have i ruined my life

[humdrum]

I really need some advice.

around this time last year I wasn't able to pay for my tuition at college and decided to try camming. I'm in medical school and was already working two jobs. I didn't last long (around 2 months) before realising that i couldnt handle it and that i hated it. I am absolutely passing no judgement on camming and know that it has really helped many people become more financially secure, just for me i just felt very humiliated. I only ever made $110 over the entire month, but despite that the videos were very explicit with my face fully in the shot and i reckon very recognisable. there was one man on there that accounted for about $50 and watched me for a long while. i still had to borrow money from my parents in the end putting them in a terrible situation.

My plan was to make a couple of thousands, pay my fees, help my parents and never look back, but i quit before making any money and since then have found out that the website saves peoples videos or things like that. i can't believe how bad my judgement was, and that i didn't properly think of what it could do to my life, all i could think about was not being removed from school and hoping i could have a bit of extra money and help my parents.

I know if you're reading this, you will be thinking how ridiculously stupid i am for risking so much and i have thought about it every single day since and had no idea of how awful i'd feel, i'm having panic attacks and wake up in the middle of the night crying that someone will find the videos of me now or when i am a professional.

knowing how paranoid i am now, i cant believe how stupid i was to do something that i wasnt sure about, i was so desperate for money that i didnt think of anything else and now i might have ruined my entire life for $100.

i have begged streamate to remove my ID and documents from their system but they wont due to tax and proof of payment. it took me so long to get into medical school and now im terrified that this will this effect me in future jobs/ or if someone finds out before i could get removed from the course.

i never used my name but i used my real email address (which again i cant believe that i did) i am currently in the process of deleting that email address but am also worried that once i delete that email address then i wont be able to email streamate again.

i was hoping to make a blog and youtube channel on home treatments in medicine and maybe even one day have a career mixing media and medicine but now i know that i will have no chance of doing that and that someone might find my videos or see me if i ever do anything media related. i dont know if i should delete my instagram and facebook and completely try to disappear.

i know once something is on the internet it is there forever, i was just hoping someone could tell me:

how i can find out if any of my streams were being recorded and are online (i've searched my cam name and my profile picture comes up but it doesnt have my face on it. nothing comes up if i search my real name).
if it is likely that my videos are out there somewhere and they will come up somewhere?
if i need a lawyer/ should i keep begging streamate to remove my ID?
if i ever do anything media related where i am appearing on a documentary or radio, will people find out about my camming

if anyone can help i would be so appreciative. i know what i did was incredibly stupid and i will regret it for the rest of my life even if nothing comes up just because of the fear it has given me, if anyone can give me any form of reassurance it would be helpful or tell me if i should brace myself.

 

[Deleted member 16664]

I really need some advice.

around this time last year I wasn't able to pay for my tuition at college and decided to try camming. I'm in medical school and was already working two jobs. I didn't last long (around 2 months) before realising that i couldnt handle it and that i hated it. I am absolutely passing no judgement on camming and know that it has really helped many people become more financially secure, just for me i just felt very humiliated. I only ever made $110 over the entire month, but despite that the videos were very explicit with my face fully in the shot and i reckon very recognisable. there was one man on there that accounted for about $50 and watched me for a long while. i still had to borrow money from my parents in the end putting them in a terrible situation.

My plan was to make a couple of thousands, pay my fees, help my parents and never look back, but i quit before making any money and since then have found out that the website saves peoples videos or things like that. i can't believe how bad my judgement was, and that i didn't properly think of what it could do to my life, all i could think about was not being removed from school and hoping i could have a bit of extra money and help my parents.

I know if you're reading this, you will be thinking how ridiculously stupid i am for risking so much and i have thought about it every single day since and had no idea of how awful i'd feel, i'm having panic attacks and wake up in the middle of the night crying that someone will find the videos of me now or when i am a professional.

knowing how paranoid i am now, i cant believe how stupid i was to do something that i wasnt sure about, i was so desperate for money that i didnt think of anything else and now i might have ruined my entire life for $100.

i have begged streamate to remove my ID and documents from their system but they wont due to tax and proof of payment. it took me so long to get into medical school and now im terrified that this will this effect me in future jobs/ or if someone finds out before i could get removed from the course.

i never used my name but i used my real email address (which again i cant believe that i did) i am currently in the process of deleting that email address but am also worried that once i delete that email address then i wont be able to email streamate again.

i was hoping to make a blog and youtube channel on home treatments in medicine and maybe even one day have a career mixing media and medicine but now i know that i will have no chance of doing that and that someone might find my videos or see me if i ever do anything media related. i dont know if i should delete my instagram and facebook and completely try to disappear.

i know once something is on the internet it is there forever, i was just hoping someone could tell me:

how i can find out if any of my streams were being recorded and are online (i've searched my cam name and my profile picture comes up but it doesnt have my face on it. nothing comes up if i search my real name).
if it is likely that my videos are out there somewhere and they will come up somewhere?
if i need a lawyer/ should i keep begging streamate to remove my ID?
if i ever do anything media related where i am appearing on a documentary or radio, will people find out about my camming

if anyone can help i would be so appreciative. i know what i did was incredibly stupid and i will regret it for the rest of my life even if nothing comes up just because of the fear it has given me, if anyone can give me any form of reassurance it would be helpful or tell me if i should brace myself.

Relax. The odds are that your videos will be seen with over millions of videos on the internet is likely not going to happen. You've cammed for probably no more than 3 hours. You're thinking of the worst-case scenario. Do you live your life by the worst case scenario? You're not a porn star. You will lead a normal life. Stay in school, it will work out. This will soon be a thing of the past.

 

[BobbyB]

I would say try to get some perspective....

1, You cannot change the past, no point in giving yourself a hard time for being stupid, you made some decisions which you would not make again, you learned something for the future, thats it.

2) You don't know the future, you worry about some information or videos which could possibly have an negative impact on your chosen career. You could also worry about accidents or sickness or all kinds of events you have no influence on to affect your career, you have no way to know what will happen and if something happens maybe after the event it turned out to be a blessing in disguise....

Back to your cam adventure, every day a huge amount of new shows is recorded and uploaded somewhere and that pile is getting bigger everyday, the chances that someone who knows you stumbles across any content related to you are getting smaller by the day, not 0 but getting closer to it.

So what you can do is first of all not telling anybody of your cam adventure, stops people to start digging...
If someone comes across content related to you just flatly deny it is you, maybe someone looking very similar....
Regarding the email address, normally you should have the option to change a contact address to a new one , just replace it in your profile or so.....

Most likely your cam adventure will go unnoticed, so relax and enjoy life, and if it really comes up in some shape or form just be happy that it is not something serious like bad health issue ....

 

[CatEarnshaw]

Of all my camming, there is only one that was pirated and it was on MFC and was v.rubbish as it was like my first or second outing. I left it online because if people are stupid enough to pay that loser for it, they are welcome to it. I cammed on Streamate for a long time exclusively and never found any pirated streams online.

I know it is different in the US to the UK and camming has a bigger impact on people's lives due to the way the tax system works and other people can comment on that, but I do believe this "if it's on the Internet, it's there forever" statement panics people in so many different walks of life. In reputation management circles, if you were to hire a company to monitor your profile across the Internet, most won't file take downs but will bury the bad news by creating new content for your brand/persona and ensuring the first few pages of Google are filled with that because once you are buried further back... You don't exist.

It's a difficult area and it depends on a lot of things but as someone with a profession, albeit one I am giving up, that requires a squeaky clean persona, I haven't had issues, but the UK is a little more forgiving about such things.

 

[SoTxBob]

just a bit of anecdotal comparison.... Knew a gal a dozen years ago that did a couple of layouts in one of the "less posh" skin mags when she was in pre-med. It paid her bills. She was asked a few times for her autograph while in school but nothing ever came of it other than that. Don't make a mountain from a mole hill and even if asked, own it, and don't let 'them' put you on the 'ashamed defensive' for nothing.

 

[IsabellaSnow]

First: relax, breath. You have not been as foolish as you think. You have been in a tough situation and have chosen to be resourceful, unfortunately for you camming did not work out or make you the income you needed. I don't believe that's something to be ashamed of, you tried, which is more than many can say!

Is the issue about not having made money from camming or that you did cam? For example, if you had made the money you needed would you still feel the same sense of shame for potentially having your image out there? I understand the feeling of not wanting to sell yourself cheaply. It's risk vs reward, and if you didn't get the reward but took the risks then I can understand that this job could feel degrading. Webcamming is best as a long game though rather than quick cash as you tend to make more with established regulars, and having videos out there is a risk that should be kept in mind. Though with how little you've cammed I would not worry too much, you're basically an unknown and will be in a sea of other girls if your videos were shared (which is unlikely). I would recommend if you need income and don't wish to leave a trail to consider stripping. I tried it for a bit and it was very good fun and much easier than camming, and the income was definitely a lot better than your average camgirls. Bit different where I am in the UK than the USA, but I have heard the money is better in the states.

Otherwise if you prefer the idea of camming, there are other sites which you wouldn't need to do as graphic shows. You'd be risking having your face out there though.

 

[RogueWarrior]

I know a lot of employers are doing google searches, checking social media for prospective employees. My place of employment all we do is a criminal background check. Not even sure most employers would even know to check tube sites. (I could be wrong, but never heard of it.)

With the little amount of time that you cammed, it's not very likely that anything will be uploaded. Deep breath. The way I see it, in reality, the only way this ruins your life is if you obsess over it. Live your life, not in constant fear. It happened. We all have our skeletons. If it comes up, own it. Say you were young and stupid (which is how you feel, so it's not a lie, even though I think you're being hard on yourself).

 

[Influenced]

i know once something is on the internet it is there forever

Worked with a girl for about 6 months, the district head of our department did thorough searches of all employee's, not just when you are hired but also random checks afterwards and tells you when you are hired that will always be ongoing while employed there. Not just talking about the one time deal criminal and credit checks. I am not sure how their exact process is, I do know that she was fired after 6 months, after discovering she used to model for a cam site, however they "said" they did not fire her for that as to cover their asses. However everyone that worked under that district head knew the real reason she was fired was for the cam thing. (and a lot of people worked under that district). She tried to sue and lost. She couldn't prove they fired her for that and she was a model employee. I quit shortly thereafter myself because of this incident. I know she was pretty embarrassed about it because she deleted her fb and pretty much all of her social media and also tried to move back in with her parents which didn't go over well because with the lawsuit and such and them finding out (she told them she had done the cam thing, her family) that resulted in problems with her and her family. She finally moved out of state completely and myself and those of us that knew her outside of work lost touch with her completely, she called another girl I knew (before she moved out of state) that worked for the company while all this was going on and kinda lost it over the entire situation over the phone and then later in person with this individual so much so, that she had to be committed for a couple of weeks to get it together. It was major gossip around the office because the girl she was friends with and lost it with, had a big mouth and she told EVERYBODY about it, she even filmed part of the breakdown the girl had, had on her phone, for proof for the people that thought she might be lying about the whole thing. I felt really bad for the girl as a whole, I mean who wouldn't. It was a bad deal all around. How the district head found out about this stuff with her past in camming we never found out, we tried to find what he said and we couldn't, she said she only did it for about 4 months and then quit. The only reason we know for a fact that is what she was fired for is because later on the district head was arrested for some other non related content found on his computer at work (he was stealing from the company, I have no problems saying that in this post after what he did) and among these things were things related to her and her time camming, dating back to the time she was fired. Some people tried to get into contact with her after they found that stuff on his pc to see if she wanted to file another suit but she vanished and I have no clue if she ever tried to reopen anything or if she even ever found out about his arrest and that she really was fired for the camming stuff and they had proof. He had a file on her and everything and the decision that was in the file to fire her and the reason why was in that file he had on her and it came from a higher up in the company than even him, but he is the one that either came across it and filed with corporate about it or he was stalking her and found out that way, and reported it. Either way, pretty messed up and this was only a couple of years ago. I mean she had to change her entire life over this.

 

[Lorelei]

Worked with a girl for about 6 months, the district head of our department did thorough searches of all employee's, not just when you are hired but also random checks afterwards and tells you when you are hired that will always be ongoing while employed there. Not just talking about the one time deal criminal and credit checks. I am not sure how their exact process is, I do know that she was fired after 6 months, after discovering she used to model for a cam site, however they "said" they did not fire her for that as to cover their asses. However everyone that worked under that district head knew the real reason she was fired was for the cam thing. (and a lot of people worked under that district). She tried to sue and lost. She couldn't prove they fired her for that and she was a model employee. I quit shortly thereafter myself because of this incident. I know she was pretty embarrassed about it because she deleted her fb and pretty much all of her social media and also tried to move back in with her parents which didn't go over well because with the lawsuit and such and them finding out (she told them she had done the cam thing, her family) that resulted in problems with her and her family. She finally moved out of state completely and myself and those of us that knew her outside of work lost touch with her completely, she called another girl I knew (before she moved out of state) that worked for the company while all this was going on and kinda lost it over the entire situation over the phone and then later in person with this individual so much so, that she had to be committed for a couple of weeks to get it together. It was major gossip around the office because the girl she was friends with and lost it with, had a big mouth and she told EVERYBODY about it, she even filmed part of the breakdown the girl had, had on her phone, for proof for the people that thought she might be lying about the whole thing. I felt really bad for the girl as a whole, I mean who wouldn't. It was a bad deal all around. How the district head found out about this stuff with her past in camming we never found out, we tried to find what he said and we couldn't, she said she only did it for about 4 months and then quit. The only reason we know for a fact that is what she was fired for is because later on the district head was arrested for some other non related content found on his computer at work (he was stealing from the company, I have no problems saying that in this post after what he did) and among these things were things related to her and her time camming, dating back to the time she was fired. Some people tried to get into contact with her after they found that stuff on his pc to see if she wanted to file another suit but she vanished and I have no clue if she ever tried to reopen anything or if she even ever found out about his arrest and that she really was fired for the camming stuff and they had proof. He had a file on her and everything and the decision that was in the file to fire her and the reason why was in that file he had on her and it came from a higher up in the company than even him, but he is the one that either came across it and filed with corporate about it or he was stalking her and found out that way, and reported it. Either way, pretty messed up and this was only a couple of years ago. I mean she had to change her entire life over this.

Holy wall of text, Batman! Seriously though, while this situation sounds absolutely terrible, it's also completely unlikely and I will be very surprised if OP is ever found out for the few hours she cammed. OP, please don't get super anxious about this one particular second-hand experience. This is really not a huge deal.

Edited to add: @Influenced, you're absolutely welcome to disagree with me, but I feel like the OP has asked "oh fuck have I ruined my life?" and you just said "oh yes, it's totally possible!" Sure, there's a chance she has complicated a thing or two in her future, but the idea that she's wrecked her entire life is likely incredibly slim.

 

[Influenced]

This is really not a huge deal.

Was a pretty huge deal for the person I knew, and I did not say this was something that happened all the time but it can happen and does, I am aware of other situations similar to the one I posted, I was just giving my own personal experience on it as I knew the person a good bit. I do think it is a bit naive to say that someone would not be found out even doing it for a small amount of time. As for my wall-0-text I forgot to split it up for which I apologize.

Getting someone to worry here is not my intention but personal RL experience with this I believe is what they were looking for and as I said I do think it is a bit naive to say it is completely unlikely whether she cammed for a few hours or a month, the girl I knew did it for four months off and on and deleted everything-she thought-afterward. So it is most def a possibility, it all depends on the circumstances.

 

[Influenced]

but I feel like the OP has asked "oh fuck have I ruined my life?"

and you just said "oh yes, it's totally possible!"

That was the title of the post yes, do I think this will happen to this person, no. I was simply giving an example to where it did happen to someone I knew with a short career in camming. Do I think "oh yes, it's totally possible." (without the exclamation point. I wasn't shouting it from the rooftops or being rude..at all.) Yes I do think it is possible because I have seen it happen, which is why I posted what I did. I think it is severely naive to think that it isn't possible, that was the reason for my post and the reason I gave an example, no other reason.

My post isn't about trying to put this person into a state of panic by any means I feel for anyone in this situation. I wanted to give an example of how it can and does happen to some people, whether they do it short term or long term based on an experience a friend of mine from the past went through that is similar. Yes, I do disagree with you and I do think it is naive to say that it is completely unlikely that this cannot happen, because in my "second hand" eyewitness experience I have seen it happen.

I do not think the OP should change their life nor live in fear or anything of the such. Yes though it is totally possible, do I think It is likely? Not really but not completely or incredibly unlikely, I think that is just unrealistic. I realize my take on this is different from others that use this forum, most likely a good percentage of people on this forum, and I am okay with that.

This post was in response to the edit you made after I had already responded. I could no longer edit my previous posts.

 

[AerynShade]

Deep breath. Don't panic.

If all the med students who paid their way through school with sex work were ruined we wouldn't have nearly as many doctors and nurses. It's not like teaching where it really can ruin your career.

I know people who had drunk driving convictions and were allowed to become nurses. A short stint as a cam model isn't going to destroy your career.

If you've searched your cam name repeatedly and haven't found anything...there might not be anything to find. Streamate sells recordings of our shows, but not all of them are actually uploaded by anyone. Plus, there are new videos being uploaded every day pushing your (possible) videos farther and farther back on any sites they might be on.

Stop bugging Streamate about your ID. They need to keep those records. Ask them to close and delete your account instead.

Very few people watched your shows so the likelihood of those same people finding your other media-related appearances are probably pretty small. And people generally don't link a person they saw performing explicit sex acts to being the same person on a documentary about (I'm assuming) medicine. You're not listed on IMDB as a cam model.

 

[LittleLei]

Gonna chime in with the other seasoned models and gals on here and agree with what they have responded with Perfectly understandable for the concern. I hope you were able to have some relief after this.

 

[Vera]

Let me chime in as well. When I started adult work I was in school for finance and supporting an expensive extramural athletic habit. I stuck a toe in to make ends meet and was terrified I had torched my future. I obviously stuck around the smut side of things after I finished school, but even being a prolific producer and, when I did hardcore content under another name, being very popular on PornHub's amateur program I haven't had videos pop up in my life. Most background checks won't turn anything up unless you are legit working for the FBI and there is so much porn and so many capped shows floating around the internet that your odds of being found out are very small.

Most people who are outed are outed by someone who knows them, stumbled upon them in free chat, and had an axe to grind, in my experience. This obviously doesn't cover all cases but that seems to constitute a fair percentage. If your social media is locked down and you've pulled down all the profiles you are worried about you should be absolutely fine.

 

[cherrybomb1111]

I don't think you have anything to worry about. But you should really stop putting those negative thoughts about your future out there. And stop worrying so much. your gonna give yourself early grey hair.

If you haven't found a video by now then it's not out there.

But in all seriousness.. people act like being a cam model is equal to having a violent crime felony charge on your record. Not even close.You will be applying for med school not the FBI. Do you really think that they are going to spend hours scouring the interwebs for a possible porn video of you? mmm No. And if someone did see a video of you, that fucking pervert is going to keep his mouth shut.. go home and jack off again to your video because you were probably hot as hell in it.

 

[humdrum]

Deep breath. Don't panic.

If you've searched your cam name repeatedly and haven't found anything...there might not be anything to find. Streamate sells recordings of our shows, but not all of them are actually uploaded by anyone. Plus, there are new videos being uploaded every day pushing your (possible) videos farther and farther back on any sites they might be on.

Stop bugging Streamate about your ID. They need to keep those records. Ask them to close and delete your account instead.

Very few people watched your shows so the likelihood of those same people finding your other media-related appearances are probably pretty small. And people generally don't link a person they saw performing explicit sex acts to being the same person on a documentary about (I'm assuming) medicine. You're not listed on IMDB as a cam model.

i heard that they could potentially use your videos but under a different name; do you know how i might be able to search if this is the case.
with regards to streamate, should i delete my email address that i used for them and just try to forget about it or should i keep that email (that has my realname attached to it) so that sometime in the future i could potentially get it removed.

and lastly should i continue with a blog/ youtube video and hopes of a more media career or is that just asking to be outed?

your reply was really helpful thankyou

 

[humdrum]

Is the issue about not having made money from camming or that you did cam? For example, if you had made the money you needed would you still feel the same sense of shame for potentially having your image out there? I understand the feeling of not wanting to sell yourself cheaply. It's risk vs reward, .

yeah this is exactly what is so upsetting, i am upset about the camming and would have been even if i made thousands, but its the fact that if i had been able to pay for my fees than at least in a few years i could say, that at the time it helped me through a difficult situation but it didnt help me, i only made things so much worse

 

[humdrum]

thanks everyone for you're replies. it has definately helped me.
i told my mum about it as i needed to tell someone and she said that i've done it now and better just hope noone else finds out and just push it to one side, which by the sound of it, sounds like what you all are telling me to do.

moving forward is their any steps i can take to help myself e.g. seek some legal advice or would it be better to try and not cause a fuss which might lead to more attention on myself.

the thing i'm worried about the most is someone digging this up when i'm a senior doctor.
would you think it's best for me to try and stay underground and not do anything media related or to just continue as normal?

 

[IsabellaSnow]

thanks everyone for you're replies. it has definately helped me.
i told my mum about it as i needed to tell someone and she said that i've done it now and better just hope noone else finds out and just push it to one side, which by the sound of it, sounds like what you all are telling me to do.

moving forward is their any steps i can take to help myself e.g. seek some legal advice or would it be better to try and not cause a fuss which might lead to more attention on myself.

the thing i'm worried about the most is someone digging this up when i'm a senior doctor.
would you think it's best for me to try and stay underground and not do anything media related or to just continue as normal?

Legally as far as I know there isn't much you can do. Before I cammed I looked at a few sites and consulted a lawyer about the terms and conditions. I had found one website that did camming but was clear that they could use your image to advertise with. I contacted them about this and they refused to remove that clause, which was actually amazing for me as what they were going to be paying for private shows was completely ripping the models off. When I went to myfreecams I didn't have to worry about the advertising and I made nearly ten times more the maximum I would have made from the other site. If it's a site that uses your image to advertise etc then they will have it in the terms which you will have signed. So I would not bother wasting time, money and effort on it. A site like streamate will have thousands of models, many of those highly successful with lots of great content. I would be surprised if they used an unknown model who was barely online and is not currently active in any future advertising.
The only leg you have to stand on from a legal point of view is with people capping and putting you up on different websites. That is illegal though generally the most you can do is get the videos taken down. But I doubt it's something you need to worry about.

If you had earned a lot of money then you would have done way more shows which would have increased your chance of being out there. As you're clearly not ok with this and cammed out of desperation then if I were you I'd take this as a blessing.
I hope you do well, I am sure this won't negatively effect you in the future. It's only really what you make of it, and there are so many women in this day and age who try out some form of camming, modelling, stripping etc.

 

[EmiliaSong]

the thing i'm worried about the most is someone digging this up when i'm a senior doctor.
would you think it's best for me to try and stay underground and not do anything media related or to just continue as normal?

If anything, I'd be less worried about it as you get older. Think about how many of your peers have sexted their partners and sent dirty pics from their phones. And everybody has seen porn by now.

 

[LucyRider]

I had a bit of a scare with privacy this week - did a lot of googling round about it to try and learn more. I also came here and the community was supportive and awesome (thank you ). My takeaway is
1) someone might find it - but - like people here have said - every day you're not camming its getting more and more buried
2) hold your head up - who cares? I don't think its anything to be ashamed of
3) I wish I thought a bit more about this before I set up (I have a habit of diving head in and having to learn on the fly haha, unfortunately that doesn't go down that well when internet stuff is kinda forever)

I wrote a blog post about my experiences (mainly as my way of going ok that's the end of me worrying about it, write it up and move on) ... I am looking at making it a bit better as reading it now it does feel a little dramatic - (when I wrote this when I googled my cam name EVERYTHING was coming up) now 2 days later most of it is gone haha. But maybe there is some sites on here you can check out?

https://howibecameacammodel.wordpress.com/2017/03/21/privacy-while-cam-modelling/

As a side note - at the end I talk about putting together some blog posts on alias creation etc - does anyone here want to contribute? If so PM me

 

[cherrybomb1111]

You know Amelia Sheppard from grey's anatomy was a drug addict. Her and her boyfriend shot up oxycodone and he died while in the bed next to her.

Now she is a lead Brain surgeon.

Dont let your past control your future, and definitely don't let the fear of your past fester.

I showed a guy my butthole today for a $1.50 and I'm still gonna be alright. ;p lol

 

[RogueWarrior]

I showed a guy my butthole today for a $1.50 and I'm still gonna be alright.

That actually made me audibly giggle.

 

[cherrybomb1111]

That actually made me audibly giggle.

Glad it made ya laugh. We all do stupid stuff in life. But we cant let our stupid mistake give us anxiety. When I'm done camming I'm gonna delete all of my accounts, pictures and videos. If someone confronts me one day ill just say "yea what of if? you never touched your pussy before?" if the situation is right ill even show them how.

 

[RogueWarrior]

Glad it made ya laugh. We all do stupid stuff in life. But we cant let our stupid mistake give us anxiety. When I'm done camming I'm gonna delete all of my accounts, pictures and videos. If someone confronts me one day ill just say "yea what of if? you never touched your pussy before?" if the situation is right ill even show them how.

Totally agree. Thankfully there was no social media when I was younger. I did plenty of stupid shit. I could tell you stories. Live and learn, but most importantly LIVE. But not in fear. Most of what we worry about never comes to anything. Worry is a waste of time and accomplishes nothing.

 

[HiGirlsRHot]

Our first lady posed nude, and her photos were republished recently, she is still pretty popular. The President is on video tape talking about grabbing girls by the pussy. Plus, I bet somewhere on the internet we've got golden shower videos of him also.

This is America, a sextape is often the path to fame and fortune.

All joking aside. If you cammed on streammate, very few people record that site and even fewer look for them.

Deep breath in 50 years, it will be a great story to share with your grandkids to let them know wild and crazy grandma you use to be or comfort them when they do something stupid that think will end their life.

 

[MFCGod]

would you think it's best for me to try and stay underground and not do anything media related or to just continue as normal?

Not only would someone have to see your extremely extremely obscure recording(s), but it would have to be someone who knows you

Seems much more likely you would get struck by lightning and you can't live your life thinking "crap, I probably shouldn't go out today, I may get struck by lightning"

The only way people are going to find out is if you choose to tell them

 

[Kiki Jane]

I won't tell if you won't

 

[Deleted member 35180]

@IsabellaSnow I thought MFC can use your content for advertising? As far as I understood the rules I read recently.

@humdrum I would disable the comments section if you're going to be making youtube videos, and I personally won't be making any unless I've the intention of outting myself as a camgirl on a non porn related site.

Also, our appearance changes over the course of our lifetime, I think the shorter amount of time you did it for and the longer span of time that has elapsed since you stopped, the less your chances of someone recognize you. I wouldn't let this wreak havoc on your mental health or be upset with yourself.

@Influenced how much time had elapsed between when she stopped and when she was found out, if you know?

 

[uncoveredmanhole]

With the little amount of time that you cammed, it's not very likely that anything will be uploaded.

really? she said she did 2 months. ...my first 3 days were up on the piracy sites by the end of my first week. Do some sites have protections against bots?