When I was little, I didn't know the difference between the word organ and Oregon. I pronounced them both the same, and thought both were just some place in the US. I kind of miss how it feels to think as a child. Such trivial things are THE END OF THE WORLD :scared-eek: but all the real-world problems are not even known. I sit here watching my dog happily chewing on his own toenails and wonder if it's similar for them. Such simple lives.
The last 10 days have been some of the most painful, interesting, loved, quiet, slow days of my life. A lot of emotions one right after the next. I guess we don't realize what recovering from surgery is like until we've been through it. It was a lot harder than I had anticipated. I kept telling people I was scared of the pain I'd have after the surgery. A lot of them told me I'd be fine within a few days, others said yes it will hurt but not too bad, meds will help, etc. Maybe it would have been easier had I been able to just dope myself up on Vicodin and sleep for the first 4 days straight. I learned a lot about how my body works and reacts to things. Apparently I am very sensitive, and I think I'm a slow healer. :sad-fever:
I felt the most loved and cared for by both my husband and my friends that I had in a long time. The support I received over the Internet was amazing. And I can't overstate how good of a care-taker Jawbs has been. He had to do a LOT for me. I was pretty helpless for the first 48 hours. I actually feel bad for him having to watch me cry and not being able to do anything to fix what was hurting me. And since I've been able to be a little more able to do things on my own, he still has to listen to me whine about the lingering aches and pains.
I've had a lot of time to just veg out and wander around the Internet. Played a lot of WoW and a bit of the console games I received in the last month. Watched movies and TV. It's been a calm, quiet life in that regard. I've watched models on MFC and miss being able to put in 4-5 hours at a time on cam. But I've had time to actually participate in other models' chat rooms and enjoy their company.
I thought that I'd be recovered enough by this week to get back to a more normal MFC routine. Obviously I'm still struggling a bit, and won't rush myself to get back on. My follow up appointment is on Wednesday and I'll find out if there's anything I can do to speed up my recovery. There's a chance sometime this week I will get on for a short time to hang out and maybe make a handful of tokens to get me through the month. My plan is to be closer to full speed by the beginning of December. Of course my luck has it so that Mother Nature will visit me the first weekend of the month, so... that might slow me down a bit! But ultimately, my Christmas wish is to finish December as high as I can in the top 20. I miss seeing my name up there, I'm not gonna lie. :toothy10:
I've gotta give a huge THANK YOU to all those who have tipped offline, as well as online when I made my very short appearance on cam last week. To think that I mean more to you than just a naked body on cam is so awesome. You keep my world going around. I won't name names, but you all know who you are. It means so much. I'm trying to think of simple ways to celebrate the Christmas season with you all on MFC. I want to have a good time, and make a tremendous come-back. So I will take the rest of this month easy and be ready to earn lots of tokens come December! Here's an advanced :text-thankyouyellow: and :romance-grouphug: to anyone who plans to help me achieve my goals next month. Whether you're able to tip, join me for sexy group shows, or just be silly with me in chat, I miss you and am looking forward to being a bigger part of your MFC lives asap!
The last 10 days have been some of the most painful, interesting, loved, quiet, slow days of my life. A lot of emotions one right after the next. I guess we don't realize what recovering from surgery is like until we've been through it. It was a lot harder than I had anticipated. I kept telling people I was scared of the pain I'd have after the surgery. A lot of them told me I'd be fine within a few days, others said yes it will hurt but not too bad, meds will help, etc. Maybe it would have been easier had I been able to just dope myself up on Vicodin and sleep for the first 4 days straight. I learned a lot about how my body works and reacts to things. Apparently I am very sensitive, and I think I'm a slow healer. :sad-fever:
I felt the most loved and cared for by both my husband and my friends that I had in a long time. The support I received over the Internet was amazing. And I can't overstate how good of a care-taker Jawbs has been. He had to do a LOT for me. I was pretty helpless for the first 48 hours. I actually feel bad for him having to watch me cry and not being able to do anything to fix what was hurting me. And since I've been able to be a little more able to do things on my own, he still has to listen to me whine about the lingering aches and pains.
I've had a lot of time to just veg out and wander around the Internet. Played a lot of WoW and a bit of the console games I received in the last month. Watched movies and TV. It's been a calm, quiet life in that regard. I've watched models on MFC and miss being able to put in 4-5 hours at a time on cam. But I've had time to actually participate in other models' chat rooms and enjoy their company.
I thought that I'd be recovered enough by this week to get back to a more normal MFC routine. Obviously I'm still struggling a bit, and won't rush myself to get back on. My follow up appointment is on Wednesday and I'll find out if there's anything I can do to speed up my recovery. There's a chance sometime this week I will get on for a short time to hang out and maybe make a handful of tokens to get me through the month. My plan is to be closer to full speed by the beginning of December. Of course my luck has it so that Mother Nature will visit me the first weekend of the month, so... that might slow me down a bit! But ultimately, my Christmas wish is to finish December as high as I can in the top 20. I miss seeing my name up there, I'm not gonna lie. :toothy10:
I've gotta give a huge THANK YOU to all those who have tipped offline, as well as online when I made my very short appearance on cam last week. To think that I mean more to you than just a naked body on cam is so awesome. You keep my world going around. I won't name names, but you all know who you are. It means so much. I'm trying to think of simple ways to celebrate the Christmas season with you all on MFC. I want to have a good time, and make a tremendous come-back. So I will take the rest of this month easy and be ready to earn lots of tokens come December! Here's an advanced :text-thankyouyellow: and :romance-grouphug: to anyone who plans to help me achieve my goals next month. Whether you're able to tip, join me for sexy group shows, or just be silly with me in chat, I miss you and am looking forward to being a bigger part of your MFC lives asap!
