I've been visiting camsites on and off for maybe four years. Through all of my interactions, I have never had one like this. Recently, I stumbled upon a cam I hadn't seen. The girl was very cute, and very cheerful. All around, she seemed pretty nice. After visiting a couple of times, never having talked in the chat at all, I decided to see what buying into a snapchat would be like. It isn't something I really do. So I said hello, tipped for the snap add, and we ended up chatting for a while.
Time goes by. Through this time, I find myself in her cam room just talking. Anything from making jokes, gossip, or even private stuff (not sexual). I was taken by surprise by the large number of common interests, and tastes we have. Like, I was shocked. I never would have thought it. And it isn't a fluke she's trying to play, because she'd bring it up first, and she truly knew what she was talking about. During all of this, I never went crazy with tips. I feel bad for saying that, but I was in the middle of moving, and didn't have as much to spend.But even so, she would open a chat with me. I don't visit her cam to see her shows. I'm there to talk. Even if i'm at work, i have our chat open. That way I can still converse, albeit at a much slower pace. We also talk off cam a decent amount as well. Anyways, at this point, I'm finding myself in a very abnormal (for me) situation.
I hate the fact I met this girl on a camsite.
I'm not in love, but I do find myself wanting to pursue a friendship with this person. I feel restricted for a couple of reasons. 1, the fact I met her on a camsite, I feel as though i have a title above my head that reads "potential client". I fully understand why this is the case, but I still don't like it lol. I want to be something more than that. 2, I try to be really careful of comfort zones, and boundaries. I respect boundaries so much to the point where it's almost like I set up another boundary around theirs, just to be sure i don't get anywhere close. This restricts me, because it makes me feel trapped in the "client-zone". I don't want to say something about wanting to be a friend, and risk making her uncomfortable.
I've seen some people say this kind of thing is kind of driven by the model's show/persona, or how I attracted I would be to the model, but I really don't think that's the case for me. If I could trade talking in her cam room for being able to talk on a first name basis elsewhere, I'd take it in a heartbeat.
As I read through everything I'm typing, I feel really bad. I don't know, maybe it seems selfish, or immature. I just found someone who I find to be really interesting, and I would have loved the opportunity to truly get to know this person, and whatever future came of that is whatever. I just feel like I won't get an opportunity to do that, because of the platform we met.
I guess what I'm trying to ask is, what can I do? I'd like to think that it's not impossible, but what do I know. This isn't something I've ever gone through before.
I would greatly appreciate a models perspective on things too. Would something like this be unsettling to you? If not, in what method/s would achieving this be most appropriate? If yes, then... Well shit, I'm sorry
Thank you for reading, and I hope this doesn't upset anyone. And if I may ask, I'd rather not be called dumb or anything. From what I've seen, this is a very helpful and kind community, but still.. Thanks
TL;DR - I met someone i find unique and fun with lots of common interests, but I feel robbed of the opportunity to become true friends with them since I met them on a camsite. Looking for advice.
Time goes by. Through this time, I find myself in her cam room just talking. Anything from making jokes, gossip, or even private stuff (not sexual). I was taken by surprise by the large number of common interests, and tastes we have. Like, I was shocked. I never would have thought it. And it isn't a fluke she's trying to play, because she'd bring it up first, and she truly knew what she was talking about. During all of this, I never went crazy with tips. I feel bad for saying that, but I was in the middle of moving, and didn't have as much to spend.But even so, she would open a chat with me. I don't visit her cam to see her shows. I'm there to talk. Even if i'm at work, i have our chat open. That way I can still converse, albeit at a much slower pace. We also talk off cam a decent amount as well. Anyways, at this point, I'm finding myself in a very abnormal (for me) situation.
I hate the fact I met this girl on a camsite.
I'm not in love, but I do find myself wanting to pursue a friendship with this person. I feel restricted for a couple of reasons. 1, the fact I met her on a camsite, I feel as though i have a title above my head that reads "potential client". I fully understand why this is the case, but I still don't like it lol. I want to be something more than that. 2, I try to be really careful of comfort zones, and boundaries. I respect boundaries so much to the point where it's almost like I set up another boundary around theirs, just to be sure i don't get anywhere close. This restricts me, because it makes me feel trapped in the "client-zone". I don't want to say something about wanting to be a friend, and risk making her uncomfortable.
I've seen some people say this kind of thing is kind of driven by the model's show/persona, or how I attracted I would be to the model, but I really don't think that's the case for me. If I could trade talking in her cam room for being able to talk on a first name basis elsewhere, I'd take it in a heartbeat.
As I read through everything I'm typing, I feel really bad. I don't know, maybe it seems selfish, or immature. I just found someone who I find to be really interesting, and I would have loved the opportunity to truly get to know this person, and whatever future came of that is whatever. I just feel like I won't get an opportunity to do that, because of the platform we met.
I guess what I'm trying to ask is, what can I do? I'd like to think that it's not impossible, but what do I know. This isn't something I've ever gone through before.
I would greatly appreciate a models perspective on things too. Would something like this be unsettling to you? If not, in what method/s would achieving this be most appropriate? If yes, then... Well shit, I'm sorry
Thank you for reading, and I hope this doesn't upset anyone. And if I may ask, I'd rather not be called dumb or anything. From what I've seen, this is a very helpful and kind community, but still.. Thanks
TL;DR - I met someone i find unique and fun with lots of common interests, but I feel robbed of the opportunity to become true friends with them since I met them on a camsite. Looking for advice.
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