After posting this i have been bombarded with some awful anon messages; “do you seriously look like a 60 year old woman”, “you’re really one ugly motherf*cker under all that makeup”, “i know you’re not naturally pretty but stop trying so hard” are some highlights.
Congratulations, you have successfully made the observation I am not as attractive without makeup while pulling an awful face and freshly rolled out of bed. Well done. Gold star for the simple mind who can follow the rules of spot the difference. I guess i need to clarify why i posted this in the first place, because the underlying message wasn’t strong enough for some.
I posted this, so girls especially, can laugh at me. Furthermore a reflection of themselves. Its healthy to laugh at yourself and be modest about your looks. To stop being so hard on yourself and others on purely skin deep observations. Because this is NOT important in life. ‘Natural beauty’ has hardly anything to do with physical features, but more a beautiful soul shining out from within. Being a good friend, family member, lover, worker, a human being.
I’m not naturally stunning by the general publics ridiculous standards but I have learnt not to beat myself up about it because thats not fair on yourself or anyone else. After ten years of being sick I finally realised it got me absolutely no where. Save that energy you would use on self hate for more fulfilling moments like love, honesty, hard work and happiness.
My point being, you’ll never find true happiness through beauty in a physical matter alone. Except those small precious moments where you put on a fresh face of makeup, do your hair, find a cute outfit and catch yourself in the mirror for a second and feel a little better. The ‘I can’t wait to wear my new lipstick/skirt tomorrow’ feeling and so on. Puts a lil skip in your step. We make these transformations for ourselves.
Other than that, really, I thought I looked pretty damn funny with my pose and awesome chins but I had to go all deep on you to make you think about the awful things you said to me. Cheers mate