people the same question. Guys I know scoff at the idea of paying for porn, yet admit if they couldn't get it for free they would pay to watch it. I also know many people who used to buy dvds all the time, but now don't because they can download/stream much faster without even paying. It will never stop, but currently it does seem to be happening a bit too much.
My government is not the government governing MFC, and it is not unknown that Europe is more open when it comes to sex than North America. There has always been piracy. Basically there will always be the yin to the yang. That is how it is with life for most things. Sick/healthy, right/wrong, good/evil, God/Satan, etc. People resort to pirating content for any medium due to the capitalistic mindset that the developed world has. Corporations and never satisfied with the profits they make. Why should they settle for $1B in annual profits when they can do things to squeeze $2B out of people? That is why we are in a global recession...greed. Although this has delved out of the realm of capping and into the realm of piracy as a while, which is quite a different form when you get down to the nitty gritty.