So recently I decided to start sharing a secret with some of the folks on MFC that I talk to very often. Something that shouldn't have mattered in the first place, and feels like a burden to keep hiding. Getting this off my chest has been very relieving.
Mr. Jobs isn't actually my boyfriend. He's my husband of almost 5 years. He's been in my life since I graduated high school and is my best friend, my soul mate, and my #1 supporter. If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't be where I am today, nor would I even be a cam girl. He actually encouraged me that I could do it when I had my doubts.
Truth is, when I started this job, I thought I had to play a certain role. I thought I had to be "the single girl who might be attainable if you tip enough" or something along those lines. Although, I feel I was still VERY careful to never give the idea that I was actually available or would meet up with anyone. I say constantly that I am "not looking to ever meet anyone from the Internet, but I look forward to having a good time online." I was also even more paranoid back then than I am now, as far as people knowing now that I live in LA instead of Orange County. Don't get me wrong, I am still SUPER cautious and won't ever give out my actual city, my real name, Jobs' real name, etc. But after all this time I am feeling a little more honest about some of my details, and felt odd not sharing this information with all of you that I've come to know on the web.
This doesn't change anything about my shows and who I am online. Anything I've done thus far really was me. I mean, I've been married this whole time, but that didn't stop me from being sexually "into" any of the shows that I've done, nor has it made me less personable with the friends that I have made and talk to on gchat, the forums, email, etc. Even the information I've provided about what Jobs and I were doing, the happenings at the house, etc, has been real. Just missing the title "husband" instead of "boyfriend". (Oh, and the fact that he lives here, I guess that was a little cover-up too.) We are still the same people, just with a different title.
Monday was the first day I started wearing my wedding band again. I hadn't worn my ring in like 6 months. It's nice to be "married" again! From here on out, when people ask me in my chat room if I am married, have a boyfriend, if I'm single, I will actually start answering honestly.
Thank you so much for being a part of my online experience. As I've said before, I've gotten closer with some of you than I ever had imagined before I really got into this job. You all play a special role in my life these days. Feel free to comment within, but if you're going to hate on me for the decisions I've made, without knowing what it's like to be a cam-model, then please save your breath (or keystrokes, rather) and take a step back and think about it first. I'm looking forward to lots more time on MFC with you all, and I'll see you soon. :love3:
Mr. Jobs isn't actually my boyfriend. He's my husband of almost 5 years. He's been in my life since I graduated high school and is my best friend, my soul mate, and my #1 supporter. If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't be where I am today, nor would I even be a cam girl. He actually encouraged me that I could do it when I had my doubts.
Truth is, when I started this job, I thought I had to play a certain role. I thought I had to be "the single girl who might be attainable if you tip enough" or something along those lines. Although, I feel I was still VERY careful to never give the idea that I was actually available or would meet up with anyone. I say constantly that I am "not looking to ever meet anyone from the Internet, but I look forward to having a good time online." I was also even more paranoid back then than I am now, as far as people knowing now that I live in LA instead of Orange County. Don't get me wrong, I am still SUPER cautious and won't ever give out my actual city, my real name, Jobs' real name, etc. But after all this time I am feeling a little more honest about some of my details, and felt odd not sharing this information with all of you that I've come to know on the web.
This doesn't change anything about my shows and who I am online. Anything I've done thus far really was me. I mean, I've been married this whole time, but that didn't stop me from being sexually "into" any of the shows that I've done, nor has it made me less personable with the friends that I have made and talk to on gchat, the forums, email, etc. Even the information I've provided about what Jobs and I were doing, the happenings at the house, etc, has been real. Just missing the title "husband" instead of "boyfriend". (Oh, and the fact that he lives here, I guess that was a little cover-up too.) We are still the same people, just with a different title.
Monday was the first day I started wearing my wedding band again. I hadn't worn my ring in like 6 months. It's nice to be "married" again! From here on out, when people ask me in my chat room if I am married, have a boyfriend, if I'm single, I will actually start answering honestly.
Thank you so much for being a part of my online experience. As I've said before, I've gotten closer with some of you than I ever had imagined before I really got into this job. You all play a special role in my life these days. Feel free to comment within, but if you're going to hate on me for the decisions I've made, without knowing what it's like to be a cam-model, then please save your breath (or keystrokes, rather) and take a step back and think about it first. I'm looking forward to lots more time on MFC with you all, and I'll see you soon. :love3:
I answer to it more easily than my real name at this point, so that's all that really matters. I grew up wishing my name was simpler, and I loved the name Amber. Now I get to actually be her. 
