"I'll never be on camera with another girl because I think sex is special."
I'm sure you've heard this from me before. Only once did I try to explain the circumstances otherwise, and I was all bashful about it and didn't do a good job of that. Honest right now I'm about to do no better at explaining it. But I'm going to try because I feel like I should. Plus it'd be easier to do publicly than a bunch of times on cam.
Um... well a semi unknown fact is that I don't have much sexual experience with people. That's a bad way to put it. To be more blunt, I haven't had many sexual occurrences. They have, however, been very varied in their activities. So basically what I'm saying is sometimes I feel like a virgin that gets shy when it comes to actually doing stuff though just because of the lack of events.
And yes, I believe love-making between two people is a special moment where you explore, worship, and enjoy each other.
But honest... it's mostly with me being uncomfortable and shy and pushing the idea away, but um, fucking sounds like it will be a ton of fun too.
Frankie though makes me feel completely at ease with the idea and stuffs.
Mkay this is harder to explain that it should be.
So yeah.
Um. To be honest what I'd like is for my fans to be proud of me for being both comfortable and excited. I'd like for people to let us enjoy it without question. Um. I just want to loosen up a bit. Spread my wings? Have awesome fun with someone as great as Frankie?
She's smart. She's kind. She has a great attitude. She's respectable. She likes what I like and understand the kinky things. And I want to fuck her and show off how awesome it is.
And it's ok that I want to enjoy this bit of life that I haven't tried before because I'm a squeemish little girl who's shy about her non-BDSM limits and has mixed opinions about love-making and fucking.
So um. I really hope I don't let anyone down. I hope I don't make you respect me a bit less or upset anyone. Really, I hope that everyone can be cool and enjoy the show as much as we will. (I wouldn't honestly care about these thoughts in most people, but there are friends and fans that I do very much care about; both their opinion of me and our friendships.)
I just wanted to clear this up before we're in the moment and someone says "WTF Alex! You're supposed to be a luv kitten who won't want to be dirty!" >_>
Or anything like that.
I feel completely comfortable, excited, happy, lustful, and rather dirty in a good way about this. I don't mean it to seam otherwise, but I feel like I need to explain myself to you guys.
Anywho, I'm done rambling, apologizing, explaining myself, and all that.
Lastly this isn't a for-sure thing. I just messaged her while kinda thinking dirty ...
11:03:35 PM AlexLady2: When I say this I'm more hitting on you than trying to get something done (I don't think it'd actually happen, you know, like a fantasy not a serious comment.)
11:03:46 PM AlexLady2: but you're the one model I'd ever be willing to do a show with <_<
11:03:57 PM AlexLady2: because you get it, you're sexy, and you're still caring and sweet
11:04:00 PM AlexLady2: you are awesome
She was like, "We should!"
I exclaimed, "OMG Yes yes yes" and proceeded to explain that I was giddy, horny, and happy of the idea.
That's where it is at the moment. We'll chat more and plan.
Oh and I need to get permission from my partner... but um... I'm pretty sure I will. Yet with that I can't promise. So don't get too excited guys.
But if I can, I'd -love- to.
I'm sure you've heard this from me before. Only once did I try to explain the circumstances otherwise, and I was all bashful about it and didn't do a good job of that. Honest right now I'm about to do no better at explaining it. But I'm going to try because I feel like I should. Plus it'd be easier to do publicly than a bunch of times on cam.
Um... well a semi unknown fact is that I don't have much sexual experience with people. That's a bad way to put it. To be more blunt, I haven't had many sexual occurrences. They have, however, been very varied in their activities. So basically what I'm saying is sometimes I feel like a virgin that gets shy when it comes to actually doing stuff though just because of the lack of events.
And yes, I believe love-making between two people is a special moment where you explore, worship, and enjoy each other.
But honest... it's mostly with me being uncomfortable and shy and pushing the idea away, but um, fucking sounds like it will be a ton of fun too.
Frankie though makes me feel completely at ease with the idea and stuffs.
Mkay this is harder to explain that it should be.
So yeah.
Um. To be honest what I'd like is for my fans to be proud of me for being both comfortable and excited. I'd like for people to let us enjoy it without question. Um. I just want to loosen up a bit. Spread my wings? Have awesome fun with someone as great as Frankie?
She's smart. She's kind. She has a great attitude. She's respectable. She likes what I like and understand the kinky things. And I want to fuck her and show off how awesome it is.
And it's ok that I want to enjoy this bit of life that I haven't tried before because I'm a squeemish little girl who's shy about her non-BDSM limits and has mixed opinions about love-making and fucking.
So um. I really hope I don't let anyone down. I hope I don't make you respect me a bit less or upset anyone. Really, I hope that everyone can be cool and enjoy the show as much as we will. (I wouldn't honestly care about these thoughts in most people, but there are friends and fans that I do very much care about; both their opinion of me and our friendships.)
I just wanted to clear this up before we're in the moment and someone says "WTF Alex! You're supposed to be a luv kitten who won't want to be dirty!" >_>
Or anything like that.
I feel completely comfortable, excited, happy, lustful, and rather dirty in a good way about this. I don't mean it to seam otherwise, but I feel like I need to explain myself to you guys.
Anywho, I'm done rambling, apologizing, explaining myself, and all that.
Lastly this isn't a for-sure thing. I just messaged her while kinda thinking dirty ...
11:03:35 PM AlexLady2: When I say this I'm more hitting on you than trying to get something done (I don't think it'd actually happen, you know, like a fantasy not a serious comment.)
11:03:46 PM AlexLady2: but you're the one model I'd ever be willing to do a show with <_<
11:03:57 PM AlexLady2: because you get it, you're sexy, and you're still caring and sweet
11:04:00 PM AlexLady2: you are awesome
She was like, "We should!"
I exclaimed, "OMG Yes yes yes" and proceeded to explain that I was giddy, horny, and happy of the idea.
That's where it is at the moment. We'll chat more and plan.
Oh and I need to get permission from my partner... but um... I'm pretty sure I will. Yet with that I can't promise. So don't get too excited guys.
But if I can, I'd -love- to.
:dance: :hello1:
