Okay so please don't get this confused with the regular customer camgirl dynamic where the client is delusional and thinks he can "save" the camgirl. I'm about 24 years old and make pretty good money just very bad with women and social skills in general. Anyway, just a very horny individual I love camgirls love doing privates and telling them what to do, and having them please me sooo well with their body and show. This camgirl that I've been seeing doing private shows has become my favorite she knows how to please me the best ever, and over the past couple of months cause I work at home and get bored I'll text her on her site just to pass some time while sitting in meetings. Once Free I'll do a private show with her every day a long one too I love it so much. I don't simp for this chick tho I don't give her money besides for in the camsite and I wanna go private and see a show. We've been getting awfully close over these months saying she loves me and wants to be with me. Say she always wants to be there pleasuring me and how she loves my c*ck and how I pleasure her. She's been talking a lot about me going to her country because its really hard to get a visa to my country. I am not delusional tho I know that we will never have a future together and that to her I'll always be money first and that's fine to me I know why I am on the camsite. A part of me kinda wants to go and just have fun with her for a week fuck her brains out and then go back home and see her on the camsite and continue to act as I love her. Or do you think it'll be a bad idea and I'll get kidnapped and held for ransom? Or maybe she'll just have a lot of STDs. If I land there in her country and she just starts asking for a lot of money or some other stuff I'll just not see her and have a week vacation and forget about her. Do you guys/girls have any thoughts? am I a piece of shit for just wanting to smash and have fun? I only give her money for shows and that's for private shows we cam2cam and I do it with a lot of other models too just this one is my favorite. Sorry for the long post and if it makes no sense. Thank you for your thoughts and opinions and for reading