So now that the month is more than halfway finished I wanted to give an update on my feelings on Mega May...
In my original post, I mentioned that I was shooting for top 5. Ultimately I had no idea how things would go, and even when people told me over and over that I could attain #1, I didn't get ahead of myself. It really isn't like me to be that overly optimistic.
So now we are at day 17 and I've consistently been #2 or #3 and bounced into the first place spot for hours at a time. I feel like it may be within reach. Since I don't believe I'll ever be in this position again, as it's taking it's toll on me in various ways, I am just going to go ahead and go "balls to the wall" and say let's do it! It really may be my only shot at it, ever, so if I didn't try my hardest, I'd be disappointed in myself.
I am explaining my intentions to all of you here and now so you understand where I'm coming from. I know it's harder for people on the other side of the computer screen to really know what it's like to be in my position, so I feel I'm a bit misunderstood at the moment. Some of my actions and behaviors lately may have been taken in the wrong way, but ultimately I am still the same Amber you have come to know, I am just pushing for a goal right now.
So honestly what I need right now is just the support from those of you who I consider my internet friends. What do I mean by support? I don't mean support by spending tokens. I mean not assuming that since some of my actions are different this month that I am changing as a person. It means having some faith in me. It means trying to help me stay positive even in the face of possible disappointment. We're almost there, we're in the home stretch! I know we can make it and possibly be victorious if we stick together.
In the next two weeks I will be trying to put in as many hours as I can without going too crazy. I also have fun things planned for this coming weekend since I won't be able to do my usual group and private stuff. I am looking forward to having some fun with all of you, so let's enjoy!
In my original post, I mentioned that I was shooting for top 5. Ultimately I had no idea how things would go, and even when people told me over and over that I could attain #1, I didn't get ahead of myself. It really isn't like me to be that overly optimistic.
So now we are at day 17 and I've consistently been #2 or #3 and bounced into the first place spot for hours at a time. I feel like it may be within reach. Since I don't believe I'll ever be in this position again, as it's taking it's toll on me in various ways, I am just going to go ahead and go "balls to the wall" and say let's do it! It really may be my only shot at it, ever, so if I didn't try my hardest, I'd be disappointed in myself.
I am explaining my intentions to all of you here and now so you understand where I'm coming from. I know it's harder for people on the other side of the computer screen to really know what it's like to be in my position, so I feel I'm a bit misunderstood at the moment. Some of my actions and behaviors lately may have been taken in the wrong way, but ultimately I am still the same Amber you have come to know, I am just pushing for a goal right now.
So honestly what I need right now is just the support from those of you who I consider my internet friends. What do I mean by support? I don't mean support by spending tokens. I mean not assuming that since some of my actions are different this month that I am changing as a person. It means having some faith in me. It means trying to help me stay positive even in the face of possible disappointment. We're almost there, we're in the home stretch! I know we can make it and possibly be victorious if we stick together.
In the next two weeks I will be trying to put in as many hours as I can without going too crazy. I also have fun things planned for this coming weekend since I won't be able to do my usual group and private stuff. I am looking forward to having some fun with all of you, so let's enjoy!
