How am I not showing true repentance - maybe not in your eyes - but I have admitted my errors and mistakes quite openly.
I want to be clear also I used this fake token in rooms where I was a moderator of another broadcaster, it was done as a joke in there, they knew me, they knew my character, thought it was funny and so on and it was bit of a gimmick to add to the role play or whatever. Others when I tried it obviously didn't find it funny.
It was never used in a sinister way.
Any way this is a webcam forum and I appreciate that models and broadcasters will get worked up about it just because you swear and shout loudest about what you think of me doesn't necessarily make you judge and jury in a court. As I said taken in the whole I think I am worthy of a second chance and I've been kicked off the site and that's punishment and loss of earnings. Just hope it can be overturned. If not well I've made my case.
Every time I read a sentence where you state that you have seen the "error of your ways" or that you are "accepting responsibility for your actions" or that you are showing "true repentance" - I keep thinking of this GIF:
Seeing the error of your ways means NOT dismissing your actions as a joke. It may have been a joke to you. But in reality, it is absolutely cruel and heartless to get someone's hopes up by dangling money in front of their face, and then pulling it away. And then laughing at them for believing it could be true. That is truly despicable behavior - and I have not seen you acknowledge it once. I have not seen you acknowledge that your actions were hurtful. That they were cruel to others.
Accepting responsibility for your actions means accepting the consequences for it. You don't get a "get out of jail free" card just because you weren't aware of the rules. Accepting responsibility means accepting the punishment/consequences that goes along with breaking the rules. That is what responsibility means. It doesn't mean "get forgiven with absolutely no consequences for being cruel to others". You took pleasure in lying to performers - in watching their eyes light up at the thought of being given such a gracious tip - and then pulling it away and watching their hopes dashed. That isn't a joke. That is fraud. That is cruel. And that can be described as spam and harassment, as you did it almost THREE DOZEN times. If you want to accept responsibility for breaking the rules 35+ times..... Then accept the consequences of that.
If you want to be repentant... How about you start by acknowledging that what you did was wrong? That it wasn't a joke. Acknowledge that you shouldn't have done it. Try to act as if you are even a little bit sorry for how you treated others who did nothing wrong with you. I don't see any remorse in any of your posts. I see you try to shift the blame from your shoulders by saying it was just a joke, that you shouldn't be punished, that you didn't know the rules, that you deserve yet another chance. Yet I fail to see anywhere where you truly act remorseful. Where you even try to emphasize with the people you were laughing at. All I have seen you do is worry about yourself. You aren't sorry for treating others poorly. You cannot even recognize that what you did was wrong. You still don't see it. All you see is how you have been treated "unfairly". In reality, you hurt yourself. You did this to yourself. You broke the rules. You tried to treat fellow performers poorly under the guise of a joke. The only thing you care about is that you were caught and punished.
Why do people deserve another chance when they treat others poorly? You reap what you sow. You thought you would get a laugh out of tricking fellow performers. Why would a camsite want a model who treats others like that? Why should you been given a chance when you treated 35 other models poorly? You had 35 chances to do the right thing and treat your fellow models as human beings, not by laughing at their expenses in a twisted form of entertainment. You are adult enough to be a cam model, which means you should be adult enough to treat other human beings with respect and decency, not as unconsenting participants of some twisted joke for your own entertainment.
Take responsibility. Stop trying to shoulder the blame on anyone else. Stop making excuses. You did this to yourself. You acted like a child and treated your fellow models with extreme disrespect. Be an adult. Accept that you did something wrong to a lot of people. Accept the consequences of your behavior. Find another site and learn from your mistake. Try treating others with respect instead of like a joke.