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I'm 24 and I am student. In summer 2015 i've registered in LiveJasmin i wasn't a freeloader i took the models in private i think i was always polite "Good Morning/Evening...Thank you etc, etc" and when private was finish i was out of site. Before i restarted University some bad things disgusted me of real world and i've had (i don't know how to explain this in english) a psychotic episode with a loss of self respect. I've started to spend my life in LiveJasmin Freeloading when i was out of cash taking models in pvt when i could.
In December i was a little better, and i went in a model's room where i've never been before. She was listening nice music and most of all she had a perfect control. And being in her room made me feel more calm.
But in fact i've started freeloding here fromJanuary to March. I've learned during this time that she was a domina i've never really knew what was a domina and i was a little scared by her (my now ex boss was very abusive so i was scared by everything everybody with a lot of autority. One day in March i've made a very awful bullshit and she told me to never come back. During 6 weeks i've spent my time away and I'vemade things to be better with myself (thanks god evn if i was fucked up i've never lost my real life friends even made some news).
During 6 weeks i've thought about my past behavior, and I've been able to get clear. I've decided to make my apologises to her a first time by pm no answer (but i know that even if she had answered i should have made better apologises). I've been in pvt to say how sorry i was. She accepted my apologises and she even gave me a very good tip to help me control my stress (It was around May exam period).
End of May she vanished even if her profile is still here.
After my exams ended i was unable to talk to a model in freechat. But i've been in pvt with model i've freeloaded by the past or i tipped them (not enough according to the time i've freeloaded but i'mstudent).
In September i've never been back in Jasmin. I've never feel need to come back. No craving.
I've never had some love fantasy or white knight syndroma i've never asked to models about their private life and i've never share mine even if i had some nice and very smart talk with some. And even if i wont registered again in camsite i think,it's a very interesting world.
But about that dom model i can't stop thinking about how my behavior have been wrong rude and even insane. Coming everiday in her room i feel like a stalker, somebody insane.
I don't think she'll be back in Jasmin even even if she come back she wouldn't be glad to see me (even in pvt) with my states of mind saying how sorry i am
So my question is if somebody have already lived this how to get rid of this stop always reproaching me this and think about something else.
Thank you by advance
I'm 24 and I am student. In summer 2015 i've registered in LiveJasmin i wasn't a freeloader i took the models in private i think i was always polite "Good Morning/Evening...Thank you etc, etc" and when private was finish i was out of site. Before i restarted University some bad things disgusted me of real world and i've had (i don't know how to explain this in english) a psychotic episode with a loss of self respect. I've started to spend my life in LiveJasmin Freeloading when i was out of cash taking models in pvt when i could.
In December i was a little better, and i went in a model's room where i've never been before. She was listening nice music and most of all she had a perfect control. And being in her room made me feel more calm.
But in fact i've started freeloding here fromJanuary to March. I've learned during this time that she was a domina i've never really knew what was a domina and i was a little scared by her (my now ex boss was very abusive so i was scared by everything everybody with a lot of autority. One day in March i've made a very awful bullshit and she told me to never come back. During 6 weeks i've spent my time away and I'vemade things to be better with myself (thanks god evn if i was fucked up i've never lost my real life friends even made some news).
During 6 weeks i've thought about my past behavior, and I've been able to get clear. I've decided to make my apologises to her a first time by pm no answer (but i know that even if she had answered i should have made better apologises). I've been in pvt to say how sorry i was. She accepted my apologises and she even gave me a very good tip to help me control my stress (It was around May exam period).
End of May she vanished even if her profile is still here.
After my exams ended i was unable to talk to a model in freechat. But i've been in pvt with model i've freeloaded by the past or i tipped them (not enough according to the time i've freeloaded but i'mstudent).
In September i've never been back in Jasmin. I've never feel need to come back. No craving.
I've never had some love fantasy or white knight syndroma i've never asked to models about their private life and i've never share mine even if i had some nice and very smart talk with some. And even if i wont registered again in camsite i think,it's a very interesting world.
But about that dom model i can't stop thinking about how my behavior have been wrong rude and even insane. Coming everiday in her room i feel like a stalker, somebody insane.
I don't think she'll be back in Jasmin even even if she come back she wouldn't be glad to see me (even in pvt) with my states of mind saying how sorry i am
So my question is if somebody have already lived this how to get rid of this stop always reproaching me this and think about something else.
Thank you by advance
