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Hi ladies! I'm Amy, aka Kamleesi, die hard DaenerysTargaryen/Khaleesi/GameOfThrones Fan! (Cam..Kam-leesi, lol) Mother of 5 Dragon-Furry Cats; Yoda, Kooshka, Elmo, Kermit, & Marbles (If I had been aware of GOT when naming these guys, We definitely would have at least Drogon in the mix, lol, Marbles' middle name is Drogon, though, haha..And Kermit is Kermit-Rhaegal, and Yoda-Viserion. 
(my vet, as wonderful as they are, was more than slightly annoyed with their middle name additions, haha. I figure now Elmo and /kooshka need middle names of Dragons, so as 'researching' the old Dragons of Valeryia, lmao.
I'm a huge dork, but extremely loving, and really excited and hoping to make girl friends with other Cam Models on MFC and other sites!
I've had a really rough past couple of years..My motivation to get back into webcam modeling like many of us is the money - But, I am extremely lonely...often times will have my cam on while I'm watching TV to just feel like I'm not alone. (this is not a pity party by any means, I really just want to make some good friends with all of you beautiful, wonderful ladies out there.
I hope that the following isn't considered TMI, I am a very open person..I have always dreamt of writing a memoir, and am starting to work harder to see this through - but some of what I am sharing is quite personal...which I am sharing in hopes to both make friends here who maybe have been through similar ordeals, or maybe I could help, but really to just explain how I got here.
My brother, only sibling, best friend in the world - took his life 2 weeks after his 25th birthday, June 13th 2015. (if anyone is interested in seeing a video we made a bit prior to his death, alone with a link to his memorial, if you google 'Learn how to Speak Gibberish and it's Perks' - that is us
)
I've struggled with Anorexia since I was 14, brought on initially by a rape - I was finally in remission from age 25-29, had gained over 60 pounds, putting me at 150 - I am 5'3 - I never thought I would be ok with this...but I was healthy, I was happy, and I really was not worried about my weight! It was crazy! I had no idea how it happened, and wish I did...But after Jim shot himself, I went into a tailspin. I had finally found a career I loved, in insurance, I had gone to so many studies and schooling and passed all my licensing exams, (which I have kept up, to avoid retaking those things, lol!) But I was in the second year of my career, loving it, doing well - then he died. My world shattered. It is still shattered. For anyone who has lost a loved one, in any way, you know how either it is nearly impossible to eat, or for some the other way around - I couldn't eat anything, I didn't eat for weeks, I had to eat yogurt with almond pieces, anything easy to literally just swallow - but weight started coming off -and then...Ana was back...this was how I would cope...I stopped eating...and let it take me over again. This was how I could control his death...my feelings...everything. And that was the beginning of the end!
I lost 40 pounds in 1 month...this was September 2015...I was so malnourished and sick that even driving to work I am shocked that I did - I couldn't form a sentence talking to people...I literally shut myself in my office, and watched emails come in, that I couldn't figure out how to answer, how to speak, how to make sense of anything, I was too sick...I avoided all phone calls. I was a month behind...it was becoming too hard to hide. I finally told my boss I needed help...these people loved me, they always said they wanted me there forever, that I was their best account manager, so great with clients...but between my 3 weeks bereavement, being a month behind in everything, and now going to the hospital...they were trying o be supportive...but not happy. I didn't know how long hospitalization took - especially to try to fix over 16 years of anorexia...the. hospital is telling me 12-18 weeks...my boss was texting every 3 days asking when I was coming back!
It was November...my grandmother passed while I was there in the hospital...and it was so hard...I was so scared...mostly about gaining weight...and losing my job. So finally I was sick of it (and terrified of the weight) and I left, against medical advice. My grandma had just died, I just wanted to go home to my mom and then go back to work. Well...3 days before thanksgiving it was as well, I figured I would take thanksgiving off, and return Monday - I told my boss as this was all going down...(leaving AMA is no easy feat!) but I finally was packing my bags - and my boss called to tell me they had decided to fire me the week prior. Due to how much time I'd missed, as well as how behind I had gotten while I was so sick...and my own fault of not telling anyone I was so behind. It was my fault, no question.
Oddly, I called my mom bawling, and she had just broken her foot literally 5 minutes prior - her right foot, slipped on a piece of lettuce in the grocery store! So she needed my help. This was also our first holiday without my brother....she was going to help me financially while things were straightened out, and I would be taking her to various appointments, work, etc. I thought I could just stay on my eating plan! (yeah, right!)
Grief over losing my brother has literally put me into a 'freeze' mode - I keep getting sicker...in every way. My period is messed up now...and I want kids so badly....
So now, I am here, saving money specifically for my new deductible and out of pocket max, to go back to the eating disorder hospital. I have avoided this over a year...but I know, I will never be able to move forward or meet people if I can't go out on a dinner date...or meet for drinks, afraid of calories. I'm hoping with the counseling as well, I will be able to get into a better place with Jim's suicide.
So that, in addition to making extra 'me' money, for my hair, etc, is why I am here financially - but I am equally here in hopes to make more great friends, including female friends - I literally have 1 best friend...and then my ex bf, who is still a friend but not the same at all. I want to meet good people, good girls, ladies, I'm all about girl power and wonderful friendships and supporting one another.
I hope this wan't too much. I'd love to talk to anyone and everyone here - still learning how this site works on here (ambercutie) and I've been admiring so many AWESOME profiles you girls have on MFC, and would LOVE to learn how to make mine as well!!
I hope you are all doing great, and had an awesome weekend!
Please email me or write through here (not totally sure how this works again, lol) my email is vividlygeneric@aol.com - I have another I think set up for this site, but it has my personal name in it - any tips, tricks, etc with how to utilize this site and MFC with the cool profiles - and making friends - please please reach out!! I can't wait to make some great friends
I Wrote a lot more which I saved in my notes elsewhere, and I'm going to just start with this and add more later, just want to see if this is a group of women who might be interested in connecting in a way beyond just our camming, etc
Big Hugs!!! Xoxox
Love Always,
Amy
aka
Kamleesi
(my vet, as wonderful as they are, was more than slightly annoyed with their middle name additions, haha. I figure now Elmo and /kooshka need middle names of Dragons, so as 'researching' the old Dragons of Valeryia, lmao. I'm a huge dork, but extremely loving, and really excited and hoping to make girl friends with other Cam Models on MFC and other sites!
I've had a really rough past couple of years..My motivation to get back into webcam modeling like many of us is the money - But, I am extremely lonely...often times will have my cam on while I'm watching TV to just feel like I'm not alone. (this is not a pity party by any means, I really just want to make some good friends with all of you beautiful, wonderful ladies out there.
I hope that the following isn't considered TMI, I am a very open person..I have always dreamt of writing a memoir, and am starting to work harder to see this through - but some of what I am sharing is quite personal...which I am sharing in hopes to both make friends here who maybe have been through similar ordeals, or maybe I could help, but really to just explain how I got here.
My brother, only sibling, best friend in the world - took his life 2 weeks after his 25th birthday, June 13th 2015. (if anyone is interested in seeing a video we made a bit prior to his death, alone with a link to his memorial, if you google 'Learn how to Speak Gibberish and it's Perks' - that is us
)I've struggled with Anorexia since I was 14, brought on initially by a rape - I was finally in remission from age 25-29, had gained over 60 pounds, putting me at 150 - I am 5'3 - I never thought I would be ok with this...but I was healthy, I was happy, and I really was not worried about my weight! It was crazy! I had no idea how it happened, and wish I did...But after Jim shot himself, I went into a tailspin. I had finally found a career I loved, in insurance, I had gone to so many studies and schooling and passed all my licensing exams, (which I have kept up, to avoid retaking those things, lol!) But I was in the second year of my career, loving it, doing well - then he died. My world shattered. It is still shattered. For anyone who has lost a loved one, in any way, you know how either it is nearly impossible to eat, or for some the other way around - I couldn't eat anything, I didn't eat for weeks, I had to eat yogurt with almond pieces, anything easy to literally just swallow - but weight started coming off -and then...Ana was back...this was how I would cope...I stopped eating...and let it take me over again. This was how I could control his death...my feelings...everything. And that was the beginning of the end!
I lost 40 pounds in 1 month...this was September 2015...I was so malnourished and sick that even driving to work I am shocked that I did - I couldn't form a sentence talking to people...I literally shut myself in my office, and watched emails come in, that I couldn't figure out how to answer, how to speak, how to make sense of anything, I was too sick...I avoided all phone calls. I was a month behind...it was becoming too hard to hide. I finally told my boss I needed help...these people loved me, they always said they wanted me there forever, that I was their best account manager, so great with clients...but between my 3 weeks bereavement, being a month behind in everything, and now going to the hospital...they were trying o be supportive...but not happy. I didn't know how long hospitalization took - especially to try to fix over 16 years of anorexia...the. hospital is telling me 12-18 weeks...my boss was texting every 3 days asking when I was coming back!
It was November...my grandmother passed while I was there in the hospital...and it was so hard...I was so scared...mostly about gaining weight...and losing my job. So finally I was sick of it (and terrified of the weight) and I left, against medical advice. My grandma had just died, I just wanted to go home to my mom and then go back to work. Well...3 days before thanksgiving it was as well, I figured I would take thanksgiving off, and return Monday - I told my boss as this was all going down...(leaving AMA is no easy feat!) but I finally was packing my bags - and my boss called to tell me they had decided to fire me the week prior. Due to how much time I'd missed, as well as how behind I had gotten while I was so sick...and my own fault of not telling anyone I was so behind. It was my fault, no question.
Oddly, I called my mom bawling, and she had just broken her foot literally 5 minutes prior - her right foot, slipped on a piece of lettuce in the grocery store! So she needed my help. This was also our first holiday without my brother....she was going to help me financially while things were straightened out, and I would be taking her to various appointments, work, etc. I thought I could just stay on my eating plan! (yeah, right!)
Grief over losing my brother has literally put me into a 'freeze' mode - I keep getting sicker...in every way. My period is messed up now...and I want kids so badly....
So now, I am here, saving money specifically for my new deductible and out of pocket max, to go back to the eating disorder hospital. I have avoided this over a year...but I know, I will never be able to move forward or meet people if I can't go out on a dinner date...or meet for drinks, afraid of calories. I'm hoping with the counseling as well, I will be able to get into a better place with Jim's suicide.
So that, in addition to making extra 'me' money, for my hair, etc, is why I am here financially - but I am equally here in hopes to make more great friends, including female friends - I literally have 1 best friend...and then my ex bf, who is still a friend but not the same at all. I want to meet good people, good girls, ladies, I'm all about girl power and wonderful friendships and supporting one another.
I hope this wan't too much. I'd love to talk to anyone and everyone here - still learning how this site works on here (ambercutie) and I've been admiring so many AWESOME profiles you girls have on MFC, and would LOVE to learn how to make mine as well!!
I hope you are all doing great, and had an awesome weekend!
Please email me or write through here (not totally sure how this works again, lol) my email is vividlygeneric@aol.com - I have another I think set up for this site, but it has my personal name in it - any tips, tricks, etc with how to utilize this site and MFC with the cool profiles - and making friends - please please reach out!! I can't wait to make some great friends
I Wrote a lot more which I saved in my notes elsewhere, and I'm going to just start with this and add more later, just want to see if this is a group of women who might be interested in connecting in a way beyond just our camming, etc
Big Hugs!!! Xoxox
Love Always,
Amy
aka
Kamleesi
- Birthday
- Apr 6, 1986 (Age: 38)
- Location
- Colorado
- MFC Username
- Kamleesi
- Occupation
- Writer/Model/Insurance Agent-Broker/'Cam Model'
Signature
'Kamleesi', Khaleesi..Mother of 'Kameras' & Dragons!
...& 5 extra fluffy cats ('Khatleesi?')
A.k.a. Amy
...& 5 extra fluffy cats ('Khatleesi?')
A.k.a. Amy
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