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I am endlessly fascinated by experiences. Especially those with a high degree of synchronicity or high strangeness. Drug trips fascinate me as well, since I love to try and understand the similarities and differences.
So, what's one thing that happened to you that was kinda wierd?
I'll start;
Shortly after I started camming (This time three years ago I think) I had a really bad panic attack triggered by what amounted to me believing in the "thought police". This drove my anxiety through the roof, to the point where I was in my room, writhing, convinced I would die if I tried to relax. The rest of the night ended poorly, as I didn't even have the wherewithall to tell Rooster what was happening to me. I was spacey and sad and clingy, and didn't feel I could tell anyone for fear of being labelled as a drama queen.
I went in to hermit mode. I dreaded being alone, yet it happened a lot. Camming helped keep me out of the dark and Homestuck kept me from going insane. I slowly got better, but I was still really easily triggered by any number of unusual things. (Normally I'm a pretty rational person, but at this point, Paranormal Activity actually had me believing a demon COULD steal my soul with absolutely no effort if it so chose. I was a mess.)
Finally, one night after about two weeks of this, I have a dream. And I don't dream often. Less often then. But this one was vivid.
I was walking down the street, calling out to a pack of stray dogs. All the dogs were my responsibility, but I had no leashes for any of them, so they just kind of milled around and only halfway listened to me. There was traffic. The dogs wandered off and I woke up to the sound of car horns blaring and just knowing what happened. It was just after 3am.
Rooster spent the day with me, and I was still not feeling myself. Later that evening, two friends of ours who we didn't get to see often stopped by. They were obviously upset (The girlfriend would never come see us unless her boyfriend REALLY insisted) and we talked for a while. He smoked us out.
Then he told us how their dog was hit by a car last night. Full story. They were at the emergency vet's office at 3am, deciding on what to do for the dog. Ultimately they made the hardest decision.
I was not only heartbroken for them, but also unnerved. I told them briefly about my strange dream, and all my friend has to offer is basically, "life moves on, you can't run or hide from it. You just gotta do it" - and then he offered me a bowl and I smoked again for the first time in weeks since my mental meltdown, and shortly after started getting a lot better.
Probably not the craziest thing, but I am short on experience but big on questions.
What about you guys? See anything wierd? Experience something unusual?
So, what's one thing that happened to you that was kinda wierd?
I'll start;
Shortly after I started camming (This time three years ago I think) I had a really bad panic attack triggered by what amounted to me believing in the "thought police". This drove my anxiety through the roof, to the point where I was in my room, writhing, convinced I would die if I tried to relax. The rest of the night ended poorly, as I didn't even have the wherewithall to tell Rooster what was happening to me. I was spacey and sad and clingy, and didn't feel I could tell anyone for fear of being labelled as a drama queen.
I went in to hermit mode. I dreaded being alone, yet it happened a lot. Camming helped keep me out of the dark and Homestuck kept me from going insane. I slowly got better, but I was still really easily triggered by any number of unusual things. (Normally I'm a pretty rational person, but at this point, Paranormal Activity actually had me believing a demon COULD steal my soul with absolutely no effort if it so chose. I was a mess.)
Finally, one night after about two weeks of this, I have a dream. And I don't dream often. Less often then. But this one was vivid.
I was walking down the street, calling out to a pack of stray dogs. All the dogs were my responsibility, but I had no leashes for any of them, so they just kind of milled around and only halfway listened to me. There was traffic. The dogs wandered off and I woke up to the sound of car horns blaring and just knowing what happened. It was just after 3am.
Rooster spent the day with me, and I was still not feeling myself. Later that evening, two friends of ours who we didn't get to see often stopped by. They were obviously upset (The girlfriend would never come see us unless her boyfriend REALLY insisted) and we talked for a while. He smoked us out.
Then he told us how their dog was hit by a car last night. Full story. They were at the emergency vet's office at 3am, deciding on what to do for the dog. Ultimately they made the hardest decision.
I was not only heartbroken for them, but also unnerved. I told them briefly about my strange dream, and all my friend has to offer is basically, "life moves on, you can't run or hide from it. You just gotta do it" - and then he offered me a bowl and I smoked again for the first time in weeks since my mental meltdown, and shortly after started getting a lot better.
Probably not the craziest thing, but I am short on experience but big on questions.
What about you guys? See anything wierd? Experience something unusual?