Day in day out motivation

[pg240]

How difficult is it to keep to a schedule as a self-employed business person probably working from home? I have friends who work from home and often complain about all the distractions, sometimes just not being motivated to work, and sometimes just plain slacking off. I know if you don't work you don't earn, so that should be motivation enough. But are there days you just really have to drag your ass to that cam like many of us have to drag our asses out the door to go to work? I suspect it's awesome having the flexibility to set your own schedule and being free to do things as they pop up, but being a bit on the lazy side myself I just wonder if the temptation is too great some days to play rather than work. I suppose many of you cam in addition to other jobs or school, and I'm really just in awe at how hard some of you work and how good you are at what you do.

 

[AmberCutie]

How difficult is it to keep to a schedule as a self-employed business person probably working from home? I have friends who work from home and often complain about all the distractions, sometimes just not being motivated to work, and sometimes just plain slacking off. I know if you don't work you don't earn, so that should be motivation enough. But are there days you just really have to drag your ass to that cam like many of us have to drag our asses out the door to go to work? I suspect it's awesome having the flexibility to set your own schedule and being free to do things as they pop up, but being a bit on the lazy side myself I just wonder if the temptation is too great some days to play rather than work. I suppose many of you cam in addition to other jobs or school, and I'm really just in awe at how hard some of you work and how good you are at what you do.

There are some days that really are very hard to motivate myself to switch myself "on" for cam time. Being on cam is, many days, more of a mental effort than a physical one. At past jobs, when I was in a mood and didn't want to go in, I knew even if I did, I could sorta tune-out and just do my work and clock in/clock out. Camming requires you to be so much more "present" than many normal jobs.

I was just sort of explaining my thoughts on this to my regs in my cam room last night. When I am doing well, and hitting goals, and things are just on a natural flow, I look forward to getting on cam and sharing my happiness with everyone. When I am on a slow kick, not hitting goals, and having consistently slow cam sessions, it's hard to talk myself into getting on cam. Which creates a downward spiral because, as you said, if you're not working you're not earning, which lends to more disappointment and less motivation.

Strange, I know. But I know I'm not alone on this, as I even just yesterday had this conversation with another model who has the same mindset.

 

[Brad]

How difficult is it to keep to a schedule as a self-employed business person probably working from home? I have friends who work from home and often complain about all the distractions, sometimes just not being motivated to work, and sometimes just plain slacking off. I know if you don't work you don't earn, so that should be motivation enough. But are there days you just really have to drag your ass to that cam like many of us have to drag our asses out the door to go to work? I suspect it's awesome having the flexibility to set your own schedule and being free to do things as they pop up, but being a bit on the lazy side myself I just wonder if the temptation is too great some days to play rather than work. I suppose many of you cam in addition to other jobs or school, and I'm really just in awe at how hard some of you work and how good you are at what you do.

There are some days that really are very hard to motivate myself to switch myself "on" for cam time. Being on cam is, many days, more of a mental effort than a physical one. At past jobs, when I was in a mood and didn't want to go in, I knew even if I did, I could sorta tune-out and just do my work and clock in/clock out. Camming requires you to be so much more "present" than many normal jobs.

I was just sort of explaining my thoughts on this to my regs in my cam room last night. When I am doing well, and hitting goals, and things are just on a natural flow, I look forward to getting on cam and sharing my happiness with everyone. When I am on a slow kick, not hitting goals, and having consistently slow cam sessions, it's hard to talk myself into getting on cam. Which creates a downward spiral because, as you said, if you're not working you're not earning, which lends to more disappointment and less motivation.

Strange, I know. But I know I'm not alone on this, as I even just yesterday had this conversation with another model who has the same mindset.

I think that makes perfect sense Amber, or at least it does to me. I am often impressed with how you models can keep a smile on your face all the time. It can't be easy and it has to require some restraint at times.
:handgestures-salute:

 

[southsamurai]

well not a model here, so it isnt direct, but i found it easier back when i was working to get up and get moving into the job. nowadays i write little pieces and ad copy for spare change when i can get a contract to do so, and im still working on my novels. without the deadline of having to be somewhere at a set time it takes willpower to stick to a schedule at all. (mind you with the health problems it isnt much of a schedule to begin with).

even when i have a good science piece in my lap that ill be getting paid useful money for (only about twice a year really, science writing is not a boom industry lol) i sleep through my alarms and drag butt getting onto the computer to work since my deadlines tend to be weeks or months away.

maybe if i was a regular writer for one of the companies it would be easier to stick to a schedule. then i would have the motivation of finishing a piece so i can move to the next one. of course if i was a regular writer i would get fired lol ( for some reason telling an editor "jeez sir, im sorry i didnt meet my daily quota since i was in an opiate haze and laid up in bed" just doesnt cut it)

 

[JoleneBrody]

I just want to echo Amber. She hit the nail pretty well.
I'm almost never tempted to play instead of work if things have been going well because meeting goals and feeling successful in our business is such a confidence boost, it can almost be like a drug! It just feels soooooo good.

On the flip side, having slow sessions/not meeting goals, especially if it's a streak can be so incredible painful emotionally. We are selling ourselves. I've had many sales jobs where I had quotas to meet plus hourly wage. If I didn't meet my sales quota for a day, it didn't hurt my feelings. I just shrugged and went home, where I would almost immediately forget about it.
Having slow days on cam, especially when you are offering special discounts or deals you worked really hard on hurts my feelings pretty bad and it's not uncommon for us to log off and cry. Honestly, that's just the truth. Our bodies and personalities were declined by a room of 100+ men. Ouch.
Sucking up the courage to get back on cam is hard when the chances of not feeling hurt are seeming to get smaller and smaller.
I compare the feeling to getting rejected when you ask someone out, it's that same heartache. Only sometimes it happens multiple times a day. eventually, you are not gonna feel super awesome about asking another person to the prom.

That was really in depth and personal and now I'm gonna go hide!

 

[LilyMarie]

As a somewhat successful camgirl, university student AND naturally lazy person, my laziness really gets the best of me every now and then, and it's especially biting me in the ass this week.

I am lazy. It's a problem.
There are people who bought me toys for Christmas and they still haven't gotten the videos I promised I'd make them with those toys. I'm very, very lucky that those members are very understanding and that they know they will get the videos eventually. Then there are also members who have won and bought custom videos.
Now, because I am so lazy, I just keep putting these things off. Then in April, school started again and I have a very full schedule. I usually come home from school in the afternoon, and I can't make videos in the evenings or on the weekends because my family's home. I can't make them at night because the lighting is bad.
There are no classes this week, it's a holiday week. We're supposed to study and read a LOT for school, but I can't do it all, I have to make the videos I should have made months ago.
So this week I have 6 videos to make. I've made 3 and I'm hoping to be able to make 2 more tomorrow, AND I have to edit 2 already shot girl/girl videos, and those have to turn out absolutely impeccable.

If I worked for some company (while going to school) and there was a project with a deadline, I'd probably be screwed. They might fire me. I can be so grateful I have this job, where the worst thing that can happen is people saying "I'm not going to visit or tip you anymore, it's taken so long for you to make this video."
Then again if I did work for a company and had a boss, I probably wouldn't laze around like I do because there would be consequences.

So while I love the freedom that camming gives me, sometimes I wish I had a boss who would kick my ass so I'd get something done by a certain deadline.

By the way, I find that I only have this lack of motivation when it comes to making content on time. I don't really have days where I'm planning to get on cam but then I don't. That could be because I only cam 2-4 nights as it is.
But what I'm also really good at is being late on cam. When I tweet I'll be online in 30 minutes, you can usually put 20-40 minutes on top of that. :? No one is going to yell at me, you know? So why not take those extra 10 minutes to do straighten my hair again or put on an entirely different outfit. I need to get rid of these thoughts and start being on time, even if it's just to make myself feel more professional.
When there are no consequences for tardiness or for not getting things done by a certain day, people start slacking. I guess it depends on your personality type to which degree that happens to you.

 

[pg240]

Responses from AmberCutie and JoleneBrody really help put in perspective what actually goes on for you folks on the other side of the cam. Actually quite moving and enlightening. And I thank you more than I can adequately express for the insights.

 

[PlayboyMegan]

When I work consistently, it helps me stay motivated.
When I take a few days off, I tend to spiral down a dark path of unmotivation.
Because our work is so up and down, it's extremely hard to stay motivated. The good days it's easy. The bad days, it's almost impossible. Why would anyone want to go to work if they weren't getting paid? Even if you did have a boss.

 

[Evvie]

Here is what I think:

At the vast majority of jobs people can work at, they clock on and tune out. Every single job I have had was rote in some manner; I knew the schedule, I knew what to do, I would sign on and mindlessly do work for 8 or 12 hours at a time, and I could do it for days on end. Every other thing I have done in life is formulaic in some aspect - cooking, sewing, photoshoping, editing videos, riding horses - you learn the techniques, then your brain can take a back seat while your body does the work for you.

When I cam, if I want to make any money, I MUST be "on" 100% of the time. There is no chilling out and doing things by rote. There is no mental or emotional relaxation. It requires the totality of my attention for hours at a time, and that's just goddamn exhausting. That's why it's so hurtful when our boyfriends or husbands say, "wow, you only worked 3 hours today? I'm disappointed in you." They do not understand that 3 hours on cam is as exhausting as 8 hours at other jobs. Not to mention, at other jobs, you are generally not constantly judged and attacked based on your personality and appearance. People exist to make us hurt, and I've never met a camgirl who is not occasionally worn down by those people.

The OP is correct. Being able to set our own schedules and work when we want is very convenient, but it's also a pain in the ass. It is sometimes liberating to know you can work when you want, and sometimes terrifying to start a new pay period and be afraid that you can't make yourself work enough to pay the bills. It is a relief to be able to log off when you can't handle it, and a huge source of anxiety to log off too early too many times and not be able to pay the rent. Like today: I've barely been pulling in minimum wage for the past 3 hours, and I've been working way harder than I have at any shitty minimum wage job I've ever had. Am I motivated to keep going? Hell no! And now I either have to work more and feel like shit, or quit early and feel like shit for giving up.

 

[pg240]

One thing LilyMarie neglected to mention about her extremely busy schedule is that she has to cam practically in the middle of the night to reach an audience in the U.S. And yet she calls herself lazy! I don't know how she does it, and I don't know when she gets any sleep! Just another example of the truly remarkable people in this industry.

As for PlayboyMegan, she's the reason I asked this question. Noticed she was on cam again today, which got me to thinking how she seems to keep to a pretty regular schedule, which got me to wondering just how in the hell she does it day in and day out -- as most of you do. So I was curious, and I asked. And this community comes through yet again with great responses. Love it here.

 

[pg240]

The OP is correct. Being able to set our own schedules and work when we want is very convenient, but it's also a pain in the ass. It is sometimes liberating to know you can work when you want, and sometimes terrifying to start a new pay period and be afraid that you can't make yourself work enough to pay the bills. It is a relief to be able to log off when you can't handle it, and a huge source of anxiety to log off too early too many times and not be able to pay the rent. Like today: I've barely been pulling in minimum wage for the past 3 hours, and I've been working way harder than I have at any shitty minimum wage job I've ever had. Am I motivated to keep going? Hell no! And now I either have to work more and feel like shit, or quit early and feel like shit for giving up.

This is what would scare the hell out of me, and I can literally feel the anguish in these words. To have your near-term fate in the hands of a bunch of judgmental men so damn tight-fisted with a few tokens would be downright gut-wrenching. And this is more evidence of why women are really stronger than men.

 

[LacieLaPlante]

Aside from what everyone else said, because it's perfectly spot on -

I admit to being prone to depression, life gets me down sometimes. On those days it is nearly impossible to get myself on cam. I know that I will be bitchy in response to simple questions that have been asked over and over, be thinking about other things, and be prone to trolls. But sometimes this lasts a week, I know other have felt the same thing. In other jobs, I would be able to go to work and forget myself for a few hours. I could focus on customers or putting clothes back where they were supposed to go.

On cam, I am confronted with people who want me to be myself. I need to talk about my life, my day, need to wrack my brain for interesting conversation to keep people around me. I can't go into a zombie mode, I need to be mentally there. What can you do on a day when you feel mentally unprepared for ANYTHING, let alone subjecting yourself to scrutiny? A good token day and great conversation can really revitalize me, but the mere possibility of a bad day is enough to keep me offline on these days.

 

[PlayboyMegan]

One thing LilyMarie neglected to mention about her extremely busy schedule is that she has to cam practically in the middle of the night to reach an audience in the U.S. And yet she calls herself lazy! I don't know how she does it, and I don't know when she gets any sleep! Just another example of the truly remarkable people in this industry.

As for PlayboyMegan, she's the reason I asked this question. Noticed she was on cam again today, which got me to thinking how she seems to keep to a pretty regular schedule, which got me to wondering just how in the hell she does it day in and day out -- as most of you do. So I was curious, and I asked. And this community comes through yet again with great responses. Love it here.

You should have said "hi" butthead!!
I was on cam again today, until no one would tip/talk. Now I'm sitting here procrastinating, which proves my point. The better you do, the more motivated you are. That does suck, sometimes, since we have little control over it.

They are cycles:
Motivated-On a lot-Get regulars-Get tokens-Feel good-Repeat
Unmotivated-Cam inconsistently-Lose regulars-No tokens-Repeat

 

[PlayboyMegan]

The OP is correct. Being able to set our own schedules and work when we want is very convenient, but it's also a pain in the ass. It is sometimes liberating to know you can work when you want, and sometimes terrifying to start a new pay period and be afraid that you can't make yourself work enough to pay the bills. It is a relief to be able to log off when you can't handle it, and a huge source of anxiety to log off too early too many times and not be able to pay the rent. Like today: I've barely been pulling in minimum wage for the past 3 hours, and I've been working way harder than I have at any shitty minimum wage job I've ever had. Am I motivated to keep going? Hell no! And now I either have to work more and feel like shit, or quit early and feel like shit for giving up.

This is what would scare the hell out of me, and I can literally feel the anguish in these words. To have your near-term fate in the hands of a bunch of judgmental men so damn tight-fisted with a few tokens would be downright gut-wrenching. And this is more evidence of why women are really stronger than men.

Your thoughtful questions and pro-women answers. That's it. We're getting married!

 

[mynameisbob84]

I'd be no good as a cam girl. For many reasons. But as far as this thread goes, if I knew I didn't have to log on, I wouldn't. If I had a goal for the month, and I made that goal three weeks in, you wouldn't see me in that fourth week. If I had x amount of a goal left with a week to go before the end of the pay period and I knew I could make that in a day, I wouldn't log on before the last day of the pay period. There's just no way I'd be able to commit to a schedule. Not if I knew I could take days at a time off and still make enough money for rent and bills and food and whatever. The only times I'd log on would be when I knew I had to if I wanted to make enough money to get through the month.

That said, I'd take a job that allowed me to pick and choose my own hours over a Monday to Friday, 9 to 5 job, every time.

 

[Brad]

I am here at the shop 7 days a week and often 12+ hours a day. Being your own boss isn't always so great. If a model doesn't get any tips she doesn't make any money. If I don't sell or service a product then I also don't make any money. Different jobs but the outcome is the same. There is nobody to fall back on and often that is scary as hell, or at least to me it is.
:shock:

 

[AmberCutie]

I'd be no good as a cam girl. For many reasons. But as far as this thread goes, if I knew I didn't have to log on, I wouldn't. If I had a goal for the month, and I made that goal three weeks in, you wouldn't see me in that fourth week.

Do that consistently, see how fast your regulars (who help you make that goal fast) catch on and realize that tipping you more/faster = them not seeing you for a couple weeks.... then you won't make your goal that fast anymore. It's such a mindfuck! In the end, our regulars want to spend time with us online, so when we disappear because we make a goal quickly, it's actually going to feel like a punishment for them.

Oh, the plethora of these things we have to take into consideration.

 

[LilyMarie]

One thing LilyMarie neglected to mention about her extremely busy schedule is that she has to cam practically in the middle of the night to reach an audience in the U.S. And yet she calls herself lazy! I don't know how she does it, and I don't know when she gets any sleep! Just another example of the truly remarkable people in this industry. (...)

That's very sweet of you, but I actually rarely get on cam on nights before a school day.
I have classes Mon-Thu, so I mostly cam Thursday, Friday, and Saturday nights. Otherwise I'm just an exhausted mess at school in the morning.
The last 2 semesters, I set my classes so that I'd only have to be at school around noon, so I could cam in the mornings or late at night. That wasn't possible this semester. And as much as I wish it wasn't the case - school will always be more important than camming.

 

[ComicOzzie]

How difficult is it to keep to a schedule as a self-employed business person probably working from home? I have friends who work from home and often complain about all the distractions, sometimes just not being motivated to work, and sometimes just plain slacking off. I know if you don't work you don't earn, so that should be motivation enough. But are there days you just really have to drag your ass to that cam like many of us have to drag our asses out the door to go to work? I suspect it's awesome having the flexibility to set your own schedule and being free to do things as they pop up, but being a bit on the lazy side myself I just wonder if the temptation is too great some days to play rather than work. I suppose many of you cam in addition to other jobs or school, and I'm really just in awe at how hard some of you work and how good you are at what you do.

There are some days that really are very hard to motivate myself to switch myself "on" for cam time. Being on cam is, many days, more of a mental effort than a physical one. At past jobs, when I was in a mood and didn't want to go in, I knew even if I did, I could sorta tune-out and just do my work and clock in/clock out. Camming requires you to be so much more "present" than many normal jobs.

I was just sort of explaining my thoughts on this to my regs in my cam room last night. When I am doing well, and hitting goals, and things are just on a natural flow, I look forward to getting on cam and sharing my happiness with everyone. When I am on a slow kick, not hitting goals, and having consistently slow cam sessions, it's hard to talk myself into getting on cam. Which creates a downward spiral because, as you said, if you're not working you're not earning, which lends to more disappointment and less motivation.

Strange, I know. But I know I'm not alone on this, as I even just yesterday had this conversation with another model who has the same mindset.

Its an inexact comparison, but this is exactly how I felt when I played online poker regularly. When I was winning regularly, I couldn't wait to play. When I started losing or breaking even, I dreaded coming online and playing.

 

[dilligaf0]

I know motivation is difficult sometimes. Just as a voice from the other side, please take into account that some things are out of everyone's control. Slow tip days are demoralizinng, but my opinion is (and this is true for me now) there are times when regulars are unable to tip as much as normal because of financial reasons beyond our control. Unexpected expenses, slow work hours or layoffs (or worse) can create havoc with us too. I am NOT making excuses for cheap bastards that will not tip no matter what, but for those of us that have no choice it is depressing for us too. I enjoy the company of the regulars I've come to know and Amber so I visit her when she's on. I do get depressed when it's a slow night and I cannot help her make her goals. I just wanted to say it's difficult for some of your regulars too.

 

[SinginRebel]

And what about the days where folks just aren't talking to you. I just don't know what to do on those days and can't just sit in my room trying to be sexy and not getting any response. And if this happened for a couple of days in a row, then no, I'm not motivated to get back on cam. I want to chat and have fun, but if no one is gonna talk to me then what's the point in being there?

 

[emptiedglass]

I know motivation is difficult sometimes. Just as a voice from the other side, please take into account that some things are out of everyone's control. Slow tip days are demoralizinng, but my opinion is (and this is true for me now) there are times when regulars are unable to tip as much as normal because of financial reasons beyond our control. Unexpected expenses, slow work hours or layoffs (or worse) can create havoc with us too. I am NOT making excuses for cheap bastards that will not tip no matter what, but for those of us that have no choice it is depressing for us too. I enjoy the company of the regulars I've come to know and Amber so I visit her when she's on. I do get depressed when it's a slow night and I cannot help her make her goals. I just wanted to say it's difficult for some of your regulars too.

This is pretty much what I was just about to say, having been a recent victim of corporate downsizing. I'll occasionally sign in and chat with some of my favourite models for a few minutes, but I won't be buying much in the way of tokens until I have a reliable income again.
Sure, I contribute to conversation as much as I can when I'm on, but, ultimately, that won't clear a countdown or help anyone hit their goals.

 

[emptiedglass]

And what about the days where folks just aren't talking to you. I just don't know what to do on those days and can't just sit in my room trying to be sexy and not getting any response. And if this happened for a couple of days in a row, then no, I'm not motivated to get back on cam. I want to chat and have fun, but if no one is gonna talk to me then what's the point in being there?

I guess it's all about finding the right balance. I could talk all day, but, as I just stated in my previous post, tipping has become an issue. I wouldn't feel right if my only contribution to a room is conversation. Freeloaders don't pay anyone's bills. :lol:

 

[mynameisbob84]

I'd be no good as a cam girl. For many reasons. But as far as this thread goes, if I knew I didn't have to log on, I wouldn't. If I had a goal for the month, and I made that goal three weeks in, you wouldn't see me in that fourth week.

Do that consistently, see how fast your regulars (who help you make that goal fast) catch on and realize that tipping you more/faster = them not seeing you for a couple weeks.... then you won't make your goal that fast anymore. It's such a mindfuck! In the end, our regulars want to spend time with us online, so when we disappear because we make a goal quickly, it's actually going to feel like a punishment for them.

Oh, the plethora of these things we have to take into consideration.

Hey, I only took this job on a hypothetical basis and I already have regulars to worry about?? How did that happen?

But yeah, there must a shit-tonne of things to take into account when camming that those on the outside looking in likely wouldn't ever consider. I'm surprised there's not more books on the subject, really.

 

[LilyPink]

Good topic- thank you pg240! It's nice to get your views too.

 

[Alana Cruise]

How difficult is it to keep to a schedule as a self-employed business person probably working from home? I have friends who work from home and often complain about all the distractions, sometimes just not being motivated to work, and sometimes just plain slacking off. I know if you don't work you don't earn, so that should be motivation enough. But are there days you just really have to drag your ass to that cam like many of us have to drag our asses out the door to go to work? I suspect it's awesome having the flexibility to set your own schedule and being free to do things as they pop up, but being a bit on the lazy side myself I just wonder if the temptation is too great some days to play rather than work. I suppose many of you cam in addition to other jobs or school, and I'm really just in awe at how hard some of you work and how good you are at what you do.

There are some days that really are very hard to motivate myself to switch myself "on" for cam time. Being on cam is, many days, more of a mental effort than a physical one. At past jobs, when I was in a mood and didn't want to go in, I knew even if I did, I could sorta tune-out and just do my work and clock in/clock out. Camming requires you to be so much more "present" than many normal jobs.

I was just sort of explaining my thoughts on this to my regs in my cam room last night. When I am doing well, and hitting goals, and things are just on a natural flow, I look forward to getting on cam and sharing my happiness with everyone. When I am on a slow kick, not hitting goals, and having consistently slow cam sessions, it's hard to talk myself into getting on cam. Which creates a downward spiral because, as you said, if you're not working you're not earning, which lends to more disappointment and less motivation.

Strange, I know. But I know I'm not alone on this, as I even just yesterday had this conversation with another model who has the same mindset.

Well said Amber!! It is hard to explain you're not being lazy but hard to entertain if you are not in the right spirits

 

[Alana Cruise]

I just wanted to add for me working during that time of the month and sometimes even the week before sucks balls. I often want to rip peoples heads off, am super tired, achy, and don't feel like cumming. Us girls have ways to mask this time but hard to mask the mood, fatigue, bloating, and all the other crap that comes with it lol

I still say this is a great job bc it can be a lot of fun and it is flexible but it does have its down sides.

 

[Meoff_69]

I know motivation is difficult sometimes. Just as a voice from the other side, please take into account that some things are out of everyone's control. Slow tip days are demoralizinng, but my opinion is (and this is true for me now) there are times when regulars are unable to tip as much as normal because of financial reasons beyond our control. Unexpected expenses, slow work hours or layoffs (or worse) can create havoc with us too. I am NOT making excuses for cheap bastards that will not tip no matter what, but for those of us that have no choice it is depressing for us too. I enjoy the company of the regulars I've come to know and Amber so I visit her when she's on. I do get depressed when it's a slow night and I cannot help her make her goals. I just wanted to say it's difficult for some of your regulars too.

THIS! This is pretty much everything I've wanted to say from my point of view, as well as being a regular to a few models! Thank you very much! Well said!

If I may add a couple of my own observations, as well?? In the last 6 months...I'd discovered a very disturbing, embarrassing, and flat out irresponsible trend that was developing with me. That being, because I felt (and continue to feel) horrible about seeing a model(s) that I consider a friend, not making her goals or struggling...I would literally spend myself into a stone's throw of the poor house! This, because I felt it would help a model somewhat, and to re-confirm to her that I, as one of her regulars, still appreciated all of her hard work. With that being said, I had to start telling myself that I was just that! I was one of her regulars. Sorry to sound cliche, but knocking out a model's countdown is a team effort. I've seen some long time regulars in a model's room, that I've never seen tip a single token. It gets aggravating as hell! But again, I don't know what's going on in that person's own life. It's none of my business and I have no right to judge! And I don't! But it's still annoying.

To clarify, I am NOT making excuses for my own past behaviour! I accept the consequences of my actions. Nobody held a gun to my head when I clicked the "submit" button for the tokens. And I sincerely hope this doesn't make any model to whom I'm a regular, feel guilty. If so, I apologize. Like dilligaf0 said, there are things that none of us can control. But in my case, I'm embarrassed for my very apparent lack of self control.

**Edit...to get back on topic** Ladies, if I may echo what many have already said here...many of us regulars, who truly "get it" and understand what the camming community is about...we understand that all of you work extremely hard to put on a sexy, fun, and entertaining show! We understand that just because we are friends with some of you, our "friendship alone" doesn't pay your bills. Each and every one of you is beautiful, creative, unique, and talented...in your own special way!

My apologies for getting of topic, earlier. I only wanted to point out that when the models, that have tipping regulars, struggle...we struggle too. For myself personally, (to the models that I'm a regular/friend) it's more on an emotional level because I've felt that I've let you down. Anywho...thanks to everyone for some great answers!

 

[BlueViolet]

I've almost been camming for two years exclusively and I rarely work more than two days a week and less than 3 hours per shift.

The only motivation I have to work is on rent week where I work probably 3 or 4 nights a week in order to make rent on the next pay check. I never set aside money throughout the month like I should. Sometimes I'll take two or three weeks off if I had a good week before.

I have no motivation to cam. I don't mind being on cam and I actually have fun when I'm on it, I just would much rather be playing video games or drawing or working on creative projects.

 

[AmberCutie]

I know motivation is difficult sometimes. Just as a voice from the other side, please take into account that some things are out of everyone's control. Slow tip days are demoralizinng, but my opinion is (and this is true for me now) there are times when regulars are unable to tip as much as normal because of financial reasons beyond our control. Unexpected expenses, slow work hours or layoffs (or worse) can create havoc with us too. I am NOT making excuses for cheap bastards that will not tip no matter what, but for those of us that have no choice it is depressing for us too. I enjoy the company of the regulars I've come to know and Amber so I visit her when she's on. I do get depressed when it's a slow night and I cannot help her make her goals. I just wanted to say it's difficult for some of your regulars too.

THIS! This is pretty much everything I've wanted to say from my point of view, as well as being a regular to a few models! Thank you very much! Well said!

If I may add a couple of my own observations, as well?? In the last 6 months...I'd discovered a very disturbing, embarrassing, and flat out irresponsible trend that was developing with me. That being, because I felt (and continue to feel) horrible about seeing a model(s) that I consider a friend, not making her goals or struggling...I would literally spend myself into a stone's throw of the poor house! This, because I felt it would help a model somewhat, and to re-confirm to her that I, as one of her regulars, still appreciated all of her hard work. With that being said, I had to start telling myself that I was just that! I was one of her regulars. Sorry to sound cliche, but knocking out a model's countdown is a team effort. I've seen some long time regulars in a model's room, that I've never seen tip a single token. It gets aggravating as hell! But again, I don't know what's going on in that person's own life. It's none of my business and I have no right to judge! And I don't! But it's still annoying.

To clarify, I am NOT making excuses for my own past behaviour! I accept the consequences of my actions. Nobody held a gun to my head when I clicked the "submit" button for the tokens. And I sincerely hope this doesn't make any model to whom I'm a regular, feel guilty. If so, I apologize. Like dilligaf0 said, there are things that none of us can control. But in my case, I'm embarrassed for my very apparent lack of self control.

**Edit...to get back on topic** Ladies, if I may echo what many have already said here...many of us regulars, who truly "get it" and understand what the camming community is about...we understand that all of you work extremely hard to put on a sexy, fun, and entertaining show! We understand that just because we are friends with some of you, our "friendship alone" doesn't pay your bills. Each and every one of you is beautiful, creative, unique, and talented...in your own special way!

My apologies for getting of topic, earlier. I only wanted to point out that when the models, that have tipping regulars, struggle...we struggle too. For myself personally, (to the models that I'm a regular/friend) it's more on an emotional level because I've felt that I've let you down. Anywho...thanks to everyone for some great answers!

Wonderful post!

I promise we want our counts to be a group effort, and I guarantee you that regardless of the immediate reaction after one person clears nearly a whole countdown, many of us feel very guilty soon after that one person was responsible for that show's/night's success. I always say that I try to keep my camscore high enough so that I am visible enough to get newcomers who share the "burden" of making my daily goals and take a little pressure off of my beloved regulars. Because I know that my biggest supporters can't always be the ones wiping my countdowns and hitting my goals... and I know my goals aren't likely to change (again, I actually recently adjusted them to realistically fit better with the slower times).

And I promise we know you are not some endless wallet. You are our friends and real people with real lives and real ups-n-downs. I guarantee that any of us models who have discussed our motivation issues when it's slow didn't for a second blame you (you being our supporters) but moreso the general ebb and flow of things.