What's the point in getting on the forum telling a bunch of strangers about it? What does that accomplish?
The fact you're this mad over her taking the private, which was a sure thing over the *possibility* of your password show that hadn't come yet is mind blowing. What if she waited on the private or declined it for you and you had not done your part? Or you made her wait causing her to lose out on that private altogether? She has to decline the private that's ready to go when she was only in the setting up stages with you? She has to wait on you, but you can't wait on her? As someone else said, if you wanted her that badly could you not wait for that private to end? Unless the guy was a stamina wanker who takes an hour.
Regardless there are other girls on CB. Is she the only model on CB your penis goes upward to? Why be this mad? Is she hot?... Maybe she is. But I highly doubt she's the only good looking woman on CB at any given time worth pulling the shrub out to.
You say you can spend your money better. If there are better ways for you to spend your money than on CB why be there in the first place?
I normally find it weak when someone says, "Someone must have hurt you", but you write like a generic guy who was bitter over all of the turn downs from 9th grade. So in this case I'd say it's true.
There's more to life than being upset over one random internet cam girl who didn't help you jack off for a few minutes. Trust me, life goes on.