So, two years I started camming, and I got a super lucky break. Working very irregularly, over not even 2 months, I made about $3,000. Then, I went off to college and couldn't cam anymore. I also went through all this personal stuff and so just didn't really feel comfortable with it anymore.
Now, I'm much happier with where I'm at, and actually have the space, hardware, and general necessities. Last night was my first night back, and it was just so damned discouraging. Only two people talked the entire time I was on, the same two people were the only ones to tip, and I just kept feeling like I was fucking up somehow by doing what I did before. I was in a super sexy outfit, I was singing along to my music, my wifi was good, I was wriggling around all sexy like. And when I did pretty much all that before, 2 years ago, things worked out super well.
I do realize that there are a million reasons why I didn't make as much money as I wanted: it was early in the evening (10 pm my time), my regulars from before haven't all come back yet, just the luck of it...The list goes on and on. I know it's not necessarily anything I did, but damn, that was rough. Sitting there, with the room dead silent, and I was pretty much naked at that point, I got so close to tears that I just had to get off early. I went and cuddled with my partner, and then had a bowl of ice cream. I feel a lot better today, and I do plan on going back tonight, but agh. That could've gone a lot better.
There. I feel a lot better with that off my chest.
Now, I'm much happier with where I'm at, and actually have the space, hardware, and general necessities. Last night was my first night back, and it was just so damned discouraging. Only two people talked the entire time I was on, the same two people were the only ones to tip, and I just kept feeling like I was fucking up somehow by doing what I did before. I was in a super sexy outfit, I was singing along to my music, my wifi was good, I was wriggling around all sexy like. And when I did pretty much all that before, 2 years ago, things worked out super well.
I do realize that there are a million reasons why I didn't make as much money as I wanted: it was early in the evening (10 pm my time), my regulars from before haven't all come back yet, just the luck of it...The list goes on and on. I know it's not necessarily anything I did, but damn, that was rough. Sitting there, with the room dead silent, and I was pretty much naked at that point, I got so close to tears that I just had to get off early. I went and cuddled with my partner, and then had a bowl of ice cream. I feel a lot better today, and I do plan on going back tonight, but agh. That could've gone a lot better.
There. I feel a lot better with that off my chest.