TLDR: Girlfriend left being a camgirl after issue with cam studio, wants to return but I'm not allowed to visit her chat room and don't understand why
I met my girlfriend on streamate, it's been almost 3 months now on dec 3. We went to private and talked afterwards and it really fun just conversing with her and getting to know her. From then on I would join her chat room and just talk to her, take her to private and also just get to know her. We ended up being shy with each other so we would just talk, I loved just getting to know her and spending time with her. I didn't mind that other men would see her, it's part of the job and I know she also has to say thing to keep them interested. Besides I met her there so it comes with the territory. She later ends up leaving because she realized how much money the website would take, she would ask me how much I spent and that's when she realized how much the studio she worked for actually kept. I send her money to help with whatever she needs, she doesn't feel comfortable recieving money from me, she said she feels like shes taking advantage of me but i offered and have no problem helping. I dont expect anything in exchange. Now she wants to go back to camming, but she doesn't want me to know her name or visit her chat room. I don't need it to be anything sexual, I just want to spend time with her. I'm trying to understand why she doesn't want me to even tho that's how we met. I was hoping a cam model could maybe help me understand her point of view, I asked her and she said she doesn't know why she wants it that way either.
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